(text block) I'm working on consistently talking to people. Very hard to do for me. In the past, i could do it, but very very very slowly and lost interest of people quickly. Now, i need to work on being quicker and more spontaneous. Also less anxiety. Im realizing just how much work that is

talking to ppl is hard. Here is art of celeste madeline

I'm learning that I have a lot of issues that can't be fixed easily. Also learning to talk less about them. Irl and online. Not to say that i'm going for a professional look, but moreso bc its not healthy to air things out in front of others like that. So will work on that.

sonic wip i never finished

I've noticed that the more I learn to socialize, the more I act like someones perceiving me even when i'm alone. No one reads these but I act like someone is anyway. Apparently that's a legit thing people do all the time. The more i socialize, the more i develop it. Idk if i'm proud of it

I need to work on my faces. Also perspective drawing

imma draw something stupid n see how i feel ab it

Day 2

I've been feeling kinda bad recently so i've been looking online to see what other people are going through, Was reminded that when people reveal experiences that affected them, its very common to be met with people justifying or even being amused with what they went through.

Day 1

camila

I don’t think that new bills saying what ppl think it is.

Side note, uhhhh, drawing nsfw is fucking hard. Not because it’s more work than sfw, but because it’s like,,, it’s uncomfortable sitting alone by urself drawing sex. It feels so…pervy. I feel alone in that thought. Mostly cuz most nsfw artists are straight pervs and just cool with it.

Yo I fucking suck but I’ll maintain the momentum. Continue trying and failing until it happens.

luz finds an object of arbitrary importance

I need to practice very strong self control and motivation. Do the responsible thing even when it doesn’t seem worth it to. When there’s nobody telling u to do this, and you have yet to see positive long-term results from it, it’s a bit harder to do it. But hard doesn’t mean impossible.

I have an issue that makes me easily disillusioned with people that I need to work on. Like, I don’t think “I hate people”, more like “I don’t have interest in people”. I’d be more successful with people if I had motivation and interest. I wanna start by trying new things.

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Seeing more and more and more talk about authoritarianism and anti-sex/puritanism. I’m so disillusioned with the western politics that I can’t really engage with it in good faith.

Cloud study cancelled (no one cares). I’m apparently busy for the next 2-3 weeks straight now. Here’s a shiver doodle.

??? idk why i felt like drawing this. Still working on cloud study. It's teaching me a lot. So much im trying to finish, but ill keep chipping at it. Drawing is WAY more therapeutic than i remember.

i took the test

im sigma

Camila nsfw. Doing something with daisy next. Wanna do a small comic or something. Something with a lot of dialogue.

Heads up: I most likely won't have a roof over my head starting Sunday due to the family my family and I are currently staying at being evicted. Found all this out just now. So if anybody that knows me doesn't hear from me for awhile that is why.

Trying to think of a scenario to put princess daisy in... Some headers include mario kart, mario strikers, uh mario golf-

Random jevil drawing

rainbow sugar apples are so adorable.

Made some god damn gd fan art cause it’s great and this has been long overdue. #gaslightdistrict

Working Hornse on patreon (Full has Noodity) 🦄✨

war time

Came to an epiphany today

Im learning a lot of things today. I think I should put it in a book. I wanna 1. Catalogue the things I learned and 2. Put it into action. Would be in my interest to critique it as well. That's a way to understand something more thoroughly in my experience.

Im still working on this. I said it'd be done weeks ago, and theres no real excuses for that, but I think completing this will teach me a lot about planning complex drawings like these. WIP basically.

im serious about being more focused on getting things done. For now, heres a drawing of gf i drew

Ok took a break from the internet, imma get some things done, sry. Had a mental break. Not an excuse I’m done being inconsistent.

I don’t understand ppl. I’m having a lot of thoughts rn. I’m really motivated. But how the fuck do I mix that with being sociable. It’s so fucking give and take. How do I juggle being passionate with being personable. I wanna sink and fall and drown in it. I wanna lose my senses in it, genuinely.

I have a bad brain. I wish I could swap parts of it as if it was lego pieces. But this is the one I will have to carry for this lifetime

Dude i still have a lot of issues. Ive worked through mental illness but I still have some emotional illness that I need to sort through. Like, i have a problem with wanting to be liked by people. I have antisocial tendencies and it fucks with me.

I’m unlikable. Will work on that.

Fanart of said OC

We need more BF nsfw...i might just start making some

nsfw bf sketches

Here is nsfw of nene. Yes the drawings are messy, my head hurts :)

My heads fucking banging. Here is a messy nsfw drawing of gf from fnf

I just got hella depressed and went through all my old archived stuff and damn. I’ve grown so much as a person. I’m so proud of myself. Can’t even put it into words how far I’ve come from severe severe mental illness to now. I still struggle but I’ve really changed for the better and I’m so happy.

Oh my goodness this jaw pain is genuinely making me want to kms. My entire head has been nonstop banging for months. I just want it to stop. All I feel is a sharp stab in my entire mandible. I’m either in pain or sedated from pain killers.

cant sleep. heres a messy wip of an ena oc. might animate them in the future

gonna do a cloud study n post it here

Drunkard chick! Don't have a name for her atm but she's Inspired by ENA characters #ENA #OCart #NsfwArt #Art #Futanari #anus