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study

reincarnation

Finally found a chinese speaking male doctor, would prefer a female doctor. But, I learned tolerance with discomfort through experience. I think I can do better this time. Going to do a proper health examine every year. I really don't like to go to the clinic, but it is important to learn self care.

Chinese New year Eve cooking. Trying recipes for Taiwanese style scallion bread and fried chicken. Also, the turnip cake is easier to make with a friendly budget. Cinnamon rolls don't turn out as good,but cool experiments. In the end, I got a stomach ache by tasting all the greasy food.

The flowers you received for #ValentinesDay might have been picked by "Rio" who harvests flowers in Oxnard CA. She earns min wage and makes 8-12 bunches an hour to keep up with productivity requirements. She likes working in nurseries as it’s stable year round work. #WeFeedYou

My cat enjoyed the company every time I started reading. It really calms my nerves and encourages me to read. Usually she would attack me more while I am using my computer.

I also probably need to look for a new place again after I get my driver's license. Hopefully I have better luck finding a quiet place and more affordable rent. I already learned how to survive without doing any take out. Hopefully I can survive this year as well.

Found out a useful sheet for setting up my financial goal before I turn into 60's.

Feeling dumb and trying my best to read. I am getting better since I want more knowledge. The amount of shame and guilt to recognize how far behind triggers anxiety and questioning if I ever get a chance? The noise came back to haunt me I had a terrible accent and will never overcome the obstacles.

Study

You become what you eat. I eat too much flour and sugar and some chips.

Fallen Angel

I made the strawberry with matcha custard mochi because fresh strawberries on sale. But, it doesn't turn out as pretty as it seems. Freeze the half of it so it won't go bad in time. I noticed the amount of sugar I added lately. Every bread and dessert uses flour sugar, milk and eggs.

study based on Mucha.

Bought 4 bags of on sale apples like a chinese grandma. Still feel annoyed by the stares and judgement. But, I am good 🍎

master study sketch father and son

I really enjoyed playing with bread flour lately. I am planning to recreate my childhood memories of bread when I had as a kid back in Taiwan.

"Justo" and his co-workers are picking tangerines in Fresno county CA for min wage. “We have to buy our own equipment - the sack and the scissors - needed for the harvest. I don't speak up about this as I don't want to lose my job." #WeFeedYou

I started to play with bread flour I got on sale for $3.99. One dough with matcha and the other with whole wheat flour. I tried to make it as creative as possible for its color. But, It doesn't show as a pretty color after baking. It is still pretty fun and experimental for bread flour. 🐷

I started investing last year because I lost hope for the art industry. Now I am in the place where I hated myself 15 years ago.

2AM beauty sleeps besides the mouse.

old girls 🚬

Ring

Got some leftover rice flour and tried to figure out it would not be wasteful. The red bean rice cake with white sesame. I added less sugar so it doesn't taste like outside, but I'm trying to fill my red bean dessert craving. Found a way to save on a budget with a traditional chinese receipt.

I really want to get this (Taiyaki Fish-Shaped Cake Maker), but I am not sure if I am going to use it a few times and let it collect the dust. 🤔 I missed adzuki beansTaiyaki and am really afraid I am going to make a lot and overeat it. Canada winter has been too long and depressing.

Here's a Qing Dynasty jade statue that looks like a slab of fatty meat. And another one that looks like a Chinese cabbage. Both were imperial treasures, currently are stored in the Palace Museum in Taiwan. (I'm researching weird Chinese history again)

New spot for the nest, I have to move to the kitchen sink for now.

Is it normal that I want to draw slowly? I used to work in preschool animation and was told I was too slow and my skills weren't great. I feel really shit that even though I try my best, my skill still kind of sucks, but I need to keep trying, even if a lot of the time it turns out to be shit.

sketch. Lose patience...

www.youtube.com/watch?v=icoN... It is really stressful to see all of my feed from the US now. I am afraid Canada will be impacted as well.

I started to fill the holes in my socks even though I got plenty of fresh new one👵 the little cute earrings pouch I got it from Korean shop when I purchased little earrings, I find a great way to reuse it since it has really nice design on it and really sturdy to hold safety pins.

old drawings of little mice

old work 🐈

old work

I love my new shampoo, got it on sale for $3 each. I can't help myself to get more and stock it for the long term use. My Asian parents taught me well ❤️‍🩹 🌝

Making my own coffee chocolate walnuts cake and delicious healthy salad for my birthday 🎂 Turning to 36 today. I used to believe that I have to spend a lot to get big meals in order to feel Worthy. Today I actually feel happy that I have a small healthy meal to remind myself it is enough.

Fuck ICE

I still remember that I failed accounting and biology classes in high school because I was struggling with learning basic English. I am a slow learner, and accounting was scary and confusing. A high school counsellor often assumes the Asian stereotype that I should pick accounting as my major.

education.gale.com/l-tplmain/ I'm really excited that the Toronto Library is offering a bunch of free online courses, including accounting, financial knowledge, writing, and other areas of professional development as well.

Salvation

I have learned to bake more different flavors of cakes and simple Taiwanese style little pancakes with black sesame and brown sugar with walnuts. My cat is not approved for my cooking.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=uAKw... I am not surprised by the decision since China's economy is growing rapidly, and the US doesn't provide any special treatment to Canada, plus tariffs. As a Taiwanese immigrant, I often fear that Taiwan will one day be taken over by China.

I am calling today to ask if any family doctors would accept new patients which are listed on the CPSO site. So far it has been really challenging to find a clinic willing to accept right away. The waitlist could take up till April and May.