erowid style trip report for life itself Substance: Endogenous consciousness Route: Embodiment (continuous infusion) Dosage: Unknown Duration: 70 years

internetification of markets creates winner-take-most dynamics and race to the bottom for scraps: dating markets (dating apps & instagram) labour market (linkedin, global talent pools) retail (amazon & chinese d2c) attention markets (long tail of 0 views on yt/spotify)

substack is linkedin for theatre kids linkedin formula: personal anecdote, relation to b2b saas, neat conclusion substack formula: personal anecdote about being {in early/mid/late 20s} or {2nd gen immigrant}, universalisation to human experience, ambivalent conclusion about Change or Loss

the more i think about it, the less crazy it seems that capitalism is "an alien superintelligence constructing itself from the future". nick land seems to be saying 1. collective action problems at scale make capital ungovernable ("alien") ...

started working on a short story yesterday. a fictional work of gonzo journalism about the porn industry

2-part counterpoint written entirely on paper first. it doesn't sound like a disaster i expected. very fascinating

got a midi keyboard and i’ve been playing with composing music. wrote down an arpeggio without playing and revised it after hearing what seemed off. i’ll try a two-part counterpoint next without listening. and yes i’ve never written a melody and my audiation is shit. van gogh quote about skill etc

sometimes i wonder if my cleverness is wasted on hinge

turned 23 today

Woz did the right thing. He cultivated the virtue of danā over the vice of macchariya. Everyone tells themselves they're holding wealth to some greater end, but usually that end is just themselves.

this is the only mondrian that makes sense to me. maybe if i saw the others in person they'd speak to me, but this one i understand even through the screen. there's an incredible amount of tension in it

@norvid-studies.bsky.social salvaged_studies

wife: "every horror video game is either guy crawling around the sewers looking for keys, or woman simulator"

college friend came to visit for a few days and we were chain-smoking at this really nice cafe that's a 20 minute drive away but i can't find it within myself to do all of that alone

technologies that don’t augment the mind are easily 'metabolised' by humanity at large. fire, the wheel, steam engine, spears—people master these easily. but no technologies that augment thought have been metabolised. (1/5)

Which one of the two bodhisattvas, avalokiteshvara or manjushri, would you like to meet? 1️⃣ avalokiteshvara (boundless compassion) 2️⃣ manjushri (transcendent wisdom) 📊 Show results

@norvid-studies.bsky.social remember that german guy who got laid in brazil and stopped poasting. zeit_sinn?

God, the Lapidarist—a short vignette I wrote on Kant, the afterlife, and memory:

God, the Lapidarist—a short vignette I wrote on Kant, the afterlife, and memory:

Ray Peat on an alcoholic writer who regained his fluency in speech after an intravenous injection of vitamin B2

overlooked banger imo

it's interesting how certain artists seem to need to suffer to make Great Art, but others can make Great Art from a place of joy. consider for example trent reznor and steve reich. for the former type, joy and contentment brings about mediocrity

do the e/acc javascript programmers who call themselves capitalists recognise that no matter how well they're paid, they are part of the worker class, not capital-owning class

Papers by Yoshinao Satoh, a short film: www.youtube.com/watch?v=56EG...

watching the late afternoon sunlight fall across the walls, plants, and floor of my garden, it strikes me that i can't express the sheer gravity of being alive, or even understand it

Senses are so different in the ocean. There's a hard limit to how far you can see, but every direction is just as important. You can touch the shadows of things that have moved past as they move past you and dissipate. You can hear across the world. Perhaps the only similar sense is smell.

wrote a little discursive essay on group self-selection, narrative construction, emptiness in buddhism, and deleuze. oxidist.github.io/2025/07/19/S...

wrote a little discursive essay on group self-selection, narrative construction, emptiness in buddhism, and deleuze. oxidist.github.io/2025/07/19/S...

i've finished about 2/3 of 'platform' by houellebecq and it's funny, prescient even, re: islam in europe, sex tourism being a microcosm of the first world's relationship to the third world etc. the problem with being so prescient is that it now reads like bronze age pervert-ist pablum

Why are these living patterns so obsessed with each others' topology?

visions of based world: using a dummy subject (as in 'it' in "it's raining") in phenomenological reports. for example, "it thinks, therefore 'i' is not"

my name is $NAME and i seek validation and approval via casual sex with women

how does subjective idealism deal with evolution? like, without positing an external environment in which reinforcement learning is happening

if i ever put "Father. Husband." in my bio feel free to shoot me in the head

new profile pic. point in red is the furthest point from any ocean on earth en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pole_of...

there is no need to control, because you were never even in control. let that shi go

seeing that frees: meditations on emptiness and dependent arising by rob burbea

you are now suffering manually

1. all there is in internal experience is the now 2. when one imagines a future self, or another person, who embodies a trait such as confidence or discipline or agency, one creates a mental mood board (cont.)

it feels quite nice to open oneself to the richness of the present moment. there's so much more here than in the stirring of stale narratives by one's mind

i feel like i've become a better flirt after my vietnam trip. something about having to be more direct because of the unreliability of translation apps and the subsequent lack of negative consequences of that directness that i was expecting

Conference of the Birds

i did lsd a few days ago (100ug). among other notable effects, i've had 0 desire to smoke cigarettes despite a habit of smoking 3-4 cigarettes a day for the past few months

drink a verification can to continue