I miss my locked AD. I don’t like airing my problems publicly but at the same time I hate dumping them on one person. Having a small group I trusted that I could just indirectly vent to was a good compromise. Without it, kind of feels like I have no outlet anymore and I can feel it building up…

phox's hiding place

just cats hanging out :3 ft. @nikelcat.bsky.social paws.press/@pinball/114...

It is my birthday, so everyone has to be extra nice and/or mean to me today uwu

I think I am severely overthinking my anxiety about signing into messengers again so I guess I'll just rip the bandaid off and go for it x_x Apologies if I leave you unread or read without replying ;-;

Fun fact: while making the app mockup, I actually spent some time trying to come up with accurate nutrition facts for a micro I think the calories are too low, but it felt appropriate to be vastly undercounting the calories you need to log, so I left it |3

Its so hard to resist a good snack! ... or twenty... Fortunately, Nikel's got a handy app to help them cut some calories here and there... Shaded Commission for Nikel! #nommzart

I think I will be back soon. Been making good progress mentally for a bit now. ...kind of terrified to open telegram and see what I have missed but one step at a time I guess |3

Just checking in. I know there’s been people trying to reach out but I am just not up for talking. I am mentally stuck in a deep, deep rut this time and I don’t know how to get out. I’m still here, though lately I seem to spend most of my time wishing I wasn’t. Hope to see you all again soon

The thought just clicked with me that maybe being mega-depressed for the last month+ and also having started new medication a month+ ago miiiight have something to do with each other My obliviousness is literally going to kill me lmao

What I meant to search for at work vs what I actually received when I googled "hot fox" without thinking I hit the back button VERY QUICKLY and I don't think anyone noticed me immediately blushing 💀

When you avoid the stomp and wind up inside the toe gap... #spottartt #macrofur

More nice shots

Squishing the micro at the party for fun~ w/ @nikelcat.bsky.social

Shriveling into dust at the realization that my Steam account turns 18 tomorrow Finally we can be kinky together

See a butt, post a butt 🍑

Fun Nikel lore: for quite a while after changing names, I couldn’t decide what the proper pronunciation should be So I just listened how others did it naturally for a while, and eventually decided on the official version when I heard Jerma say it |3

The only bad thing about the exodus from twitter is that my locked AD became a ghost town too :( Kinda miss having a more private intimate space

This rat is a menace... help! #spottartt

One of the nice unexpected side-effects of starting GLP-1 shots has been that my desire to drink alcohol has basically completely vanished, I’ve been totally sober for weeks but how do I do karaoke now……

Few things are more of a boner-kill than updating my kinks on f-list and getting the clinical descriptions of horrifying things I forgot existed |3

Forgot about “Only Post” feed where it shows only posts of people you follow and none of the reposts. bsky.app/profile/did:...

[cw: implied cock vore] Just a nice, quick blowjob between friends :3 …well, a few dozen friends technically. They don’t count though, they won’t be around for much longer~ Hot wolf and art is by @qwalf.bsky.social 💜

Good: remembered to mention eye colors to the artist for once! Bad: nearly sent them details that would have made them backwards anyway! PROGRESS |'3

Distracting myself by forcibly overclocking the horny drive And also by blocking myself from viewing any news sites for the next few…indefinite |’3

Barely slept last night and have a horrible sense of despair I know that *I*'ll be fine...but my heart hurts so bad for everyone I know that's in red states, that's trans, that's a person of color, that's in poverty... I'm so goddamn sorry. Look out for each other yall, and disconnect if you need

I am CAT. Sometimes big, sometimes small, sometimes many, but always cat. Mow :3

Alrighty then, following list has been dramatically increased Regardless of how tomorrow (today?) goes, I think I'm gonna be around here mostly again, heck with twitter

first time cooking with a cast iron pan, and holding this thing gives me the inexplicable urge to play demoman in team fortress 2

was told today was normal hours at work 4 hours in, wonder why it’s so incredibly slow even by night shift standards, phone hasn’t rung once try calling to test it automated phone menu says we’re closed …🥲

this work trip is great so far! good food, good drinks, fun times, a store that sells only socks… now if it just had some giant feet it would be perfe—

Remember when I asked you for tweets for a winter story? Of course you do! I finally decided to put it up www.furaffinity.net/view/54756879/ It's got porn -and- world lore Thanks to all who donated their text, and to @pinballswizard.com and @nikelcat.bsky.social for letting me write about them

​pawperty damage is an ez game. can win with a single button press, smh v_v (check replies for a link to the video -w-)

man, i hate when someone has a really hot sona but they are super inconsistent with where/when they post art and don’t keep an updated gallery oh, wait… |D

step one: follow 300 people in under 10 minutes step two: post this cute art done by @spec-tacular98.bsky.social step three: ???

pondering that i might get better at civilization 6 if i would stop my habit of the sore winner “victory lap”, where after getting a non-domination victory i spend another hundred turns annihilating every ai civ that annoyed me -w-;

my phone just autocorrected me typing “vore” wrong… like, it still identifies vore as a misspelled word but it changed it to that anyway… feeling like my furry trash level has gone up |’3

first day back to work and i come in to find the internet and phones have been down all day, with no eta on a fix so basically everyone went home early and my only job right now is to call my boss when/if things come back up -w-

consistently annoyed with how patreon displays posts with more than 3 images, keep failing to check and see if there's some hidden from me because i forget the first one always looks big >:| now to go back through all the posts of the last week again...

at the airport and very sad blfc is over, this was definitely my favorite con ever ;-; many thanks to the too many to name good friends that made it so wonderful, that i cannot wait to see again some day 💜

got @nikelcat.bsky.social in my shoe here at blfc, not sure he's gonna make it though

Looming handsome cats and big paws... Bit of hunky @nikelcat.bsky.social !

BLFC badge for Nikel! #art #furry #furryart

pleased to unpack my luggage and find the rum bottle did not break -w-

made it safe to reno, now to just wait on baggage claim and get settled in before seeing all the fuzzies :3

at the airport, never travelled to a con before so time to play “spot the furry” this is the only direct flight to reno all week and i am wearing a bright pink shirt with a paw print so it’s kind of playing on easy |3

noticed while putting them on today that one of my work shoes is missing a chunk of the insole, in the middle... the suspicious placement somehow makes me think someone tiny that's reading this right now is responsible >:(

when i destroy the world underpaw, know that it is the fault of the shoe stores for not stocking enough options for wide feet >:(

perplexed at how i still have new people following me over on birdsite every time someone reposts old art like, my display name literally says "inactive" and i haven't posted anything in 2 months w-why are you here

oh right i guess i haven’t mentioned it anywhere i am, in fact, the biggest little, and as such i will be at the fur con :3