// two job interviews: one I left because they hadn't formally discharged an employee who was being interviewed in the group (which was never designated as a group interview) and one I'm waiting for now... after being an hour early because I forgot what time it started at and buses are running funny

Everything feels tight, sore, as if I overdid it today, but I need to get myself ready... for anything.

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The process? Exhausting. The time? Costly. The effort? Painful The price? Expensive. The cause? FUCKING WORTH IT. And I have help. I'm coming back, FFW...

// ideas for this one are few and far between... i think it's lack of proper nutrition and stimulation at this point, but oh well... I'll keep Bobbi around, since I think I'm not done with her

Sleep has become very weird. In the darkness, I hear whispers; beckoning calls and boons for change. As I wake, everything still feels dim, an arc of shadow over my gaze until the dark truly breaks. I think I need to see someone about all of this.

the whispers... they're so loud, but so very soothing... all in my mind, all in the silence...

An arc, black as night, crossing the sky... a sunset blazing blood red... the scent of chaos wafting through the air... what's going on?

Gotta get back into being me, face the darkness... But it's so warm... inviting...

I keep looking outside, and the sky seems darker... I don't even know if my eyes are playing tricks on me; everything looks just fine in the hospital, but why does it feel like the sun is that much dimmer?

I don't miss any of them; I miss keeping food down more...

not quoting Robbyn to curse Robbyn; I hope Ani is okay... But this has happened to me, so I feel only numb about my life.

Can't even turn on the TV without thinking about what I might be leaving behind forever. I feel like I wasted years of my life...

Chemo started. Opted for injections. Shaved my head to be sure.

After tonight, I'm going back home and starting treatment, and I don't even know if I'm ever coming back to wrestling. I have no friends here, never did. #lonelyliving

Maybe they're right... why bother even showing up?

// off social media for the day #fuckreallife

I. DO NOT. CARE. ANYMORE! Do I need to spell it out any more clearly? Mō owarida, owatta, kudaranai koto wa owatta! ¡Ya he oído, visto y sentido suficiente!

No, I think you can

Honestly, I'm starting to see that this eagle needs to fly solo. Either people don't know or they don't care. That's fine; it's easier to find the truth alone.

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// We now have a starter pack for all of those employed by FFW. It most likely will be added to, in case I missed one or more people join. go.bsky.app/G1GuGQY

Okay, so the news from home is that I wasn't a match for my father's liver transplant surgery, but good news is that we found someone who is... #goodnewsright?

The news I've been given, I won't let it interrupt the process, change the course of my career. I'm sorry dad, but at least they found someone who can help you.

News came up while here in Edmonton. I'll be announcing it here and on #X after my appearance on Atomic

The gravity of this win is overshadowed by the gravity of life's weirdness. While recuperating from this match, I'll be in my hometown, Edmonton, seeing if I am a donor match with my father for a piece of liver

I have a lot of stuff to do, but I'm not losing focus yet

With Vendetta this coming Saturday, no better time to start a preview of the card with a match a day till then. Let's start with this being @soargoldeneagle.bsky.social's first big FFW event as she tries to get a #1 contender shot for the Atomic title. She's all hopped up about it.

// i think i need to be left alone for a couple days... i had to leave a discord server i was a part of for a couple years... all D&D, and i can't trust any of the DMs, so there was no sense in playing with them anymore. My posts will be going up as expected, but socializing? #ihateppl

Australia is fun. Good thing I love creepy crawlies... I think a huntsman spider uses my shoe as a bed at night...

For a shot at the #FFWAtomic championship, I intend to put myself through hell, which is why I'm already in Australia, putting in the work, the time and the patience, so everything comes together #gonnaflynow

Gonna add a little prize here for @soargoldeneagle.bsky.social in her match with Sofia at Vendetta. If she wins, I'll put her into a #1 contender match for the Atomic Championship.

Nothing like a little bit of reconnecting with nature to feel a bit stronger. Illness sucks! #FFWAtomic

It's still just as noisy as X, but it's home too...

The Eagle has been added to the starter pack.