I've really enjoyed AFC 2025, my first AFC. And I especially want to thank @graflexfox.bsky.social, @draconemorca.bsky.social, and @dizzyrooo.bsky.social for making that happen!

Very nice to meet @kosperry.bsky.social again at AFC 2025 yesterday! And AFC 2025 is the debut of the rat partial I got for $600 with the help of @graflexfox.bsky.social.

⋮ Sometimes I wished I got crushed in the womb Turned to dust in the womb ⋮

Just finished watching "The Day the Earth Blew Up: A Looney Tunes Movie". Definitely a very fun film. And also the first time I've watched a film all by myself in the cinemas.

I've finished reading "Relinquished Realms" (Book 3), and therefore am officially halfway done with Noss Saga. Book 3 has the best pacing compared to Book 1 and Book 2. I hope @joabaldwin.com can release "Feral Flame" (Book 4) sooner than later. And I look forward to finishing Noss Saga.

Just finished "Mask of Miscam". Now onto "Relinquished Realms".

I'm starting to feel like I'm becoming Ebenezer Scrooge where I hate holidays.

Thank you @tiberiusrings.bsky.social for gifting me very cute art drawn by @fruitz.bsky.social of Dakhil, my rat fursona, alongside corgi Tiberius Rings, and Fiz, one of Fruitz's OCs. I didn't expect to receive anything during the holidays. And I honestly couldn't ask for a better friend.

I rather forget my birthdays exist. I'm going to treat my birthdays from now on as any other regular days, where my birthdays are no longer special. But then again, I could designate my birthdays as the days where I have the right to wallow in my self-pity all day.

Sketchtober 13 - Trap ft - @dakhil1996nsfw.bsky.social Nude alt, 4K and (60s 1280p) timelapse for this piece available on my Patreon

"The Wild Robot" is definitely one of the best films of 2024 for me. I'm definitely getting strong "Leafie: A Hen into the Wild" vibes.

Although I've accepted that I have to fight the battle myself with nobody by my side every day, I still feel so lonely. But when nobody gives a shit, the battle becomes exponentially harder, especially when compounded every day.

I keep fucking up, didn't I?

I'm aware I'm being selfish, but I feel like people are taking my existence for granted.

The death of so many prominent people in the furry community is definitely a stark reminder of the fragility of life.

Since @mousenoises.art was open for icon commissions, I decided to commission him. And I have no regrets. He made Dakhil, my rat fursona, really cute! Thank you for letting me commission you!

I accept that ultimately, I don't matter. I accept that I can drop dead anytime, and nobody cares.

I was able to watch Robot Dreams today. Although I really enjoyed watching the film, I don't know how I feel about the ending.

Although I didn't experience as much tribulations as people older than me, I still have to be in the closet due to religious family members. So I believe Pride Month is still important, especially for the people who are still unable to come out openly and/or can't openly fight for LGBTQ+ rights.

I don't understand the appeal of growing old. I feel like the older I become, the more of everything I hold dear I lose.

So this is how Agnargsilv decides to greet me. I suppose I shouldn't be too surprised after all.

Not going to lie, when I see very talented people in the furry community at times, I feel very insignificant.

Perhaps I'm fucked up beyond belief, but I can't say I'm deathly afraid of dying young. In fact, I sometimes hope to die young.

I want to thank @tiberiusrings.bsky.social for allowing me to send my personal copies of the Simon King trilogy & "Toil and Trouble" for him to sign. I recommend checking out the Simon King trilogy, with all of books 1 & 2 on SoFurry: www.sofurry.com/browse/folde... www.sofurry.com/browse/folde...

My self esteem is a perpetual work in progress.

Although I'm feeling bittersweet emotions now, GSFC 2024 as my first fur con overall has definitely been a memorable experience (in a good way). I hope I can attend more fur cons in the future, but with friends and people I know next time, so my future fur con experience(s) can be more memorable.

I still don't regret attending GSFC 2024. But after letting the con experience sink in, this could be just me, but I feel a really strong implication that truly being a furry means having a fursuit. Although I have nothing against fursuits, I question whether I truly belong in the furry community.

Meeting @kosperry.bsky.social in person in a fursuit is definitely one of the highlights of GSFC 2024. (A huge pleasure to meet you in person!)

My GSFC 2024 experience, especially as my first fur con, thus far, is not a bad experience. But I definitely think the experience could be noticeably better with friends and/or people I already know.

I'm annoyed by how the schedule said that some events are open at 10am. But the staff said nothing's open until 12pm.

Good morning from GSFC.

How many people will run away from my lowest point?

When I saw Tigeron Starfire commissioning a sketch of Howie and Dylan (bsky.app/profile/tige...), I knew I had to commission a sketch @vasukiart.bsky.social's Aaron (Stone) and Sean having a romantic kiss. (I'm a complete sucker for his couples in general.)

Will 2024 be another year where many big names pass away?

I have no business having friends who are more talented than I can ever be.

"The world doesn't revolve me, I know./The problem is that I don't want myself in it at all."

Although I've only been in the furry fandom for a very short amount of time, I still feel sad to hear about Sy's/Mark's death this morning.

Even if I don't deserve and/or receive good things in life, I want to do everything in my power to ensure that the people I care about do receive the well deserved good things in life.

Although I have no personal incentive to celebrate Valentine's Day since I've never been in a relationship, I still would like to wish people and/or couples who do celebrate Valentine's Day a happy Valentine's Day.

I'd never thought I'd end the day learning how I possess a small piece of history. Such a strange, yet wonderful coincidence.

I hope I will have a sense of belonging and will be genuinely loved by someone. But I don't know if that will happen anytime in my lifetime.

Happy Lunar New Year to everyone who celebrates it!

I want to sincerely thank @domusvocis.bsky.social for signing my personal copy of "Two Souls of Fangcrest Manor". I also wrote a review of "Two Souls of Fangcrest Manor", which can be read here for anyone who's interested: bsky.app/profile/dakh...

I want to thank @joabaldwin.com for signing my personal copy, as well as providing on sale a signed paperback copy, of "Wolf of Withervale" (plus extra goodies). "Wolf of Withervale" is definitely one of the best fantasy novels I've read. And I look forward to reading the rest of the books soon.

I wonder what's going to happen now that Bluesky's officially public.

I think feeling that I amount to nothing compared to everyone else who is smarter and more talented than I can ever be is probably something I have to deal with for the rest of my life until I die.

I recommend "Authentic: The Story of Tablo" from VICE and iHeart Podcast Network if anyone wants a podcast recommendation: www.iheart.com/podcast/1119...