is it a trauma or an autism thing to delay doing a thing you love (in this case, a new tori record)? i still haven't listened today. i strangely don't feel ready or in a place to pay attention. this happens a LOT with media for me, in particular. why do i deny myself pleasure this way?

having a hard day/week, so i decided to stop procrastinating on my garden and start some plants today. i've lit the sage and lavender and some amber incense. gonna put my hands in some dirt and ground myself a little.

why don't people respond to things i tell them about my life, even when they ask? almost everyone in my life does this now and it kind of hurts.

saying hi and asking how someone is before launching into wall of text challenge

middle-aged men stop judging tori amos challenge

who are you?

the implication of all these swings in NR imagery 🤭 they truly are a giant polycule. also, please tell me i'm not the only one who considered this. 🤣

Interesting that “The Swing” is a painting about a woman’s sexual agency and subversion of patriarchal ideals and “Ophelia” is a painting about a woman’s lack of agency under the patriarchy.

i seriously doubt tori amos is a new romantic, BUT there's occasionally some similar imagery in tori and taylor's work. this is from the glory of the 80s video. she's sort of floating in a maze of trapeze wires. youtu.be/Why09vTeWP4?...

sometimes it be that way.

Happy Trans Day of Visibility ❤️🏳️‍⚧️❤️

i am 💀 at this woman near me calling palazzo pants "those palooza pants."

Screaming this from the rooftops again. Taylor is not the centre of the maze. She is a path to the centre of the maze.

My life is made infinitely more rich and beautiful through the trans people I know and have the privilege to love!!! I see you today and every day 🏳️‍⚧️🫶🏻

Happy International Transgender Day of Visibility! 🩵🩷🤍🩷💙

OPINION AHEAD. if you don't like my opinions, then ignore them & scroll on. kthx. maybe there's still something else coming, but i'm not really all that impressed with an edit of elizabeth taylor films & footage. i mean, cute? but this whole era feels a little... rushed/phoned in.

this thing where construction companies are doing residential work on sundays is absolute bullshit.

if you're having a rough time, i suggest finding one of the 80s or 90s mtv videos/channels on youtube. i'm crocheting & just letting it play in the background. ps - kennedy is still the most annoying vj everrrrr.

dear @aerinmoriarty.bsky.social, the other day our birbs looked really cute hanging out. 🐦💕

here's a tip for you: take your homophobic, bigoted bullshit and stick it where the sun does not shine.

i'm so sick of travis & this whole stunt or whatever it is. how disappointing/angering that he's been centered in TLOAS promo & now in that speech. i'm just bored with the whole thing.

just once would like to tell someone about what's going on with me without them competing for who has it worse or changing the subject to make the whole thing about them or comforting them instead when i came to them for support. this is why isolate myself.

i am still right here. 🦋

The track listing for In Times of Dragons has been revealed! www.youtube.com/shorts/MEU2e...

The time is now: BE GAYER.

proud of this page i made in my journal and now i don't want to ruin it with text. 🤪

my job. I am going to post the link below. If you wouldn't mind sharing this out, I would be eternally grateful. Any amount will help towards me being able to find a safe and secure home for myself and my cat. Thank you💜 gofund.me/986b0f1aa

you know what i don't want or need to hear: men's opinions about lindy west or any woman for that matter and why women stay in shitty relationships. i literally could not give one single shit what men think women should be doing.

the endless conundrum of needing actual helpful, supportive health care so i can feel better while also having medical trauma which makes trying to find new doctors very scary & unappealing. where are the GPs & specialists who are trauma-informed & caring? do they only exist online to make content?

i'm so tired of telling the people in my life that i'm drowning and they just ignore or minimize it. this whole "reach out in crisis" thing only works if people give a shit about you.

omg i forgot how comforting this record is. 😍 recommended if you like: kate bush, the last dinner party, weyes blood, florence and the machine, enya 😉

man. we are blessed and lucky that ANY artist puts out any creative project at this point, the way they get torn to shreds and nitpicked and dissected and treated like an on-demand entertainment doll. i think i'm really over fan culture. it's so destructive.

i think we will eventually find out for sure that there's a connection between LISK, the *group* behind the son of sam murders, and trump & epstein. they're either connected organized crime OR they're similar groups involved in trafficking, torture, & murder. 👀

so i need an update on how this went. 👀 you KNOW it was either hella awkward or they swapped numbers & now they're besties.

i love sleep token's music, but jesus christ the constant merch announcements. unfuckingsubscribe. it's enough!

if you're banking on midterms or any electoral politics to save us from fascism, you're going to be continue to be extremely disappointed. **they do not care about popular support & they will fix the vote.** our traditional ways of doing things in america don't work now. we need new strategies.

i haven't had a bad arthritis day with my hands in a while but today takes the cake. my hands are so inflamed, they're red. this cold-warm-cold weather is killing my joints. i have lots of stuff i need and want to do and this is really slowing me down. sorry, just needed to vent.

“How many of these gentle people have I helped to kill just by paying my taxes?" June Jordan, 1984

Please understand this is not an Epstein distraction, Israel has been wanting this for 50 years and trump did not need to be blackmailed to do this. This is American imperialism.

it's really disappointing to see yet another round of bitter old queens tearing tori apart in the comments while still following all the fan pages. she has supported queer men forever. it's okay to not like the work, but you don't have to take to every comment section possible to shit on the song.

New Music: Tori Amos – “Stronger Together” stereogum.com/2490093/tori...

i cannot keep up with the demands of online socializing via texts and DMs. every single day. it's truly fucking me up mentally.

i'm really over hearing gen z and alpha (and maybe some millennials) complain about how gen x are basically the same as boomers. NO. i mean, at least we don't find every human interaction terrifying and every and any mention of sexual activity disgusting and shameful. 🙄

y'all, i'm working on something so cool and so energizing and something that connects multiple special interests of mine along with my professional credentials and my desire for social justice. i'm starting to get my writing going again. i'm plotting the start of an indie label, too. 😉

i also really really love this moment on joshua's EP - the "i promise you" is just chill-inducing. great cover!

hiii i just posted a review of my friend joshua's stunning new EP. check it out at redheading.substack.com, then visit joshuabley.bandcamp.com to listen & buy!! ⭐️🩷 joshuabley.com

a mutual on another app has been posting so many images from the files without any TW. even censored, many of these images are triggering. i'm begging folks to be selective about reposting. this should not be about staring at the trainwreck & trying to shock people into caring. 😔