I soft opened my trans first fitness space (called appropriately enough Trans First Fitness) in Vancouver yesterday with a busy day of clients and my heart is so full. Can’t wait to have our open house in a few weeks and get memberships and classes and other trainers up and running 💪😭🏳️‍⚧️💖🥹🙏🥳

Late format? Didn’t it release like 3 weeks ago? Back in my day we drafted triple Theros for 5 months and we liked it

Haven’t been posting much, making trans gym happen! This was full of junk with black walls and black ceilings on Friday. One more day of painting those, then I’ll do the floor later in the week. After today 15-17 different people will have picked up a brush, I am overwhelmed by community support 😭😭😭

2015-2020ish a high 6 (limited only), reliably 2-1/3-0 FNM, knew some formats in and out, top 8’d some gpt/pptqs. Now I’m probably barely a 4. Don’t have the passion, weekly paper drafts too costly and Arena feels worse for my brain. I’m rusty to the point I feel lost in most drafts these days

Weird to come here to say I signed my trans gym lease and see more murder and mourning. It makes it feel pointless, but makes it all the more important. Wept with my conspirators at trans strip night about how the world is garbage, but we can make our parts of it shiningly beautiful. We have to.

It was a do a little acid, become a trans stripper, sprain your thumb and tell off your dad at 1am kind of night

Trans gym could absolutely slip away but I’m feeling really positive about it. It’s a dream space, not perfect but big and cheap and kickin queer neighbourhood. I honestly tear up thinking about it working, a tiny bit from not believing I can make it work, but mostly from truly believing I CAN

Ugh so close send good vibes trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym! Could come through in the next few days!

I remember a few years ago asking my trainer for advice about moving into the field and he discouraged me from doing it because in a year everyone would be working out in the metaverse

I worked on a lot of Food Factory and this is true except for taquitos which were hand rolled and barely goo at all

i saw some cool potential gym spaces that I could actually afford in a great queer area and ahhh I need to make this work. my brain is just going trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym trans gym

Winding down the year feeling real proud. My 3rd year of business, made a third more than last year, feeling more effective all the time. I did a bodybuilding show, communicated well in a wide range of tough/odd situations and am working to forge new bonds and strengthen old ones. Good growth year 💪

A lesson I have to learn over and over and over again apparently

Having a little pitch for my personal training in my hookup app profiles always gets me at the worst times because I think a dude is flirting with me (and he is) but then he’ll mention wanting to get fit and asking about prices and suddenly I’m at work late on a Sunday night

Anyone hitting the Lorwyn Spotlight event in Toronto Feb 6-8? I was thinking of a trip home around then anyway and it's a good hook to hang it on! Getting excited to see friends and local magic friends and maybe wider Canadian magic folk fiending for a big one outside the US!

Excited to dig into this one. I don’t think modern folks get how overprinted this was. Think of how fidget spinners were everywhere and not selling as the trend died down 5ish years ago. I remember a FLORIST selling packs, and no one wanted them.

Haven’t played too much Avatar but current draft deck assembled all of these on the field at once. EOT Earthbound 2 twice and draw 4 felt so nice

Well now I need to get to Amsterdam (0.5% chance of that happening but still a chance)

Introduce yourself with the last five concerts you've seen (in no particular order): Garbage Viagra Boys HorsegiirL Magnetic Fields Sleater-Kinney Nice mix of old faves and new weirdos

My recon (gay fetish app) profile text got wiped by support and I don’t know if it’s because it mentioned hypnosis (which is sometimes legally considered legit mind control and therefore illegal (?)) or because it mentioned my Instagram 😂😂

Some time in 94 my friend showed me his bros cards at school. I remember a horned monster, prob burrowing. The wildest thing hooked me though - the glyphs from legends. Terrible cycle of wall tricks, but the first cycle I saw and the idea of all the colours approaching the same thing differently 🤯🤯🤯

I’ll take this and raise you “personal trainers should be an integrated part of the (free) health care system”

A few days after my bodybuilding show and I’m feeling… what’s the opposite of shame - pride? Less shame? It’s very good. Between/after being on stage in the morning I had a few comments from folks backstage that shook me - one saying I could be asked to not wear glasses, another saying I shouldn’t

they look just like bart

So fake so tan. Almost showtime

I did 2 photoshoots this week to document where my body is at before my bodybuilding competition this weekend. I’ve been so stressed about not achieving “enough” that I haven’t been able to enjoy being at my “peak.” Got the first set last night and haven’t even dug deep but I’m blown away

I thought my parents were coming to my first bodybuilding show next weekend but I sent the info yesterday and they said they’re not sure. I truly just want one person to actually show up for me, and I don’t really just mean next weekend, I mean ever. I’m so tired.

ah yes my gender

Just gotta gas myself up bc between a relationship failure to launch, an abusive doctor acting like I don’t deserve care, and a bodybuilding show in 2 weeks where I will be fine but just don’t have the discipline required for extreme success - I’m really stunlocked this week…

Yesterday on Thanksgiving my doctor sent over an order for a drug test she wants done within 48 hours, and had her office call (again on the holiday) to make sure I know to do it. She’s trying to catch me smoking weed so she can take my vyvanse away. I have not lied to her, I do smoke weed.

lol well that didn’t go my way

I’m like one serious conversation away from actually having a partner for the first time in 7 years and i just know in December Spotify is going to expose me for how much i’m replaying lizzo am I ready 2b loved and dua lipa end of an era 😅

Sometimes I get the urge to get back into the weekly FNM draft vibe like I did pre-2020 but then I see the price. Store drafts were always $15, I can’t spend more than triple that weekly

still thinking about the mtg post going around calling old school players humans and universes beyond players pigs, and the Reddit comment that was like “hey that dehumanizing rhetoric is a little extreme, let’s use a racial metaphor instead” and everyone clapped

Missing Magic Cons real bad. Maybe Amsterdam next summer but feels out of realistic financial reach 😩

6 weeks out from my first bodybuilding competition! I’ve got to finish strong but at this point I’m pretty confident I won’t completely embarrass myself 💪😅

I need to find a song to pose to at my bodybuilding show - it needs to be strong and confident and something I love and preferably something gender fucky. I had kind of settled on Charli XCX Von Dutch but coach says it’s gotta be slower and more dramatic help meeeeeeee

Happy Birthday to my favourite Hobbesgoblin!!! @hobbesq.bolasgang.com

turn one secretkeeper mill and opp scooped before the card frame finished loading

Road Marshalled trans march again yesterday, way bigger turnout this year! It brings me such pride to help my community like this and see all my friends and clients and local beautiful gender fuckers taking the streets and filling the park for hours after. Always one of the best nights of my year 😭

now this is podracing

I checked out a bodybuilding show today because I gotta do one in 14 weeks so I should see how they work. I love when they get like 30-45s to do a little pose dance to a chosen song and I’m trying to figure out what would be funniest for mine, Man! I Feel Like a Woman or It’s Ok To Cry

Grabbed a shiny egg bae upgrade on Salt Spring

I shouldn’t say much but I’m really discouraged by some irl stuff. Spaces are always trans inclusive… up unto the point a cis person feels minorly uncomfortable.

Ok I got a year to save for a Europe trip. I’m missing the con community bad rn

My doctor is once again threatening to take my adhd meds away if I keep smoking weed I’m so tired y’all. I haven’t been ok for a long time and my health care provider is making it worse

Whelp if I was doubting my decision to avoid mc vegas next week / the US in general…

I saw this Pride promo at the gym the other day and started full on bawling between sets. The lanterns are such a great metaphor for Pride, for being out and loud and visible. When we are a few lights in the darkness we are hope, we are awareness, we are *possibility* of difference & love made real