lately i mostly exist just in "gloom doom paralysis" and "meep meep meow meow (emotional valence ambivalent)" states

i wonder if "politicians should do precisely what the polls say is popular" polls above 15% in america

But seriously why are some people like this? It made me think of the c-ptsd inner/outer critic dynamic and general paranoia inclinations and it would demographically fit but idk

"everything reminds you of the last book you read effect" but i'm still sometimes reminded how much the conflict reminds of where i want the world to go x where trumpism goes

one small positive for self-driving cars is that i won't ever have to hear "substance x should be illegal because of drivers" argument again

- posts on r/schizoid once - it's one of the most upvoted recent posts oh no

i think a lot of "are people fundamentally good or evil" depends on how much you consider having wrong world models a moral failure i'm leaning more towards yes than no

Gosh, it's almost like surveillance was the agenda the whole time

if it really consistently produces specifically liliputian hallucinations then i guess they work through some unexplored pharmacological mechanism which would be really cool

one of the hopes i had re LLMs is that there are going to be some (or more of idk) not-directly-partisan-actively-communicating-entities that are more difficult to control in a "change narrative every 14 days to what is convient to powers that be" way

babe come over to watch the entire rym music video chart

oh god I did not predict Use of Weapons to end like that

"betting markets but people actually paying you to let them reverse psychology better habits for themselves"

putting money on polymarket that I won't fall asleep so I fail it and actually have some sleep

thinking about this again instead

😭 ("of course i accept it would suit my personality better" is so desperately me coded)

hopefully now, mostly also means i should be online minimally since my discipline in avoiding stressful shit there is less than ideal

What I hate most about all these age verification and other internet gating/censorship laws is that after some time almost no one will be able to imagine it doesn't have to be that way.

the worst consequence of roko is that i feel like i have to explain that my mental illness has nothing to do with his dumb thought experiment

U tohohle jednou umřu.

"Immortality is bad because it would be boring" This is confusing contingent evolutionary traits for fundamental aspects of existence. I think it would turn out to be simpler to hack this than like actually achieving biological immortality.

Oh god they made fashion statement from that stupid euphemism for ethnic cleansing

relevant memory www.youtube.com/watch?v=-rPs...

"things are so bad even introverts are protesting" thinking about making a "things are so bad even people with schizoid personality are switching out from observer mode" sign

well endlessly agonizing over having no idea how to make the text work as you imagined as opposed to how triggering the content to you personally is may be one of the better ways to do exposure and response prevention therapy

update: feeling hypomanic at 3:48am this is weird it would be fun normally but man I want to sleep

Man i fucking hate how the medias adopted suspected drug smuggling vessel as the term, you are indisputably describing civilians that’s what makes them drug smugglers!

2am yearning to finally get my shit together

hahaha the White House deleted the fascist anti-immigrant slop video after Sabrina Carpenter ratioed them

I wanted to write smth like "do you really think this ridiculous new age prose is appealing to the segment that wastes untrivial money on shady grey market pharmaceuticals" but I'm not even sure anymore lol

gy!be of drone ambient ass song titles

inner critic nightmares

Athens:

"Pete Hegseth using my work to glorify war crimes" is the probably the only genre of thing i would be willing to do a copyright infringement lawsuit over

man i really need to find some new music would be beneficial for mental health etc

“yeah our network downtime was getting to be a problem until we told the bot it was wearing programmer socks. we’ve got a whole team trying to figure out which fursonas work better for QA”

mr Thiel please sort your shit out

i need two weeks where nothing stressful happens or is required from me

this kind of things are a good illustration why decent epistemics and critical thinking is crucial for left wing movements. losing sense of perspective leaves you vulnerable to be manipulated.

fuck it, for the people in the back: the jeff bezos owned washington post is the outlet responsible for making sure the primary complaint about AI was water. this may have been in part because jeff knew it was bullshit, so when amzn gets blowback they can easily prove their water footprint is small

okay, it looks like the prompt itself got caught by the much simpler, for various well-justified technical reasons, red-text filter rather than the model's own safety training. this is the right behavior even if it's annoying.

Haven't had a hangover for so long I forgot it can also come with this soft-brain-restart-like sense of clarity that comes with seeing what you are doing from slightly more distant perspective.

given that most discourse here assumes llms are fundamentally evil like child pornography or something, this functionally feels like gaslightning

The primary sense of loss I'm feeling now is bc large part of the reason I ended with a compsci degree is that it was relative effortless way to function in society as asocial, inflexible, physically weak autist-shaped creature, seeing the relative security obliterated within two years has effects.

integral part of my emotional preparation towards stressful events now includes screaming along with the last IM STILL ALIVEEEEE!!! like a maniac www.youtube.com/watch?v=TSZ7...

stodûlky

the power of fluffy boys/mean girls shines within you

i still don't believe the responses here are representative of left at large but if i'm wrong, then, uh, negative polarization really overrides everything, ugh

my thought of the day is how people still sleep on this record i don't feel like i have overlistened it even since the mornings commuting to uni ten years ago yet it might be her most accessible and the songs flow so nicely and yet they have no shortage of cathartic moments and yet it's so comfy