See ya in a while and be sure to drink water.

I think I'm gonna stay away from people for a long time. I'm dangerous and unstable. I'll make things but never interact with people. I can't do anything without hurting people, whether intentionally or not. I'm sorry for everything. I'm gonna do what I deserve and be alone.

Genuinely considering making a video for my own catharsis, but at the same time, I know I need to move on. Hindsight and therapy has made me angry at a lot of realizations about myself and others. Maybe I'll write it and burn it. I need a damn rage room.

Yes, my economic plan will cause short term pain. But after that you won't feel the pain anymore because you'll be dead

screams

Gonna be taking some time to myself again. I need to reevaluate some stuff about some things. I'm getting mixed information from everywhere, and I need time to ground myself.

Controversial in that the premise is that Palestinians are human beings who shouldn't undergo ethnic cleansing or a genocide

Retweeting the Streamer Etiquette post for more visibility (just go to my profile honey...) because I had someone just last night do EXACTLY what I respectfully ask others NOT to do in my streams. I get y'all love your Oshis, streamers, etc. or whatever, but curb mentioning by name in my space.

So I owe money in taxes and I would appreciate any support you can give me.

I’m in a difficult spot both mentally and financially. As such I’m opening up VA commissions. For 50 CAD, you can have me record a short cameo or alike for your entertainment. Nothing involving hatred to any group of people or anything to deal with fetishes. ko-fi.com/ontarioku

Why? Why this choice of photo?

Had a weird moment last night where I sat there and just genuinely wondered why I care about others' thoughts about me so much. I honestly don't know. It is exhausting.

I haven't seen a climbing ladder animation in a video game that didn't make me laugh at least a little bit they all just look a little goofy to me, and I love it.

Brain:.......do you think mermaids could use sea cucumbers as like...dildos? Me: I can't fully describe just how much I hate you.

The new Pokemon Legends ZA trailer was just.........bizarre. I have no other words it was just really confusing to me.

It doesn't matter how many times I apologize or change over the course of 5 years to make my community safer. It doesn't matter how much I comment or say I understand where I went wrong. It doesn't matter.

Fingers crossed streams start up again next week! Btw maybe, just maybe you'll spot me in one of the games I'll be streaming.

Howdy everyone, I am feeling much better after a small break and dealing with some health stuff. Nothing egregious, just something that kinda contributed to my breakdown. Thanks to everyone for checking in on me, and I am safe and alright.

I'm fine, I'm just gonna take some time to think and be on my own.

Maybe it really would be best to remove myself entirely. I'm worried there's something I don't remember and I'm worried I'm dangerous. I don't wanna hurt anybody, but maybe there is just something wrong with me, and I can't be around people anymore. Maybe I really deserve to be by myself.

Thumin is working on her own video idk if it will ever come out. I never intentionally lied my memory is genuinely bad because of the amount of medications I've been on and the fact it was 5 years ago. So I will go over all that I know.

Seemed a better change.

Btw I am willing to talk and explain certain things to people I trust and am close to because I care about them above all else. I won't follow you or contact you again if you choose to leave even if with no explanation. We were simply never friends.

Turns out android has a wellness setting, so I added timed locks on my apps that prevent me from being on them too long. I really don't wanna fall into my addictions again.

I do not know how to begin to explain that I don't have the energy to get into a video or comment brawl with people. It has never gotten me anywhere, and more often than not, people use my moments of emotional weakness against me more. I don't communicate correctly.

I love the internet.

Yeah, I heard about the video announcement on me, and here's what I have to say in advance. Ok. I'll ask my therapist to watch it, and I'll deal with it off-screen. It is what it is. I'm not fighting people. I'm not doing anything. Because I don't have to and I don't want to.

COME WATCH MY NEW VTUBER CHILD.

Do I expect my videos to change anybody's mind? No. Is it nice to see when it does?

Special shout out to my mom for giving me her genes like my face, my smile, and the fact I am highly prone to migraines.

Thank you for coming to my redebut everyone! I'm taking the Queen of Hearts role a bit too seriously lol

Not gonna be able to stream until construction on the building is done. The drilling is literally happening by my wall, and I keep having the image of me screaming and a worker getting surprised and falling off the building.

"Oh ship as in relationship!" That's what it was? I just kept imagining two people trapped on a boat.

You gonna quote skeet me and not have me able to see it or delete it really fast? If I block you, I block you, but if you say something, say it with your whole chest.

I'm enjoying all the MAGA regret videos and posts. "Oh, so much for the tolerant -" No. I'm not tolerant of Nazis, rapists, or pedophiles. No, I'm not tolerant of bigotry of any kind. No I'm not tolerant of genocide and I will work my ass off for the rest of my life deeming it so with my platform.

Sex work is work, and I will die on that hill. In the new video I'm also gonna be talkin about how some a yall who deny this are hypocritical as fuck.

I have a massive headache, and construction is happening literally on the other side of the wall my head of the bed is against.

One of the most interesting things about doing video topics that require a lot of research is that I actually have moments where I have to confront my own biases because I do try my best to find valid contradictory things.

I went to a movie world in VR chat, made it my home, and then it got removed for copyright reasons. However, I was not evicted. I still have access. I just have to restart if I wanna go home. I can even invite people. So movies for me.

Well, ya don't gotta be mean about it.

Breaking calorie deficit today for Valentines Burger King. Happy Valentines Day me.

One. I'm 4 foot 11, I'm chubby, and I have a baby face. The only thing remotely close to being intimidating is that you don't see me and my voice.

I will be running my controversial points script by my therapist and dad as well to make sure I don't belong in an asylum.

I hate that videos require me to actually type things out and editing and research instead of me telepathically making a perfect video in my mind, illustrating my points in a concise and beautiful manner.

If your account has the ai label on it, I'm blocking you.

One of my favorite quotes. I even have it by my desk. Makes me feel happy and like I wanna do better for younger me.

I might try this more grungey look again some time.

The rounds on his pants look kinda like a bullet dick.