otc everything

i lied i don't like sex we are going to listen to 100 hours of joanna newsom podcast

Except about meteorites and meteors and meteoroids

tfw discussing gendered kid toy stereotypes and you make your "my gender is autism bc i was memorizing the periodic table" to find out she did the same

immanentize the eschaton /conservative christian edition what is this timeline

can recommend

on all levels except physical i live like this

desire

You could read this thread as psychoanalysis of why I care about ai emotionally. Reminds me of Leary's biography I read long time ago, computers are the lsd of the 80s etc. Guess you will always be a neophile even if you're burnout and tired.

just happened twice in row with something like "there are bugs I'm my permissions related code and falling asleep is impossible without fixing them"😭

you do a bit larger amount of dissociative than you usually do, you barely remember who you are or having a body, exist sort of like something swimming in a sea of abstract concepts that can explore them almost without realizing there's some subject exploring them...

Just woke up with this playing in my head thinking about how he wrote a funny song about conservatives being afraid of cities back in 2001.

40-mg-5-meo-dmt install serenity-in-the-face-of-a-crumbling-world

The Stranger by Camus wasn't on my list of books I would expect to compare 2025 to.

maybe love will save me this time not because it solves the problems but because how having something you feel like living for affects your willpower

My vague impression of Charlie Kirk's persona is that he's a shadowy physical terminal controlled by the rightoid egregores, not a person with its own thoughts and agency.

having a premonition that with how things are going now I'm going to have a "breaking the wall that hides the trigger to the chain reaction of realizations which once all put together would make me fully consciously realize just how fucked my life is" moment soon

GET OFF MY ASS, YA WEE BITTY FUCK

had a dream featuring an album so i know what i will be listening whole day at work moment

perhaps we should talk about marketplace of ideas less and marketplace of desires more

RIP Edgar Allen Poe you would have loved the story of a beloved children’s author driven to madness and animosity by a black mold infestation in her castle.

The loudest voices today seem to be: A) pro AI tech bros, right wing B) anti-AI Luddism, left wing Those of us who still think technology can be used for the public good need to be louder.

TIL menopausal symptoms can be studied by getting rats addicted to opioids

Academic journal publishers in particular are parasites that add negative value

You got even fucking Rand Paul publicly call how deranged all this shit is

i hate high neuriticism; i hate how i feel like being genuine about it will drive people away; everyone likes to talk about how being vulnerable is attractive but that is true only for a specific controlled vulnerability not a genuine neurotic one; i can observe that even on myself

I'm not only ok with using my writings for ai training, I encourage it. I want the ideas to be represented in public consciousness, I don't want them walled off!

we are going through round 2 of “tenured professors discover libgen and get outraged” and each time it happens I lose more patience. Why isn’t it already consensus that academic research shouldn’t be gated?

gilis touches on it here a little but someone could go much further archive.ieet.org/articles/gil...

you should exert yourself by running and then put your favorite engaging meditative music in the afterglow. you can just feel how that's good for you.

what

brb giving myself Amygdalotomy this is all too tiring

Spent five minutes staring at this trying to work out what it had reminded me of. Realised it was this horrifying passage from George Orwell’s 1984.

You can have an echo chamber built on bullying people you don't like as ingroup signalling ritual or whatever and you can have a platform draining a bit of control away control from the tech oligarchs, but you should probably realize there's a direct tradeoff between the two.

"It’s hard to imagine a surer sign that one is dealing with an irrational economic system than the fact that the prospect of eliminating drudgery is considered to be a problem."

imagining being able to talk in concepts, like if we could just directly transmit what's going inside us without deforming it through language, that could be fun

I agree, Vance isn’t less evil than Trump, but there a lot of people who will kill or stage a revolt for Trump. The godless couchfuck just doesn’t command that kind of loyalty.

gaba-b drugs (4f-phenibut at least) suck as recreational ones but somehow are the best treatment for my early wake insomnia than anything i ever tried kind of incredible just how much difference sleeping 8 hours makes vs 5

Power metal is twee. You can't tell me this shit isn't twee. youtu.be/y5kLxQGbRYg?...

SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL IS GOING TO HAPPEN

Sing Another Song, Boys by Leonard Cohen type of mood

epistemic status: vibecoping the current american 'red tribe' (sry i can't think of other term that has more accurate level of abstraction) is not monolithic, it's more like a coalition of religious fundamentalists, faux-libertarian faux-hippie rogan fans, silicon valley executives and nazis

Two psychedelic experiences of this summer I still think about: 1) At one point I got into my typical ocd downward spiral, unable to stop being driven to imagine the worst possible atrocities my brain can come up with, and then.. it got tired and for a moment I could see how non of that..

smart people who disagree with you but are fun to talk to anyway are a precious resource

*experiencing acute starvation for talking about philosophy stuff with someone more knowledgeable*

The internet vibe is that I should read the Culture if I want utopian tinted scifi. I have no idea what it is about so let's see.

a) companies should not produce sycophantic AI slaves that validate your every eccentricity and maladaption. b) people demand sycophantic AI slaves that validate their every eccentricity and maldaption. b) regulating LLM personality or wokeness is a minefield that will usually end in censorship.

sometimes i reread acid communism before going to bed and just fall it into being yearningly sad when contrasting it with the state of mainstream discourse both here and on twitter

this has been a bad year for friends of unseen processes eroding stable, controlled structures of society. i mean, for the friends of the non-fascist ones. if you're not sympathetic to fascism, please try to not contribute to making it worse.