Can I just be done?

My drive home from AqF was definitely blurry because of the tears. I wish it was just from PCD, because then I would know it will get better soon. But I know it’s because I spent most of the con pushing down my sadness about the loss of a dear friend. Tomorrow is going to be so hard. 😔

I would do anything for love, but bacon grease while shirtless? I won’t do that. Happy Mother’s Day to my wife and all other Moms!

I should probably post when I’m in a good mood too, so my page isn’t just sad sack shiny BS. lol Overall, I’m doing well. And I should do a better job remembering that.

What’s the opposite of a self-help book? Is it a “self-destruct book”? Is there a market for such a thing, or is everyone else already as good at it as I am?

The bittersweet realization that you’re a generally happy person because your phone doesn’t unlock when you’re crying.

Removing myself from situations hurts others. Goodness, if I haven’t heard a better argument for never getting into situations in the first place. I think I would like to silently sit in a box until it’s time for my final removal. Time for a step back from all of this to refocus.

Imagine you are being summoned. What gif represents that?

The transmutation of emotions is a harsh alchemy.

I’m convinced there is no dignified way to eat Taco Bell. But on my knees in the living room, head tilted back, eyes watering and sweaty, choking on a too big bite of burrito while sauce runs down my chin? Probably the most undignified. I hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me.

Part of me knows that I shouldn’t house an entire package of Girl Scout cookies as my “lunch” …..but that part of me is obviously not in charge of my actions today!!

When I leave for five days for @fursquared.com and I come back to all the toilet paper rolls being on backwards. It’s utter lawlessness when I’m away!

The PCD only really hits after I take the “soon” out of my display name

When you check in on the homefront re: Microsoft Rewards points progress while you’re away, and you have to share some of your present excitement. Great to finally meet you @suedeer.bsky.social. Let me know if you need board game recommendations! 🎲 🦊

You know that feeling of crazy productivity experienced with a looming deadline? How do I do that without procrastinating until the last minute? Because my brain chemicals are doing a revenge on me now.

I really wanna do a friend art remix again ^^ this is so memorable ❤️ giving this adorable traditional art some solid lines & color for more life, keeping the meaning of such a sweet gesture 🙌 pls, more of this! No money was exchanged, was simply a lil gift between friends. T🎨: @zorvisfox.bsky.social

Today I had to poop after I got out of the shower. I’m going back to bed because my day is obviously ruined.

Dear Me from 24 hours ago… Just shut up!

After years of learning about my ADHD brain, I know that focusing on one thing at a time is the best way for it to be successful. …but I’m also mad at it right now, so I’m gonna punish it by trying to do five things at once.

So far, it has been a great year. I feel like 2025 will be a very fun, exciting year personally, and if it isn’t, at least I’ll have this post to look back on and laugh.

Improve a movie with “fuck” Mr. Magorium’s Fuck Emporium

Is it too much to ask these days for a Thursday to not completely derail my self-confidence in my motivations & intentions? Maybe the common theme here is that people are finally trying to tell me how shitty I am and how I am a self-involved user, and, because of how hard I try not to be, it hurts.

“I am a slut onion. The more layers you peel, the sluttier I look. So if I hit slut critical mass for someone, I’d stop undressing.” - Real thing I have said in conversation

I am so incredibly lucky and happy to live a life surrounded by the love of great people. I will never stop appreciating the billion unique ways that my family and my friends show me they care. 💙

Murphy’s Law of Bedtime: If any toys are left out after the baby goes down, you will step on the one with the loudest possible sound. This little blue shit does its loud ass call twice per incident. #parenting #bedtime

This weekend has been one of the greats. Got to spend chill time with the family, get the house clean, have friends over to play board games and watch movies, get some cuddle time in both with friends and my wife, (mumbles) fulfill my husbandly duties. Amazing time with people I care deeply about.

After being down for the count the past week and a half, it’s nice to get a good sweaty exercise in. Making the commitment to come back stronger, just to spite the germs. Now a shower and personal hair maintenance. It’s a #selfcare day. Gotta get back to feelin good about myself.

Bodies shouldn’t be allowed to trick you like this. They shouldn’t be allowed to say “oh yeah, you’re totally fine and you can do whatever you want again” if they’re going to betray you again and make you wake up multiple times a night to make you sit on the toilet. God this sucks. #sick

That super irresponsible urge to ditch all my responsibilities for the rest of the weekend and drive the 3ish hours to the place where my soul can be healed in a sea of fluffy hugs and good friends. I hope everyone at #MFF2024 is having a great time!

Second of the “1 every 3 days” challenge I’m doing for Dec. Prompt for this one is “Crafts & Candy” Gotta stop waiting until the third day each time. Could probably polish them up a bit more. #furry #furryart #doodle

The inevitable happened today. To anyone going to #MFF2024, please be aware that this is a moderate year for #norovirus outbreaks. Since this is a highly contagious, but ultimately fast resolving “stomach bug”, it’s hard to track accurate numbers. Please be safe, wash hands, and consider masks.

I’m just gonna post some random doodles and junk I’ve done over the years to help populate this account with at least some kind of content. #doodle #furry #furryart

I do not wish children on anyone, that’s up to each person to decide for themselves. HOWEVER! I do hope everyone finds at some point in their life the type of love that transcends and endures all the various disgusting acts that caring for/cleaning up after sick loved ones entails. #parent

After rushing home yesterday to help with sick baby, then that turning into help with very sick wife, and finally this morning’s sick school-age boys, I am the last one standing. I finally understand the people in disaster movies who don’t run from the tidal wave. It is inevitable. #parent

As a parent, you sometimes do not get the luxury of smell sensitivities. There are messes you need to clean that you cannot afford to make larger. The dissociative armor of needing to take care of others. #parentlife

What use is there in being an imaginative dreamer if all my dreams are about ways to have fun with friends and events I want to plan, and none of them are about how to become successful and rich enough to facilitate them?

I don’t get to make enough people happy during my job. I think that might be why I make it a focus of my free time. Holy poop! Did I just figure out why my job is so unfulfilling!? Might need to incorporate that knowledge in my next job search.

Wish you were here. Also wish you were a board game so I could play with your bits and pieces. Wait! That came out wrong! Oh noooooo! Now I’m a #HornyOnMain guy!! There goes my marketability as “wholesome”

Such a complex state of being today. My heart is sad #AQF is over, My brain is buzzing with con ideas for the next con, and my body is exhausted from running around helping out as staff and trying to hit as many events as possible in the free time I had. Such a high. Gotta chase that feeling.

“Trunk or treats are ruining Halloween” is a super weird complaint to takeaway from… (Checks notes) …not having minors you don’t know show up to your place of residence, even after you offer them candy. #halloween

I want to be perceived by my friends with incredulity. I want the interactions we have together to leave them believing there is no way someone can exist who is so supportive, caring, and an all around joy to be with. And then I want to never do anything to prove them right. #SelfishSelflessness

I briefly had a notion that moving to this platform should include posted all my unsent drafts from that other platform. Then I reread them and realized they would be just as depressing here. lol

Did a silly little doodle today. How @milletbirb.bsky.social and I are gonna roll up to Aquatifur.

Hi, I’m Zorvis. I’m a 37 year old fox who loves board games, video games, disc golf, and a bunch of other hobbies that my ADHD brain has collected over the years. Most of all, I like being a person, and trying to figure out what that means vis-a-vis friendship, philosophy, and general humanity.

There are really people who think “the block change isn’t that bad because alternate accounts already got around blocks” Well the answer certainly isn’t “let’s just make it easier for them to find and stalk and harass people who have blocked them”