I had a relatively good day today and I’m still clutching a pillow in a dark room and zoning out while trying to get my heart rate back to normal and crying

I feel like a mass of writhing flesh that’s anxiously reaching out at all angles to grab something to hold

Idk if I just had a panic attack or what but I have to take my meds

So there’s this He/they who’s trying to rizz me up

Trying to post all the inane incessant horny and slightly problematic very manic thoughts on here instead of Facebook

I actually do like to yap a lil when I’m given the space to and feel comfortable around you

A trans girl having a weird relationship w a weird str8 guy is her natural born right

I don’t like how goon has become a synonym for m*sturbation in the Internet lexicon but boy is it better than fap

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Practicing a pop country song all day and suddenly I have lockjaw from positioning my mouth in that country way

Something I’ve never medically or psychologically investigated that you wouldn’t know about me unless you spend a lot of time with me is sometimes I randomly get tics. My whole body or parts of It will shake, jolt, and spasm indiscriminately. #disability

i don’t care what nobody says One Piece is one of the greatest stories ever told

10/10 review for my Tuckituppp thongs I just got oh my god

In my “late 20s” now getting into improv, sketch comedy, and table top rpgs I’m already polyamorous so I guess it was only a matter of time

Nothing like the voice training kicking in mid phone call and then hearing my name and switching from Mr to miss

Wow hi

Case in point: my boss while trying to be supportive was like “we’d never fire you for your lifestyle” alluding to my transness like thanks but it’s not a lifestyle lol

Me all day: I hate my job Me after facilitating an antiracism portion of a board meeting where I got people to actively engage: ok sometimes it’s tolerable but I still think I want to not work in a predominantly white / cis / het environment where my work feels silo’d and only appreciated by a few

Isekai anime be like “ah yes this 40 year old office worker possess a unique set of skills…”and that’s why the teen to late 20 year old waifu girls of this fantasy land are throwing themselves at him

Not referring to it as bottom surgery anymore Just calling it “baking that custom cookie”

“Girls like us spend a lot of time fighting for space. Lord knows plenty of people won’t give it to us willingly. But sometimes, especially when you’re feeling lost, the best thing you can do is just go where you’re wanted. Get what you want” - Clean Slate on Amazon Prime

Bullying everyone on my roster I haven’t linked w in months to go and get tested bc what do you mean you’re fine bc “the only people i’ve been w are you and my girlfriend”… wait ur girlfriend?? Be so fr

random but FUCK DRAKE

Challenge failed

I know it’s 8 am I know it’s Sunday but…. I NEED yall to dress sluttier I NEEED yall to dress in a way that sparks gender euphoria

Shark tale is the 3rd best animated movie ever

Dl trade stop hitting me up Valentine’s Day weekend challenge

Having emotionally vulnerable Conversations makes me hot and bothered

Haven’t had sex in two weeks think I’m dying

Who else celebrating Throat Fück Thursday today

Fun Valentine’s activity: You should hit up everyone on your roster, all your exes and everyone you’re delusional about this weekend to gather in a room and point and laugh at you

Still slurping on the dumb bitch juice

The crutch of pretty privilege when ten years ago you were an ugly nigga

My immediate family of my mother, younger bro and grandma know already, and any family that actually pays attention to my very public social media, but I think this week I’m finally gonna send that “coming out” text to the extended family group chat I composed last month before Trump took office 😬

Bro you used to be cool like when you were a fetus and had a weird tail and a baby yoshi head

I think for the most part regardless of how I dress even when i wear streetwear or “masc”/androgynous fits I can “pass” for cis assumed until I speak now. Or at the very least only get clocked by other trans people, allies, and the most afflicted victims of trans derangement syndrome.

Well at the ripe old age of 26 I finally have a bank account in my legal name and my first savings account 🫣

First paystub w my new name finally

Reapplying gloss when no extra gloss was needed? Yeah that’s me

I got a trans liberation tattoo like less than a month ago. I already want a new tat

Last legal document I need to update is my birth certificate. Want to get on that in the next 2 months but this week I’m starting the process of updating my name / gender on my banking info, insurance, and utilities

Last night was a round of political theatre I actually enjoyed It’s still fuck the NFL tho I’m of the opinion all Black athletes and celebrities are just a new form of slave and Kaepernick, the head trauma lawsuits, the team managers and owners, and artist contracts continually reaffirm that

The earliest I could get an appointment with the NYC department of health to amend the name and gender on my birth certificate is in April now. That’s the last gov document I have to change too. Everyone must be trying to do the same thing before we can’t anymore even in NYS.

My heart rn is so incredibly sad and so incredibly hopeful at the same time despite at all

All forms of celebrity from micro to macro from online to irl is a prison of our own design

Cuba was amazing!!!