I already read 140 pages and I try to take notes and learn the new vocabularies I don't understand. I always struggle and think I might have dyslexia and feel ashamed and overwhelmed by not being able to understand the meaning.

I regret every time I draw at 3 am, and tomorrow I have a $130 driving lesson. 😭

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I enjoyed making lots of whole wheat bread lately. Since my parents weren't native speakers, they don't read English books. I always struggle with reading. I got some books from the library, and I hope I can learn something from them.

Trying new recipes for my Greek yogurt apple cake🍰☺️ Since I failed my G test, making dessert makes me feel less anxious about the cost of driving lessons and the rude examiner. Learning to cope in reality. I turn into an angry old cat woman 🎉

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I failed my G test today, and the examiner arrived 35 minutes late, making the paid fee feel like a waste. I'll file a complaint tomorrow.

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I also punished my cat when she bit my hand today. Not sure how to deal with cats trying to attack your feet while working.

First time trying spaghetti squash with online recipes I found. It is amazing and super filling as well. The squash texture is like spaghetti, but much healthier than real spaghetti made of wheat flour. I am happy that I picked it up when it was on sale for trying different things!

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Eat lots of carbs because it is cheap and filling. I am thinking of swapping for black beans and on sale vegetables. I feel like a pig can't stop eating bread or carb cravings for most of the time.

Heading for my highway driving lesson soon, I am nervous. I usually pass the truck beside me and go over 110 km/hr to feel safe, but I don't know if it would be allowed during the test. I am still nervous about passing through the lane and watching for the exit lane turning as well.

Looking forward to The Devil Wears Prada 2😳

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First time making pizza from whole wheat flour into pizza dough and using onion, kale and cheese as toppings, tomato paste on sale for $1.33.

I overate again and gained more kilos this year. How do people even keep fit for their lives, while I struggle my whole life🐷

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Dealing with the bank makes me feel powerless, trampled on like they're dealing with my basic rights. You've shown me how crucial it is to study hard so no one can ever exploit me.

The idea of facing menopause in 5 years scared the hell out of me. Learning that the older generation had gone through all the shit and was still able to keep it together in life. I am looking forward to embracing it.

Using on sale $4.99 whole wheat flour to try out different flavors of mantou 🐷😬 matcha with jasmine, peanut butter with cocoa powder, brown sugar with longan, miso with seaweed and purple yam with cheese. I am a mantou scientist 🥼 #immaturecook

My mum has been making needle felted mice for a few years and enjoys challenging herself with new themes and ideas. She's just set up her first exhibition at the stately home she volunteers at, with a family of period mice. Incredible.

I found the best way to use apples for dessert. Apple cobbler 🍰🍎

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Miku just caught a tiny mice today. I am going to take it to a nearby park and set it free 🐭 hope it can survive in the winter.

To People who messaged me that wish me not to do well, I suggest you hit the unfollow button. I created art because I had no choice. My art isn't great, but I don't owe any apologies to anyone if you don't enjoy my content.

I have learned to make vegan dumplings for Halloween 🎃 I tried to learn Chinese baking that my family didn't teach me. I feel kind of fun to make my own since I want to save for the long term.

I am packing and organizing my stuff for the move; it would help me to save a few hundred bucks for rent. I would share the place with a Chinese landlord lady. I wish we could get along so I can stay a bit longer to save more money and slowly figure things out.

I just started packing my books for moving. I found out the art book I got for 12 kingdoms. One of my most favorite fantasy novel series I read in high school. The illustrations are just stunning from artist akihiro yamada. I feel glad I got them and it makes me really happy.

As I wrote this personal story, I am not asking for any pity. I write it to remind myself that I still have to work on lots of things. I am getting more comfortable to express myself publicly It is already a huge stepping stone for me.

Also, I wish I had started eating healthier and saving every penny I had earlier, learning how to invest or read more books and listen podcasts, exercising, etc. It is a lonely journey since those habits were never taught by my family in the first place.

As a lower-class immigrant growing up, I strived to overcome all the obstacles and am currently in the process of healing. Every time I went home, I saw my family give me a complicated feeling, which used to be hate and anger of neglect and abandonment.

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