Can one deactivate a Bluesky account in a way that is not permanent? I need to shut up

I defile beautiful things

Just popped three of my as-needed anxiety meds I'll be mad if I don't calm down at least a little

If a manager could just create my payroll account right now so I can finish the SNAP application with my morsel of free time tonight that would be amazinggg

The obstacles never end

Trying to apply for food stamps again. Failed last time because I had to MAIL my check stubs because Louisiana is stuck in the stone age. Idk if I will have to do that this time but I am not going to let anything stop me anymore

Lyft driver taking me home from my $7 shift spent the ride talking about LGBTQ teachers pushing their ideals onto children while clarifying every minute that he wasn't trying to be offensive. Then I slammed my fingers in the door when I got home. I'm so done

After working for 2.5 hrs I made seven dollars. Clap

Three Bs, one A, and one Incomplete. The worst I've done in college but still really impressive considering how awful the semester was lol

My credit card balances right now... over 1k. I don't even know what I'm going to do. I technically have the money but it will be a devastating blow which will leave me with next to nothing

i will succeed because i am a pervert 🥳🫡

I have been playing competetive solitaire (NERTS) with my girlfriend and it's so fun

Didn't bring my umbrella so I will be walking in the rain today lol yay

I keep falling into the "I ruined" xyz mentality. Breakfast, then more generally the morning. I got really stressed because I was making breakfast so I didn't order a Lyft on time (couldn't have predicted that the nearest driver was literally like 15min away). So my gf was late for her job interview

Gf and I bought seafood dumplings at asian market without looking at what kind of seafood was in them. I have learned I don't like oysters or scallops alas

Had to humiliate myself yesterday by begging two separate professors for extensions on finals. Because I suck. Thankfully my professors are very kind and accept that I suck and therefore granted me extensions.

I suppose I am not worth it

I have cried not once, not twice, not thrice, but at least four times today. I have kind of lost count but for some context on why this is strange, I don't even remember the last time I cried

Today has been very hard! For me and for my lover. But that makes the odds of tomorrow being better even higher. I have to be strong right now for her

Cannot stop thinking about my dead mother lately. I wrote a villanelle about it and explained every line in depth to my girlfriend. I ended up crying at various points. I haven't cried about my mother's death since the night I heard about it. I haven't let myself grieve much. I think I needed this

Just worked 5.5hrs coughing all over the restaurant uncontrollably. On the bright side my manager (probably accidentally) comped my food instead of employee-discounting it. My throat hurts so bad but I get to go home to my girlfriend and honeyed chamomile and I will eat my dinner with her

No point in taking my Adderall when I'm sick lol

Money is so stressful. I want to Doordash pho because I'm sick but I really shouldn't. Aaggh

I'm so fucked when the credit card bills come due. I need to switch banks because my bank is in the middle of nowhere so I can't deposit my cash. Therefore I end up doing things like spending it all on my gf at the farmer's market

I think the hyperfixation is gone

No one likes my poems

I need to be wrapped in a blanket and given tea and cuddles. Luckily this is actively happening

Update on my plague: skin is so sensitive that the cold toilet seat hurt

I feel so lousy eeughj

Woke up fine and now I have a dry aching throat and can't stop coughing (and hiccuping every time I cough for some reason). Also headache. A bit stuffy but no more than normal. I want to go home

I'm starting to actually not care. Wonderful development

Let us hold hands and pray

Haven't touched a fanfic wip in god knows how long. However I'm having fun with poetry lately

Waiting for my lover at the bus station in the pouring rain

I worry my girlfriend is getting sick of me. I have no evidence

Just was reminded that the final paper in the class for which I'm taking an incomplete is 15-20 pages 🫠

Without downloading anything new, where are you at mentally?

I wonder why my feet hurt all the time in any shoes. I do have arches

I need someone to talk me into this!!! It's on campus work I believe. I just don't feel capable 😓😖

Four different professors, independent of one another, forwarded me an internship opportunity for LGBTQ historical archival work

I'm so screwed

Just missed a counseling appointment because I was having sex. I get one every two weeks. I'm frustrated

I haven't been in my cesspool apartment for over a week. I'm so tired of living there. My roommate is a slob and the AC is still broken after months

Doubling today at my fuck ass job and my first shift already pissed me off. I have 55 meager minutes to somehow recover. I walked to a Popeyes without AC because I didn't even want to look at the vapid cunts I call "coworkers"

One saying that I keep telling others but need to remember myself: Trees do not produce fruit all year round & neither do we. Meaning we should not expect ourselves to be able to produce output (art, work, etc) all year round (even tho the capitalist hellscape we live in tells us we need to)

My response to stress being isolation is probably making things worse but at least I have my gf

I have been at my gf's for over a week. Why am I even paying rent again for my 80° disgusting apartment

So this is what it's meant to feel like

Went to a store where I notoriously spend too much... and you guys will never guess what I did

Okay I was at work for a little over 4h and I made $80. Pretty good for my first day out of training and also a Monday