Women Singing II http://www.tate.org.uk/art/artworks/kooning-women-singing-ii-t01178

Well, in trying to put our life back together after having our US Passport & original Social Security Card & my $190 Ghurka passport cover stolen in the Detox Unit of the Don Jacobs Honda Quantrell Cadillac Hopelessness Center Homeless Shelter we 📞ed the Wildcat Acceptance place in the Student Ctr

Another day of therapy, pain doctor, & Medicaid paid transport. We're gonna go down the Marsha Linehan DBT Radical Acceptance 🐇 🕳 with Distress Tolerance & Urge Surfing 🏄‍♀️ education.

I remember when I had a home.

This is my gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha song "I'm gonna sit right here til I die" just like Siddhārtha Gautama I have on my back a tattoo of the armies of Mara attacking Siddhārtha & he says "Nah, that's OK, I'll just sit." Equanimity has always been the goal for me.

House with a Bay Window in the Garden, 1907 https://botfrens.com/collections/88/contents/24784

Absolutely the most hurtful & hateful thing that the women who bore me said when I got back here after being gone for 3 decades & the homeless & peripatetic for 6 years is, "You're not special."

🎶 Shake it, shake it sugaree, just don't tell 'em you know me 🎶 I had big girl, who became a lawyer in Louisville, who'd let me come over drunk off my ass just to fuck or crash. Those were the days when I was cute & had a very short refractory period. Now, nobody wants me in their life.

Thank u @archive.org for being who you are these last 30 yrs. Mr. Lee Owen of Born Cross Eyed made me my 1st 6 or 8 Grateful Dead tapes that I could then trade on tape trees around the 🌎 when ftp was a thing & we thought the Internet was a good thing for humanity, but the profit 📈 motive killed it.

My 2nd favorite song in the canon. I named my gold mining & cannabis growing operation 8 miles north of Buena Vista in Colorado "Black-Throated Wind, LLC" 16:00 & I was a man when all this began who'd never think twice about being there yet [That line is for MCW] So I give you my 👀 with all of

Promise land We started 11/11/73 over because we've got nothing better to than sing Grateful Dead tunes here on Coburn Blvd in then failing light of February, but the throttled down Ted Danson Consumer Cellular sucks giant 🫏 🍆 🍆.

Crazy in the sunlight yes indeed

Are we having fun yet?

15:15 24/2/2569 We're skipping the 35 minute Dark Star for Eyes of the World archive.org/details/gd73...

We're singing our "Linus' blanket" on the front porch, the Dead show that we've listened to more 1,000 times. When times were bad, in NYC, Housing Court, hip replacements, unemployment, on Food Stamps, on Medicaid, whatever, we listened to 3 things: Harry Shearer's archive.org/details/gd73...

Lexington has become the beggingest, bummingest burg of low rent white people I've ever seen. It's awful to see what's become of [ back of my neck snaps as we stick out our 👅] people's lives under tax avoidant, womyn killing repugnicunt white men's governance of ugly patriarchy & ignorance.

2022 02 24, Taos, NM It was still #COVID days so the Taos Pueblo was closed to outsiders, but we wanted to check out this place we'd heard fancy ski 🎿 people talk 👄 about. We'd never been able to afford to go skiing ⛷️ with friends growing up, still have never been. #gratefuldead #meandbobbymcgee

2022 02 24, Taos, NM The murderous genocidal ethnochristian KGB thug Vlad the Wee invaded a sovereign country in the year of our Lord 2566 like he was the little French girl Napoleon because he believes himself to be Peter the Great. #warisstupid #putinisawarcriminal #russia #ukraine

11:11 Call in all your 😇 😇 & devas & ancestors & benefactors & energies & entities & spirit guides & alien 👽 hybrids & the Anunaki & the Anasazi & go contribute to my gofundme me so I can buy an ice pack, a heating pad & a 15# pair of dumbbells & travel back & forth to doctors appointments & therapy

#Cannabis #Weed #MMJ 🌬️💨💨💨

What's doing, kids? New day dawning & it's cold as fuck in the bloody Kaintuck. We just posted some stuff on the untaxed unregulated unpublisher of amygdala driven hate machine algorithm ad revenue Instagram.

My quality of life is nil. I hate waking up now. Haven't gotten rest from sleep since '14. So tired of living in constant pain. So tired of living in penury. So tired of being unable to care for myself. So tired of not being able to use my body. So tired of being constrained. So tired

Small Pleasures by Vasily Kandinsky, 1913 https://botfrens.com/collections/212/contents/137186

Diego by Alberto Giacometti, 1953 https://botfrens.com/collections/212/contents/137174

The Bellinis painted 🎨 a lot of Madonnas. And in the north of Italy there are a lot of blonde haired, blue eyed, oval faced like a Brancusi sculpture women walking around in Venice, often Jewish too. Whenever I'd see one, I'd exclaim, "La faccia della Madonna!"

I had a profound crush on @nicollewallace.bsky.social for a long time. Like, I felt like I knew her inside & out from the girls I "dated" at the skating 🛼 rink when I was 12, 13, 14. I was usually out back with my ✋️🤚 down some girls 👖, but I've always thought that she would be the kind of girl I'd

Seated Arab, Camel and Two Palm Trees, page from the sketchbook, El Golea, II http://www.moma.org/collection/works/85118

The 🌎 is an awful place today. We just got scammed by someone claiming to be w Social Security who said I was approved for SSI & he was releasing 3 grand, but he had a hick Kentucky accent calling from a 646 NYC number. I really hate the 🌎 today. People are such garbage & liars & grifters & scammers

Scam or no scam, hard to tell w the murderous lawless regime of the 🍊 pedophile rapist Führer when the government has become unreliable & everyone lies to cover for the chaos & illegality of the lawless grifting lying white power white jesus repugnicunts lawyers. 46 min. call w someone from gov't?

So many idiots to 🚫 today on the untaxed unregulated unpublishers of amygdala driven hate machine algorithm ad revenue & bad opinions. We're up to 1,726 accts blocked 🚫 on Instagram. You gotta protect your 👂-consciousness, 👁-consciousness, & 🧠-consciousness from stupid or you might become it. 10:10

As I was QWERTYing about suicide & having to leave this home 🏡 that's no longer my home, & not knowing where I'll go or how to survive on the pittance SSDI provides if & when the lawyer from Stromatt & Associates ever gets the niggardly whites to pay me, this🎵 came to mind. youtu.be/9aykOwwRf-Q?...

I think suicide is always just about wanting your own particular misery to stop ✋️that you can no longer abide & can see no way out of. The pain in my body has driven me there over & over again, & caused the Complex PTSD & Internal Family Systems split selves, then there's one's own family of origin.

The Stove by Fernand Léger, 1918 https://botfrens.com/collections/212/contents/137780

"Motherfucking cock nut, piece of shit nigger cunt." That's what I just said when this perfectly formed Update on my gofundme poured 🫗 forth from me & then I tried to scroll down & it vanished. I hate the UX now on all these untaxed unregulated unpublishers of amygdala driven hate platforms.

Eiffel Tower by Robert Delaunay, 1926 https://botfrens.com/collections/212/contents/137492

Notice how the Department of Homeland Security has changed the look of its concentration camps? It's so drones can't fly overhead to take videos of emaciated inmates covered in their own filth.

We have a continuity between Na Jomtien when Kunga Tsöndru first appeared & screams 😱 came out all day & we sang 8 to 12 hrs a day, & now. More of the same. The places you don't go in the body is where the pain & trauma hide. 🦁's breath 👅 & 👁ball #drishti gets me someplace new all the time. 👋

Ole https://botfrens.com/collections/63/contents/21400

Was just scrolling Substack for a few minutes & it's a 12-alarm fire 🔥 of Marc Elias corruption & repugnicunt violence & Rick Wilson name calling & 🍊 pedophile rapist Elizabeth Warren grifting of billions & Les Wexner Victoria's Secret

This whole suspension thing on Bluesky is such complete & utter bullshit because beady eyed little Alito of the bought & paid for Leonard Leo Six Koch whores of SCOTUS wants to make white jesus freaks & catholics a protected class & they've already decreed 📜 that women aren't even real people.

10:10 22/2/2569 📞 in all your 😇 😇 & devas & ancestors & benefactors & energies & entities & spirit guides & alien 👽 hybrids & the Anunaki & the Anasazi 'cause the democratic republic of the US of Forced Birth has failed & ain't gonna come back in my lifetime & nobody's gonna get Social Security.

9:16 22/2/2569 in the year of our Lord Indra w the 👻 of On Kawara & it's spitting ❄️ on the back porch & we're so excited to eventually receive the $77 from our gofundme☝️of these days, so we can go out in the 🌎 & maybe not be so hopeless & isolated. We always need patterns & rhythms & we have none.

Too cold 🥶 to sit outside this a.m. Can't feel my 👉 👈 👇 🫵 👆 🖕 to QWERTY they ache so badly. substack.com/@kungat108/n...

Well, we're up again, have been since 3:30, for another day of pain & boredom, but it's 27° so it's gonna suck to go outside & get some air as we⌚️our life pass us by, not having any purpose for years now, as we've just tried to subsist & lost our sanity & all we possessed & we got wildly depressed.

It's always amazing to me how ugly & ill-mannered the white boys are when they say shit from behind the safety of their keyboards. When we started running into them in Colorado they always wound up being pussies when you shot your Sig Sauer at them, but they sure do talk a good game online.

The level of vile bigotry & misogyny & xenophobia spewed by ignorant 20-something white, brown, & jew boys on the right is extraordinary. If it weren't for white jesus othering idiot bigotry there'd be no programming inside the fetid sewer of the Monarchist's Nativist Mick FauxNews Murdoch Silo.

Seated Woman 2 https://www.wikiart.org/en/willem-de-kooning/the-visit

When ur life is devoid of people & u have nothing to live for, you make up shit to look forward to. We've got Jack on Monday🌙 from the milquetoast whites of Marin at Spirit Rock. Then we've got Therapy & a pain doc appt. on Wednesday. We've got the chiropractor on Thursday. Buddha bless 🙌 Medicaid.

The pain is unbearable & relentless & we stick out our 🦁's breath 👅 & do 👁 ball drishti & pop & click stuff inside & we never sit still or rest & the pain is too loud to think & it's a miserable way to live in penury in a place you're unwanted & feel unsafe. gofund.me/cc5b117d9

9:52 21/2/2569 in the year of our Lord Indra w the 👻 of On Kawara & since we've no place to go, let it ❄️ let it ❄️ let it ❄️ I hate the 🥶 now after being trapped in The Land of Happiness Thailand 🇹🇭 for 28 months & 25 days where it was at least 86° & 86% humidity every day & felt like 100°. Oy vey!