i keep thinking about how multiple therapists asked if i ever considered being an art teacher and i was like “💀💀💀 i don’t know if im built for that” but now im like “ok maybe i would be ok at it but idk what i’d actually do”

the last few weeks have been so bad but i think i made it to relative calm now. trying to be nicer to myself about everything v_v

hey so Stripe is doing Al garbage where if you let it handle disputes you have to pay it 30% of the refund. the email link to opt out didn't work. i couldn't find the right menu myself, and after some searching, managed to find it elsewhere. turn this shit off. dashboard.stripe.com/settings/dis...

I literally forgot to post this, but I finished that piece some times ago !!! #persona5royal #art #p5 #persona

i’m god’s weakest soldier please stop testing me

tablet broke so i’m emo now

my projects and irl are all kinda making me Stressed so i've been coping by zapping my fav (phainon) with the kpop idol beam. like he shouldn't be fighting off the black tide. he should be at the club

I'VE FOUND IT AT LAST

ニーア✵ #NieR #illustration #art

this week has been so awful!!!!! lol!!!!!

people who still love ffxiv with their whole heart… i envy your joy and whimsy. i had that, once.

for erhu music they usually use a solfege-like notation instead of a western staff notation (which i am used to having played piano since i was ~5 or 6) so with all of the traditional chinese songs it’s actually easier for me to learn by ear 😭

miffy made new friends (oomf in hong kong was very kind and sent me the luckin collab merch 🥹)

that said, i think about aglaea harboring a doomed unrequited love for hysilens in 33,550,337th cycle all da time. drawing hyv designs though… tch

this has now evolved form fanwork into an original doomed yuri story(?!) please look forward to it(?!) (even though it will probably not be finished this year)

if nobody got my back i know thanatos hades game got my back. what say you and i take care of this like we used to, zag?

watching all my friends cart in the mhwi omega fight and being like “ohhh man sorry that sucks” and then i go back to my current fixation on hades game

The Dragonsong War painted Ishgard red with blood... #ffxiv #ff14 #finalfantasyxiv

considering making a blog for my hsr lore analysis dumps because every time i get really crazy and end up writing whole ass analysis essays like i am in college again

hit credits on hades but i still have to reunite achilles with patroclus and make friends with all the gods and decorate the house and unlock all the hidden aspects and

whatever honkai star rail is a Bad Game. why bother when i could be thinking about thanatos hades game instead

hyv will do mbti for the chrysos heirs but not birthdays i hate it here i hate it here so much

like what do you mean than got really upset when zag was initially trying to escape that he didn’t even get a good-bye. what do you mean achilles wrote he thought of zagreus as the god of blood and life to thanatos’ death. what do you mean what do you mean what do you m

i bought hades and i have lost sleep

sorry i am not as active on here as i am on the other website HHAHAHA

christian trinity allegories everywhere i look, carl jung has ruined me

they showed us the news broadcast of 9/11 in preschool and as soon as I got home I built two stacks of blocks and started throwing my toy planes at them and my dad got rlly quiet and told me to never do that again

mbti is astrology with absolutely no whimsy and i will stand by that statement until i die.

i keep writing emo hsr comics but unfortunately phaidei lends itself very well to it. and lately irl i have been a little bit emo too so im expressing my Feelings through yaoi.

it’s been a while so: a few pictures of miffy to survive the horrors

went out for ramen with my parents. concluded that we actually probably don’t like ramen very much

i was born in the right time i love yaoi and posting drawings on the internet

jung mentions astrology for ONE CHAPTER of his book and i am back on the bullshit (i was an astrology girlie in high school…)

phainon. phainon listen to me. you have to confront your Shadow. no i mean your unconscious Shadow. like the Jungian Shadow. who’s Jung? don’t worry about that. listen you need to do that so you can integrate your unconscious into your ego and achieve individuation—wait come back

ἄχος • ákhos (pain, ache) #phaidei

sorry i’ll post art tomorrow

THIS IS THE GUY IM TRYNA PSYCHOANALYZE!!!

can you believe that it was honkai star rail that got me to read jung and not like. persona. lol

phainon and mydei make me so Sick

when i was a kid i asked a friend of my dad’s what calculus was and he went off on a long ramble about whatever the fuck. and now i’m like. man that guy sucked at explaining calculus.

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sorry. amphoreus lore turned me into a literal crazy person

stared at enough greek to know that “planete” in “omega planete” means wandering

so yesterday i read the apocrypha of john. multiple translations of the apocrypha of john, even

someone used this drawing in like one of those tiktok edits… im cracking up lowkey. i was just watching it like 🥰 yay i love rockstar mydei 🥰 then 😳 wait thats my art

THIS WEBSITE NEEDS DRAFTS SO BAD i am either no thoughts head empty or 897498372429837 thoughts per second there is 0 in between and i need drafts to moderate the flow of my posting

anyway my deep dive over the last week has revealed some funny things. firstly that dionysus is suspiciously similar to jesus in multiple ways. secondly that pythagoras, the triangle math theory guy, was probably the weirdest guy in all of ancient greece

i was gonna be like "for a greek/roman inspired world amphoreus sure has a lot of references to gnosticism and early christianity" but then a lot of gnosticism... also draws from greek philosophy. so maybe it's not actually that far removed