i have a new passion. minecraft ARGs.

every time we complain about our neighbor blasting music for hours every single day, it stops for maybe a week at most. and then it starts up again. im overstimulated constantly because the music shakes our walls.

my therapist is so great and we're doing a lot of good work. BUT. i just remembered that i canceled our appt this coming week and i went THANK GOD. i love to chill and relax

my lovely beautiful cat is doing everything in her power to keep me from sleeping more <3

keeping a log of certain symptoms and when they happen. i think i may have been having myoclonic seizures for a WHILE. my old doctor watched it happen after i explained the symptoms and went "i don't think it's a seizure!" but i think she is... incorrect.

my hands and feet haven't been painfully cold for no reason in a few days.... suspicious........

my bf turned to talk to me and i literally started wiggling like i was wagging my tail. my whole face lit up. my brain went "omg!!! that's my partner!!!!" I'M SO DOG-CODED.

here's my cats btw. kitty babies. the calico is lacy and the other is lyra. 💙

cops / dogs by destructo disk

it is 4 am. i have not slept. help

i love when horror games aren't reliant on finding random notes scattered around the environment 💙

anything can be a weapon if you're holding it right

i have plummeted into a depressive episode and i dont know how to cope. nothing i enjoyed even two days ago is bringing me any sort of joy or comfort.

i am infinitely excited about my new username/domain. moon has fish 🌙🐠☁️⭐ i want my entire online presence to be a dreamy aquatic vibe. imagine me as a bloom of jellyfish swimming through the stars :)

im really considering starting a twitch channel but i absolutely cannot afford it at this point in time. i have a gaming laptop and a mic and no experience and a dream. there's no telling what ill do

i must break my silence. i love shadow academy so much. i need more music that sounds exactly like white whale. or perhaps the other side. my fav songs rn....

when i really like a band and basically every review ive seen of their music is "its mid at best" and i just have to go 🧍‍♂️ do i have shitty music taste?

i didn't expect elon musk's elden ring build to be as bad as everyone said it was. it's pretty rough!

again wanting someone to watch me play elden ring so i can infodump about lore and they can laugh at me when i die :)

i need to wear more baseball caps. missing piece of my gender presentation tbh

i revamped my account we'll see how long this lasts!

i went to a production of hamilton today and i had such a good time. i love seeing art performed live. everyone did amazing. i like them more than the original cast!!!!!! the woman who played eliza had a breathtaking voice truly....

trans lesbians 🥰😊

cannot believe that "if you cant engage with media in a way that i find meaningful you shouldnt enjoy it at all" is a common take in fan spaces. it really doesnt matter if someone is shipping characters in media you find deep and profound.

have any of my muts watched squid game s2 yet? im so scared... i loved s1 so much 😭

did you guys know im in love with my boyfriend? he's been so supportive and wonderful about my accessibility needs lately, as things have started changing with my health. life is so much easier when people care and want to help.

praying for all the money i need to start a medium size insect terrarium 🙏

i could write an essay on shrek the musical. i could talk about how donkey is gay & in love with shrek. or the trauma of isolation. or discuss the absolutely WILD things that are possible in-universe (that don't have anything to do with magic)

i beat elden ring!! the main game. not the dlc.... yet. anyway the final boss fight was so beautiful that i forgot multiple times i was doing a boss fight and perished immediately. im a sucker for pretty glowy lights.

in 2025 i want to embrace and nurture my creativity. i want to pursue writing, singing, whatever makes me happy.

i have an idea for a short horror story but im not sure what platform to put it on or how to begin. ideally it would be an interactive text experience.... like a point and click adventure game without / with minimal visuals.

youtube titles that are like "the [media] NOBODY asked for" piss me off. there doesn't need to be demand for something for it to exist. then we would never create new genres. we'd always do the predictable. there would be no subversion of expectation.

dealing with my paranoia is so fucking hard but im getting so good at it! its weirdly helpful to have a super skittish cat because if there was anything happening in the house, she'd react to it first. if she's calm, i can be calm. i love her.

i think i was meant to be a marine biologist but some higher power nerfed me by making me disabled and a school hater

i had a dream that the streamer socpens shaved his head completely bald and did a reveal on stream. to both his audience AND his friends, who had no idea that he was bald now.

mildly sprained my finger on my dominant hand :( hurts like a bitch

nesting in bed so hard rn. wedge pillow for my back, triangle pillow for my knees, firm pillow for my head, 2 blankets, heating pad, and my essentials on a table right next to me :) literally so cozy.

death tw// im doing sellen's questline right now and at this point ravaine (my tarnished) has lost no less than 5 friends in rapid succession and is CLINGING to sellen with a white-knuckle grip.

coming up on the part in elden ring where blaidd goes to gay baby jail

i discovered hopepunk and it really could not have come at a better time. i would really like to start reworking the way i think, since ive been falling into the Negativity Trap. baby steps, though. im gonna be okay.

i just played elden ring for 3 hrs straight which is saying a lot for someone who can barely sit down to watch a movie

taking a naproxen because i just feel like its gonna be one of those days. holy shit is it already 1pm? it was like 10am a few minutes ago

having a bit of a family financial crisis with my mother needing to get surgery to have various skin cancer removed and we also have to pay for my last semester of grad school along with books for my classes. please read below to see how you can help (if you can/want to) reposts are appreciated <3

me in the roundtable hold furiously pressing the attack button in front of gideon. LET ME DO IT JUST THIS ONCE I PROMISE I'LL BE GOOD AFTER.

i feel better now after laying down half-conscious for an hour... i have water and food and im doing okay.

i have been inexplicably super depressed for a few hours and i cant shake it off. i dont want to get up or move or speak or do anything at all.

its raining pretty hard outside!! :D im gonna make a nice hot drink and, you guessed it, play more elden ring. i wish i could like. sit with someone and have them watch me play so i can infodump about lore for a couple hours.

i have had 2 dreams about elden ring in a row. its consuming me. i have 15 hours in the game so far and i just started. im making decisions based on the character i play like its dnd. i killed kenneth haight because i thought he was annoying

made a list of like 7 things i need to do in limgrave before i can let myself progress to liurnia.....