girl I'm fuckin' trying

Happy pride! Enjoy my new single! All proceeds made from now until June 7th go towards Fundacja Trans-Fuzja - a polish queer non-profit fighting discrimination and providing help for struggling queer people! #music #musicsky #indiemusic #promosky akashicmare.bandcamp.com/track/trans-...

god diddly dang the folks what run this webspot sure do suckabunch

IDK if it is my questionable title, or something else, but this week's OPM has been largely ignored! That's a shame, because there's some fascinating stuff in it! Weird sample mangling! Great funk/soul/pop! Delicate, dreamlike, New Age-adjacent chamber music! www.etherdiver.com/2026/05/29/o...

it's been a while since I've promoted my own music, so if you haven't already, give my tunes a go, will ya? $5 to own an hour of conceptual prog metal, but it's set for unlimited free plays anyway and I'm happy to give out download codes 🧛‍♀️🚀 rubyrockatansky.bandcamp.com/album/the-va...

why do I get sick so much!!!! fucking covid!!! my immune system used to be good!!!! now it sucks!!! so much!!!!!

f u c k

🌸 trying some styles or smth idk 🌸

I feel like shit so I'm reposting my legs because wow I have nice legs that are also extremely soft. also Baphomet is here. say hi to Baphy.

28 vampire stories, many with explicitly queer characters (and *explicitly* queer characters if you know what I mean), including my own debut novel for $25 is an amazing deal I already owned some of these before the bundle was even announced and am stoked to sink my teeth in to the rest 🧛‍♀️

work tunes today: scrapermetal.bandcamp.com/album/infini... someone posted this a few days ago (sorry I can't remember who and ig I didn't like your post I'm sorry :c) and it caught my eye now it's catching my ears. this is fantastic sci-fi concept thrash and they deserve far more attention

I'm highkey extremely bad at socializing and talking to people sorry to everyone

-> records guitars and other instruments along w/programmed strings and synths for one track, sounds amazing, new template for rest of album -> records guitars and other instruments along w/programmed strings and synths for another track w/template, sounds like shit, about ready to completely toss

today being my 5-year HRT anniversary has me ruminating and thinking of how I spent all of my early to mid-twenties completely stagnant. My living situation sucked and I was going nowhere. Years flew by in lackadaisical dissociation. I had aspirations, but no real motivation or sense of direction.

if I can pull any silver lining out of this, it's that it can be good to have one's principles stress-tested every so often I'm the biggest Mechina fan I've ever known. I know a few folks who love 'em, but hell, I've written fanfic of their albums' universe. I won't be checking out the new album.

Stargazers, it is unleashed! 21ish minutes of pummeling, atmosphere-choked metal from myself and @scoured.bsky.social and we're terribly proud of the results. Check it out here: ampwall.com/a/nirensimt/... nirensimt.bandcamp.com/album/ceasel...

5 years ago today, I took estrogen for the first time 💕 a lot has happened in that time, both within my life and without, but one thing I'm absolutely sure of is that the decision to start HRT is one I'll never regret

had a dream last night some real old lady was on here complaining about the things she saw and ended with her posting "NO LITTLE COMPUTER GUY DIED FOR YOUR LITTLE COMPUTER SINS" and I'm going to be thinking about that for the rest of my life

5 years ago today, I took estrogen for the first time 💕 a lot has happened in that time, both within my life and without, but one thing I'm absolutely sure of is that the decision to start HRT is one I'll never regret

I know I've bitched about this before but I would genuinely spend so much more money on plugins, VSTs, and all sorts if the overwhelming vast majority of these companies would simply allow me to pay and receive a download link for said products

🌸 trying some styles or smth idk 🌸

fuck I am so disappointed apparently the teaser Mechina put up was for a new single, not the full album, which is like, kinda sucks but hey any amount of new music is cool, right? but the promo "art" uses obvious gen-AI slop :( not even convincing in the slightest either which still wouldn't make-

Honestly, for one person who's been producing music for less than five years with budget software and is primarily working within some of the most technically demanding genres possible, I'm incredibly proud of where I'm at, but I do have a lot to learn and am confident I'll only improve from here.

Chapter 23 of "The Mysterious Malady etc" is out now! It's a bit long and wordy and won't make a lick of sense if you're just now jumping in, but think of this as a Star Trek briefing room scene; just with more blood and lesbians. in which the gang plan a heist: archiveofourown.org/works/749750...

ONE MONTH AWAY 40+ HARD ROCK AND METAL TRACKS ALL TRANS ARTISTS sorry for shouting I'm just excited and still can't believe this is actually coming together

think I'm gonna start looking down on people who don't wear facemasks in public even more than I already have been. at least put on a flimsy medical mask. people are dying. surveillance is everywhere. do the bare fucking minimum.

holy fuck my mental health is absolute garbage right now and The Thoughts are Loud but I'm writing a(nother) F/F erotic short story with (you guessed it) at least one vampire and it's carrying me through for now

how can I live in harmony when I owe you all an apology? I try to lead with honesty but honestly there's a con in me just what kind of artist do you think I am? sing of courage and vengeance but it's all a sham I'm losing the ability to respond to responsibilities

toxic yuri between two vampire ex wives who end up locked in a thousand-year war over being the first to obtain an artifact that will allow any undead who harnesses its power to walk in the sunlight unharmed and when the younger vampire's army wins and the elder concedes defeat, the younger instead-

I neeeed my neck bitten I neeeed my neck bitten I neeeeeeeeed my neck bitten ugh why am I like this ahhh!!

ugh what's a girl gotta do to be pinned against a wall and have her neck bitten so hard it draws blood?

I love the idea of feral thirst and need in vampire stories, especially where the lines between physical and emotional attraction intersect with a nigh-uncontrollable urge to just chomp down and drink with no ability to even consider the consequences. It gets uncomfortable (and it should!) and-

You never got famous on the internet by posting absurd and funny tweets and was also surprisingly involved with Homestuck? dril issue

I love metal so much

fuck it send a screenshot/receipt to [email protected] after donating at least $10 to any trans woman's gofundme or similar and not only will I send you Bandcamp download codes for all of my albums, I'll buy you any album $10 or less of your choice on BC I'll do this for up to 20 albums/$200

Mechina dropped two singles from an upcoming album last Sept and then proceeded to go completely silent, shut down their own website, and provide no additional info then last night they announce the album releases on the 31st, a Sunday, in the strangest way possible www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8ak...

• 8 songs • 40 minutes • Death and trad metal fusion • Incredible vocal and vocal arrangements by @vanessafunke.bsky.social • Inspired by the writing and lore of Pillars of Eternity Out now! Some free download codes below hollowbornadra.bandcamp.com/album/what-t...

fuck it send a screenshot/receipt to [email protected] after donating at least $10 to any trans woman's gofundme or similar and not only will I send you Bandcamp download codes for all of my albums, I'll buy you any album $10 or less of your choice on BC I'll do this for up to 20 albums/$200

highkey utterly despise joke posts that start with "BREAKING" considering the actual breaking news has trained me to expect the worst and immediately spikes my anxiety ._. at this point I'm muting folks who do this tbh

DreaMMonger will be my first project not attached to the Ruby Rockatansky "brand" but will keep to the trend of engaging concepts and narratives. Each album will tell a self-contained story of magic and adventure, with the titular DreaMMonger acting as a guide through shifting psychedelic mindscapes

John George Ruby Rockatansky Martin-Tolkein

I'm shamelessly bragging but a little bit ago a gal called the shop and then couldn't stop talking about how pretty and calming she found my voice and tbh I needed that today

I'm still very much on the hunt for good trans vampire novels/stories/literally whatever I follow a few folks who publish stories on AO3 and the like and I've searched through as many as I can find but I know there are more out there!!

"I will not succumb to despair!!!!" I yell alone in a 10x10 room before downing a gallon of kava and kratom extract

feel like shit so I wrote some proggy stoner doom DreaMMonger is slowly and sludgily becoming a reality

today's chore tunes: soulsellerrecords.bandcamp.com/album/the-vi... getting myself in the mood to start writing for my stoner doom project by revisiting this classic that I first discovered roughly 20 minutes before my egg finally cracked

gimmie those metal songs that start like a movie trailer

am I tired physically or spiritually? yes yet somehow, I'm still getting up

"Per Scientiam ad Justitiam", my angry thrash EP from last year, has been updated on both BC and Ampwall to include a remastered cover of "Stonewall", originally written by @transgressivemetal.bsky.social enjoy <3 rubyrockatansky.bandcamp.com/album/per-sc... ampwall.com/a/rubyrockat...

"Per Scientiam ad Justitiam", my angry thrash EP from last year, has been updated on both BC and Ampwall to include a remastered cover of "Stonewall", originally written by @transgressivemetal.bsky.social enjoy <3 rubyrockatansky.bandcamp.com/album/per-sc... ampwall.com/a/rubyrockat...