Slyyyyyy Coooooopeeeerrrrrrr Twoooooo (imagine I said that in slow motion) #vtuber twitch.tv/LootVT

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I decided to try my hand at a more.. lewd piece of art. I will do my best to improve and make each newer piece of art better and better, but for now, I hope you will accept what I have ^v^

I want to do my best, and not disappoint the people who believe that I am capable of good and being good, but a part of myself gnaws away at me, knowing that in the end I most certainly will disappoint them all.

Occasionally, I once again come to the realization that I really am a creature of pure contradictions. I want to be cherished, desired, cared for, and supported. Likewise, I wish to be left alone, and often think that it would have been best if people gave up on me long ago.

It is a strange thing to be uninterested, perhaps even repulsed, by the idea of sex, when at the same time, some nights I can not help but dream of being used like a doll for one. To be played and toyed with as though unbreakable, to then be left a shivering, miserable, drooling mess of pleasure

I may struggle to figure out who I am and what it means to be me, but staying silent and rarely sharing my thoughts will certainly be of no help to me. I will do my best to learn how to be more open about myself and my thoughts! Including the ones I tend to hide out of a misplaced sense of shame ^v^

to think ahead in chess is the coward's way of playing those with true courage do not think about even the move they are currently making

There is something quite... gosh, I just can not think of the right word. Resonating, perhaps? About the lyrics of 'Oh dear, let's remove those pretty clothes, because you're a villainous thing and we can't have you living a lie,' that I enjoy greatly~

Hmm... I would like to get better at starting conversations, especially in settings where I am not very close to anybody else, but it is quite nerve-wracking to attempt to start a conversation; especially so in group or public settings, since it feels like I am starting a conversation with nothing!