just me and my mousey brown hair against the world

i need a kiss on my forehead so bad rn

ouch

i need new identity ideas!!! give me some people to model my entire personality and appearance after!! 🤪

ok,, who wants to be the new person i choose to become bc i am not, and have never been, my own person?

the only thing getting me out of my depression bed the last few days are my foster kittens. i have to feed them and play with them so they grow big and strong. im very thankful for them

agoraphobia is genuinely ruining my life. I didn't realize how bad it was until i started dating a man who is able to go out and have fun like its nothing.

eveyone loves a girl with anxiety and ocd/agoraphobia until she throws up thinking about leaving her house

I also cant drink with people I don't know because of ⊹trauma⊹ so now what

ok someone walk me through going to a bar. I am having horrible anxiety about a possible future social interaction that I've never encountered before. I need a script I need stage directions I need help. I'm genuinely about to vomit about this made up scenario

ven and i have known each other for like 8 months. isnt that crazy? time is so unreal

i received the hottest mirror selfie from my bf yesterday and i stg i almost took a bite out of my phone. i am feral for this man

do you guys know vens name isnt ven

when i see the leaves falling and my seasonal depression hits

everytime one of my friends has another baby i get a serious desire for my own. i KNOW its not a good time but just want a wittle baby 🥺🥺 i know i can be a good mom 😭😭

i miss my bf

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all 5 babies are officially eating slurry!! no more bottle babies yayayay

i refuse to shuffle cards at game night. ONE time in highschool i was TOLD to shuffle by my friends bf and when i did a normal table shuffle he got SO made that i was bending the cards and ruining his deck?? it. was. uno. UNO!!!!!!!

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do i deactivate Instagram im so embarrassed im giving myself the ick

i fell asleep on my phone and woke up seeing i followed and sent reels to random people on Instagram. im going to cry thats so embarrassing

my foster kittens all have crusty icky eyes. i have to smear gel on their eyes twice a day and it makes me so sad they hate it :(

our tile for our kitchen wall came in and i am so obsessed. its giving grandma

im literally not shamed of asmr anymore. i need those bitches whispering about my doctor exam to fall asleep

asmr please save me ✨ asmr cranial nerve exams please save me ✨ asmr doing my makeup please save me ✨

:(

im going to just start posting things on Instagram that i like. like fuck an aesthetic i just wanna show the pretty flower or the bug i found

#tbt 2014

something ive been working on is not being upset with people who grew up with more than me. its hard to quiet the little baby Cay that screams in my heart about how unfair it is. healing my past me, child me, is so so hard.

since ive learned to french braid my own hair its almost always in the braided pigtails. i feel like the cool girls in middle school who used to bully me.. i may be healing something just from learning to braid

arf bark grrr

i am absolutely abusing the repost button on Instagram

yall mind if a white girl flips her lid tonight? go bonkers if you will...

"what do you bring to the table?" nothing of value and all my mental illnesses

i dont want to ever leave i love him so much

sonic x sanrio plushies just dropped!! what do we think?

this is a matthew lillard appreciation post

love is not unfollowing moots even though they post about things i don't like

good news: made it to vens house safely bad news: i feel deathly ill

whatever you’re doing, do it gayer

ven is officially 15 minutes away and i am SO NERVOUS

if you have seen me naked i feel like it's justifiable that i receive compensation

extremely grateful i own a home BUT when something breaks it makes me hate it. i wish i didn't have to pay or deal with it 😭😭

the amount of scrubbing and shaving and oiling i do for my bf should be awarded.

guys why am i so nervous to see ven again?? im so nauseous & i am so scared hes not gonna like me!!! but like also this isnt the first time weve met so ???

today is the day!!!

With all that is going on the in world right now, please take me away in this cinnamoroll van

"the yellow wiggle just played FDR in an Australian production of Annie"