Been having a really hard time again. Lengthy emotional flashbacks are a hell of a thing. Social media takes too much energy so I'm going to keep taking care of myself the best I know how. Hope I can get some help/relief soon. See you in a few days maybe.

Not feeling good about myself. I'll be around whenever.

I often wonder why I don't start projects I think about. I think about things I want to make everyday. I heard someone recently phrase starved creativity as a function of shame. It's really hard for me to get over; I suspect some of you can relate. What would really be a shame is if I never create.

No more paws. *wills all paws out of existence*

Anyway, sorry to get into all that. Just one of those things that sits with you, sometimes more than others.

I think the worst is when a person is psychologically manipulative. Gaslighting when you call them out on their behavior, deflection to make everything about you, and complete refusal to accept responsibility for oneself. Narcissists do that, but psychopaths are professionals. Naturally remorseless.

It's my brother's bday tomorrow and I should probably text him a happy one to stay cordial, but he's also a psychopath who threw sand in my eye for no reason when I was 10, called me womanly, refused to give me a ride in his car for being gay, and casually tossed around words like "degenerate".

*stares at you menacingly from the shadows*

I want to be a fun guy between your toes Except it won't be me who uncontrollably grows

I'm proud of how much you've grown today. You did a really good job.

I think I'm doing good this week. I've been meditating 5 days each week. The prompts afterwards give me helpful subjects to reflect on, and it's calming being able to express myself so fully. #MH

Your pants are illegal. Outgrow them immediately. You have 15 seconds to comply.

I kinda wonder if Sony dropped their Big News yesterday because they know what's going on at Microsoft, and that will take the heat away when they make their move.

Happy grow forever day

Yesterday's news makes me re-appreciate my collection. I'd boxed up a bunch of games and took down my decorations in the formerly designated "arcade". It looks kind of sad like that. I'm going through and cleaning the protective cases. I'm going to finally lug up my new display case this week.

When I cum, I grow. When I grow, I cum. A vicious circle.

God I love coffee and cumming

Gonna cum

Actually in a pretty good mood despite all the news this week. I'll take it where I can get it.

10X bigger paws...

I wish my paws were bigger.....

They're memories. Christmases. Birthdays. Weekends. Time spent with friends, brothers, even parents when they were brave enough to make a fool of themselves and try something they didn't understand. Physical media is art, and I will cherish it always.

Killing physical games felt inevitable after the GTA 6 announcement, I just didn't expect it this quickly. Damn. 90s era was my sweet spot, but it's going to be rough not even seeing plastic shells. Not that I play many modern games. :p

I want to nuzzle and smooch the big paws.

Emailed my potential therapist an introduction. I'm a little nervous about it. My trust issues are significant, and it's hard to talk about the trauma and betrayal I've experienced. It's an important step, though. It's fine for me to be independent, but it's not healthy to be this alone. #MH

After observation, I don't know how well Adderall's working. I feel it lifts the floor, but it's much subtler than Ritalin was. Doesn't help with concentration or give me a boost. I still have unpredictable lows, but I think it's doing something. No side effects that I notice. #MH

I'm big in Japan, and everywhere

sheath stuffing would happen no escape

Do you know what would happen if a coyote were big

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THAT KITTY BIG

I've been enjoying this guy's channel the past couple days. I don't know how you sustain a lifestyle like that, but he seems so authentically happy all by himself with just his pets, traveling around on a cozy lovely houseboat. I could never. youtu.be/4dAb1VvUEtg?...

I don't talk too much about my interests in Jungian philosophy or Pokemon TCG. They're both fairly esoteric at the level I enjoy them, but I would be reticent to never bring them up, otherwise I would be denying core aspects of myself, at least, at this point in time.

Some Pokemon singles I've been collecting the last few months. I like the old Tag Team and GX cards, especially the promos. That modern Chinese-exclusive Meowth is beautiful.

The fox knows many things. The hedgehog knows one big thing. The coyote knows size alteration magic.

Am excited because psych referred me to a philosophy-professor-turned-therapist and that is (cross fingers) exactly what I hoped for.

When the level is so predictable you dont even bother anymore #furryart #paws #starfox

Please do not ask me to suddenly turn around. I accidentally clocked three kobolds on the snout and hosed down a busload of tourists going to the art museum, they told me if I cannot control myself I will go to HYPER JAIL

precum = me YUM sorry

Oh Mr. Bronson 🦦💦

THAT KITTY BIG

Hyper frotting clone coyotes

Every time I consider moving, my search takes me to the suburbs around Minneapolis. Edina is probably too rich for my blood, but there are plenty of others with lovely parks and affordable townhouses. It'll still probably be 1-2 years, realistically, but it's nice to dream.

The news is upsetting so I'm just going to think about you growing, and your paws.

It gets even bigger when you praise it.

"Dude, you need to download the latest firmware. They just added a hotfox." "Uh, do you mean 'hotfix'?" "No... Download the firmware." "......Oh, my. That's a big update..."

Name is totally normal fox

wake UP. You are GROWING!

snuggly comm for soraime.bsky.social featuring Blue "Ice Cream" Moon!!!!!!!

The person who works with the weather says it's supposed to be hot the next few days because of the sun, but REALLY I think it's because of you