just watched good boy and it loses a star because it should've been called, bestest boy

ended up in some derelict, industrial side of town on the search for whimsical trinkets anyway, i thought the textures on this building looked cool. if it weren't for the obvious shite, british windows it could've passed for somewhere in hole (dorohedoro)

sharing some of my favourite, underrated letterboxed reviews cos they really do just show i have no fear making my thoughts public looool join me for the chaos boxd.it/6UmH9

gonna bring glue trappings back pls tell me i'm not the only one that used to put a thin layer of pva on a plastic sheet and add all sorts of miscellaneous things & let it dry this was the og junk journal move, lemme put you on to some life changing shit okay, it was so fun!

The battlefield 🗡

to contemplate from the inside ✶

wrote my first bog post thingy on substack ~ i be trying new things !! planning new things even ❤ 2026 is focusing on creating again, even if it's done in baby steps

working title: visions of girlhood i am also gonna look into doing shoots over facetime/zoom again too so even distance won't stop me (examples of webcam shoots i did during lockdown 2020 ~ effects all done in camera)

i just don't want to feel anymore. i want to make my brain shut up and i don't wanna feel anything i just want to be comfortably numb

berrrrrl-toe-toe

one can dream

i want to have a happy life and i am fighting so hard for it but fuck i am hanging on by a thread please fuckin bless me with some good news, hope, i'll take a sprinkle at this rate

i don't know how the fuck i survived previous winters without wearing hats and layers cos i'm fully in my hat/bonnet era and i am not leaving

felt compelled to search on eBay again and lads... i got it 😭🙌 now i will anxiously wait for it to travel across the ocean to be in my hands

reposting these cos i love moss and this is frosty moss, so it's extra magical !!

my love is playing ESO with me cal: oooo centurion is already downed, nice one... ... ...14 gold. oh yeah, cos a centurion really needs to pop t' shops LMFAOOOO i am wheezing

for the first time in THE LONGEST time i've had a creative idea for photo/video that embodies my love for cinematic storytelling but also the experience as a non binary, queer person who feels a deep rooted connection and disconnect to girlhood

something i've really enjoyed about playing elder scrolls online is the voice acting. so many big names too!! i recognised bill nighy, john cleese and sir micheal gambon and every time i play i'm always so happily surprised by how phenomenal it all is

i wanna photograph dreamy vampires this year

The Demacia event on League has got me craving a resource management game, but without the war 😆 any recommendations?

honestly, i'm already so excited to capture more moments on this little camera and i have a cool camcorder on the way too so i can play with moving image again 🥹

actually really enjoyed doing this together !! can we do this every year pls? this is what i came up with ~ lots of personal goals and dreams [added some extra affirmations too] ⋆˙⟡

photos & thoughts ⋆.˚

she's an easyyyy loverrrr, she's got a hold on youuu, believe it ⁽⁠⁽⁠ଘ⁠(⁠ ⁠ˊ⁠ᵕ⁠ˋ⁠ ⁠)⁠ଓ⁠⁾⁠⁾♪

right, starting next week i'm gonna try and watch a movie every other day if there's a movie that you think i'll love that's very me vibes please lemme know!!

proof i went out, now i'm gonna go back to my room and play eso for the rest of the year (ignore my hair, it desperately needs chopping)

there were no fuckin coos and i kept slipping on the ice 😭

going to a gallery/sculpture park today and i'm so excited to see some art irl and possibly cows... i really hope the cows are there

this is your sign to replay skyrim ୧ ‧₊˚ ⚔️

holy grail

over 100hrs in ESO in 7 days. that's how ya know my mental has taken a beating cos i've been dissociating heavily and playing this game none stop lmao

ginger snaps back: the beginning is the last vhs i need to complete my trilogy and ofc they're all gone on ebay 😭💔

might not be a big deal to you but i just solo'd one of molag bals portals in eso that is typically done in groups. big boi pro gamer moves !! i was locked tf in someone came in as i was already opening my reward chest and they just hovered around me and i hope they thought, damn, you cooked.

now that i've been able to come down from the finale of stranger things i do feel quite heavy with disappointment that this was the finale we got

fuck me it's only the 3rd day of 2026 and i'm already having mentally unwell times and crying. this is not very "hot goth daddy" of me

i wanna know what song you can put on and no matter how you're feeling or what you're doing in that moment you absolutely cannot restrain from a good boogie mine is welcome to the dcc by nothing but thieves

i'm gonna try and make a unicorn horn and other mythical accessories and i need some ethereal beings to wear them so i can photograph them

srsly tho, my goals for this year are pretty simple: ⟢ read more ~ so much manga on the back burner and i want to dive into novels this year ⟢ watch more new media ~ i watched 147 (documented) movies this year, 64 were first watches ⟢ journal/write & create more ⟢ look after and nurture my body

oh yay! i survived 2025 :D ... the joyyyy... (i am literally hanging on by a fucking thread)

swapped out my septum jewelry for the first time in years for something less sparkly and more brutalist and i can't stop pulling the septum face

i know most follow me on letterboxd for horror recs and my silly reviews and recently it's been just a lot of old nostalgia with zero ratings and reviews this is mainly because i have them on whilst playing ESO 😅 the horror flicks will resume at some point i promise !!

showing off my eso character - i have once again resurrected my darling shadow [my first dnd character and my first skyrim character] if any moots play elder scrolls online pls lemme know <3

fuck vinted support. all they do is fucking gaslight you and lie. they still refuse to help me for a parcel I sent out that got returned back to me cos the idiot buyer failed to mention they were on holiday and didn't pick it up from the lockers on time. It's been 30 days of no help

a silly lil dream of mine is to build my own bookcase using reclaimed wood and still has it's earthy feel for all of my special art books

i won’t be at peace until i turn into a dragon or, at the very least, some sort of large lizard

i wanna create more next year, even if it's not photography related i just need to make shit with my hands again otherwise i will go crazy

i hate when people claim they're sober when they're still taking substances. recovery is fine and recovery leads to sobriety but don't claim sobriety when you're still leaning on crutches when there's people like myself who have worked hard for years to get 100% clean

ai couldnt make this

to be loved is to be known. everyday i feel so lucky to have the people i have in my life, i feel so spoilt 🥹 my darling bought me the alice madness returns art book that i have wanted since i was a teen i'm speechless and sleepy and i can't wait to read it with my new tapes on in the background 🖤

the joys of knowing you gifted good 🥹 so grateful i was given the chance to spoil the people i love this year and give back to them for everything they've done for me, cos seeing their reactions means everything 🖤