I love mama zo much..

i need a larger paci for...reasons

I'm pretty sure most of my problems could be solved with money

GOD FUXKING DAMN IT

my god i want to go and see people

she sheer amount of money I'd have to spend on travel to see someone is ridiculous

The desire has building inside me to be drop, drop, dropped as far as I can go, until I'm nothing more than a drooly, babbly girl on the floor... No adult thoughts even POSSIBLE until someone else decides to use the trigger to give them back

and success!

anyway, time for stuffie surgery!

i really hate how much of a barrier my coordination is for doing things

I need to find a therapist that encourages me to be a toddler

I now have all three seasons of generator rex on my laptop

now hold on a fucking second THE SHIPPING IS MORE THAN THE DAMN DIAPERS IT'S OVER £100 FOR A PACK WHAT THE FUCK LILCOMFORTS

current mood: wanna be age regressed back to daycare/preschool

I cannot express how bad i need these

I NEED I NEED I NEED I NEED I NEED

I don't feel like I let my friends know often enough I'd like to be babied and treated like a baby... my dream day just involves getting changed and dressed up in my favorite onesie, and just getting lost in playing all day 🥹

my lil sis sent me a pic of space skirtalls and I NEED THEM

My life won't be complete until someone asks me to do something and I can reply with 100% honesty by saying "my mama says I'm not allowed to do that"

either: I'm really bad at sewing my thread is really bad quality or I'm an incredibly wiggly girl BEXAUSE THE HARNESS VROKE AGAIN AND I WASNT EVEN USINF IT

Ok, bottles of regression milk: Purple- deep regression Pink- inability to talk using fully formed words Green- inability to stand Let’s hear some more ideas…

i would do insane things for space diapers

it seems that mamas set a goal of losing my panties..

man its way too hot

i wonder if i could get a script written then mama to read it,,

pissing so much you turn the indicator yellow again

i love amam sos muxh

lets try that again i should probably go pee

i should prpaaaffnfeh

it seems I'm unable to sleep the day away

this is gonna be a great weekend :D

thanks for everryone taht sent replies to me last night i might reply i might not it will happen again

my main Spotify playlist is filled with some banger depressed music

dw dw ill be back to the same old alice soon which is to mean back to bottling everything up

well I'm on the floor no sobbing yet let's see if the repression stops or not

how loud do you have to blast music before you can't think anymore

i can feel it in my jaw

i know a million ways to do it and it'd be so fucking easy to do so many

i do wish my anger would actually stay as such and stop becoming sadness

sure i'll do this! sure i'll do that! i need to start saying no and setting boundaries jfc

i can't even remove myself from one specific group of people i'd literally have to start over entirely cause everyones fucking mixed themselves together

it's i'm a coward hours i don't think i've ever really posted like this in successiion

i want to be helpful more often than not i end up a hinderence

here's the funny part! if anyone actually asks me about this, i'll just delete it all and lie

it really would be easier for everyone if grief wasn't a thing why the fuck is this a moral issue for me???

it's 1 now so, we'll see

i wonder what time tonight i'll end up sobbing on the floor

i have a depressive episode like every other month or smth it'll pass... i'm not gonna finish that thought

i turn 21 in just about 3 months and I don't have anything to show for it. Like i know this is a very common thing for people to feel like they've achieved very little because of comparison but like i literally have nothing i've no job no social life i haven't even started my transition sad tbh