i am nothing if not a slave to my obsessive interests

sleep debt caught my ass so hard, i think i’ve finally slept a decent amount, but i feel like hell

i may be a sexless wreck but i'll be damned if my mind can't cook up some diabolical stuff i wanna be a voyeur for the rest of my life gooo fuck yourself (please)

changed my stuff here just because

someone put this male version of a female outfit up for sale, so naturally i had to grab it and give him a slutty collar it's supposed to be toki, but i can't take this damn visor off because i'm so shino-brained right now that i want to draw shino in this outfit

fuck, holy shit, can i stop having nightmares about receiving messages that someone i like has died??

I'M GONNA THROW UP. THEY'RE SO CUTE

would you guys still love me if i was a worm

i’m really going to crash from how bad i’m sleeping lately

this isn't the oldest iteration of her, but it's the oldest art i have on hand. i didn't like her dark sclera anymore

shoulder still fucked, now i'm getting an insane amount of rapid twitching beneath my collarbone. free me

my mom gets really excited to tell me when there’s frogs and snakes in the yard because i like them a lot, even though she doesn’t, she was freaking out about this one so i took a video to see how close i could get lol. so cute

i was going through some really old OCs earlier, and decided she would probably be fun to bring back ...

posture is bad and hurts while drawing ❌ posture is good and feels great while gaming ✔️ clearly, the option is to get lost in games forever

i find drawing shorts fun but the fact is i never wear them, i'm too cold

the inventions of the modern man i injured the nerves in my back again, so this is my life

laying in bed thinking it would be fun to give a thigh job, but i wonder if it even feels all that good for a dick, at least with squishier thighs.

unsurprisingly, sleepy despite having slept.

used to draw from the heart primarily, now i draw straight from the dick, so don’t follow me if you saw my pretty and deep furries

watchinf wax seal videos thinkin bout how satisfying it would be to chew on them..........

i used to draw a lot of pieces straight from the heart, to songs i really liked at the time (these are around 2 years old now) cast iron / allie & quarter-life crisis hypoxia / thomas giles wish you were here / incubus bring me back a dog / iamx

there are parts of my old art i really miss, that i’m sort of lacking in my present stuff. i’m kind of getting there again, but i feel like i need an emotional muse. making toki endure the overdramatic vibe almost feels like too much, but maybe i just need to put him through everything anyway

brr brr brr bothersome girl

how many times do i have to [redacted] before i’m tired enough to fall asleep … this is the worst

i’m afraid of pointing it out in the event things get worse again, but tonight my shoulder feels decent as i lay down to rest, so i’m hoping this is a sign for good things …

in such an annoyingly cuddly mood

I hate to beg. I really do. But I am at my whits end. My cat is getting worse despite the vet saying his blood tests came back all fine. I'm going to have to take him back and I just can't fucking afford it. But I'm terrified that he is slowly dying. Please help me. I've gotten 0 assistance so far.

messy thoughts that are spiking my heart rate to expose, but it's therapy, trust trust

i want to yap still, but i hate how easily searchable stuff on this site is, in terms of random ass people finding and replying to your shit. i just wanna talk to the air and my followers, everyone else can fuck off

need to lay for this awful goddamn shoulder to relax but i’m so bored

i want to talk about gender stuff but i’m working up the nerve because it’s pretty exposing and also stupid

i feel like a wilted plant. can i have more sleep. more sleep sir. an extra side of sleep with my sleep. i only got three whole hours… my white noise doesn’t even keep me down anymore… uugghh

the jokes write themselves

upside: i am getting less sick. i think downside: pretty sure the shoulder thing is a pinched nerve which means i'm going to be feeling this for ages

i don't really know if i'm ready to try accepting myself again after years of security but maybe the play really is to be the girlboy of everyone's nightmares instead of the femboy of everyone's dreams so i can be as unattractive as possible

drafted into this horrible time and money sink

sticking this visor on toki just makes him red shino and it's cute so i'm going with it

Early Jade felt like a harder-to-read, emotionless character. He gave off a gloomy, quiet vibe, lol. His personality got lighter as he was used for gags and NSFW stuff. His expressions still aren’t very dynamic, so even now, his eyebrows aren’t drawn with much detail.

for a person that really can't handle noise and lots of people i sure do love to deafen myself on my music

everyone who befriends me should be scared, i might make you play strinova

part of healing for me would be to stop worrying so much about the perception others have of me. it's easier said than done but i want to not care about fitting some kind if expectation strangers build of me in their heads based on what they want, when everything i do is about what i want.

i hate thinking about gender so much anymore, or 'proving' anything, or feeling good enough for what i want, and i don't even feel like ranting anymore, i just hate how much people hinge on it when consuming someone's work, like jacking off to my porn is unethical suddenly

"boss fight or big guy" also great highlight clip

i want to play elden ring again ... i miss being a guy with 2 big swords and terrible aim

it may not seem like it, but screaming and crying here like it's the end of the world does a lot for me. it's like exposure therapy, except i force everyone to look at the ugliest parts of me, then suddenly i feel a little better because there's nothing to hide.

I did draw some stuff about manta, but... it’s kinda this crap You guys know what kinda person I am lol

"Corto! ... I'd really hate for something to happen to you over there." "Mm-" "Yeah! Because ... I need to kick your butt at the next race, remember?" i love manta and shino but the way he acts around corto gives me such cuteness aggression >_< AAAAGGFGFDFGG