Looking strong first thing in the morning. 🔥

There are few things better in this world than your friend poking your arse late at night.

My PT has an incredible variety of ways to make me suffer*. *I love the way working at the edge makes me feel.

I have just had an unusual experience. I agreed to be filmed for my entire pilates session today.

I could not work out why my side is hurting until I remembered falling off the wobble board earlier. Ouch.

Heart hurting today.

Bought a wobble board. Stood on a wobble board. Fell off the wobble board. Working on my balance is gonna be hard. Ouch. Impressive fall.

Happy Bank Holiday Bum Day. I love this image. Surprisingly so. #BankHolidayBumDay

Happy Bank Holiday Bum Day. I love this image. Surprisingly so. #BankHolidayBumDay

CN: Impact play. Spanked over his knee to orgasm. Then, whilst in a puddle of orgasmic high, he deftly strapped the thigh cuffs on, followed by wrist cuffs and then spanked me more. 🔥

Lost my earbuds today. Got frustrated so grabbed a different pair. Later needed to go into a meeting and I don't have a pocket. I went to tuck this pair into my bra to then discover that the original set were already there. What have uou tucked into your bra and forgotten about?

Yesterday, I found out just how ridiculously awful my balance is. I am not sure how I have made it to adulthood.

A glimpse from this morning.

I hate veggie day at work. It is like playing Russian roulette as they seem to love to sneak kidney beans in to the food.

Feeling wobbly today. Both emotionally and physically. Got so nauseous in my PT session yhat I had to finish early. I didnt like that. I was really enjoying myself.

Off to the piercer today to get the most recent two downsized. I am very very tempted to get something else done while I am there. I wonder what to get...

Do I have a praise kink? Maybe. But maybe not. I do know that I have to trust people first before I can accept praise. When that happens, praise is so powerful.

Back on deadlifts after a break due to a trapped nerve. I was wary buy proper delighted with how it felt today. I am still strong.

Another reason to be grateful for the NHS. I am reliant on a multitude of meds and can access them. I have just had to collect the next pack of meds for my cat and one small bottle is £99. If I was looking at those costs (or more) for all my meds and I doubt I would take them all.

Monday morning. Maybe Monday motivation.

I need something good to watch or listen to this evening otherwise the tears are going to win.

I fucking do not want to go back to work tomorrow. It has taken two weeks to feel as if I am capable of existing.

I am a bit drunk.

Apparently crop tops feel a lot skimpier when travelling home a little bit drunk.

I couldn't resist sharing this year shirt with you.

I couldn't resist sharing this year shirt with you.

I can definitely recommend starting the day the way that I have today. Earl Grey tea, spanking, belt, orgasms, porridge and coffee.

Today has been "a day" in the best possible way.

Joining in with #BankHolidayBumDay

Seeing @ghostsinsnow.bsky.social and @confessorprofessor.bsky.social is universe delighting.

Time spent with @littlecageling.bsky.social and @lucystargazer.bsky.social is the most fabulous.

I think i deserve a medal for remembering not to wear my "I love cock" t shirt in public today.

NSV: I have just wriggled into a new pair of jeans. A smaller pair of jeans.

I got married 36 years ago today. Even though the marriage ended, we have successfully coparented throughout. It is a weird thing to have such a long relationship that is a failure and also, in another metric, a success. Still want to throttle him sometimes.

New bench press PB. Proud.

It is World Bipolar Day today. It's a condition that has a lot of stigma and a lot of barriers. I urge you all to try and understand it better. #WorldBipolarDay

I am having a lazy Monday. Self-care and recovery.

Wednesday

Wednesday

Touch has always been important to me. More than even as a love language. I try not to be needy for touch because life. I had the best night's sleep on Saturday and I am sure that was partly because I was snuggled with his hand resting on me. Never underestimate the value of physical touch.

Deliberately sitting in my office chair in such a way to make me feel the marks from the weekend.

First workout in my new lifting shoes. Really proud of myself. Currently working with a weight cap because of a trapped nerve (sciatica). I am still strong and my form is improving improving. Really worked on my bench press form today.

I just want full skin on skin contact. I want to sprawl and tangle and be wrapped up in limbs. I want to be so safe and sleepy in their presence.

I am still riding the wave of the endorphins and mind-body connection of the last 24 hours. So many amazing experiences. I am also proud of myself for asking for what I wanted/needed at the beginning.

Started my day over his knee. 🥰

Fucking hell. Some people are so powerful in quiet ways. I am grateful that I can accept the gifts that they give.

Things are getting serious. I am considering buying weightlifting shoes.

On Mother's Day (UK), i just want to express my gratitude for my children. I'm not an easy person. I have bipolar, CFS, depression, anxiety etc. I have always tried to put my children first & to ensure that they feel utterly secure in my love. They're all adults now & they give me back so much love.

I have been added to a group from a job that I left 17 years ago. They are trying to organise a reunion. I really don't know how I feel about it.