fuck my dumb gay ass why is body in a mandatory fight or flight response right now???? why can I feel it getting worse??????

i feel like my brain is melting our of my ears and like someone is around the corner about to murder me

damn I always get really sad in the hrs/days after visiting a bunch of friends. I'm certainly not the best at socializing, but I'm absolutely a social animal

you have to cum once duribg november or you are letting the chuds win

ok 4hrs of driving accomplished, time to check out the ycs and see if I missed anything

ok I clicked on one and the first thing I saw was that a guy was from "cleaveland ohio" so I'm not sure if these are the most accurate game breakdowns

while trying to find the breakdown of decks which cleared to day 2 of ycs pittsburgh I just realized that konami posts full written out transcripts of every feature match with which cards are drawn and which resolve throughout the match. This is cool!

The Weather 🥰🥰🥰🥰

ive been wearing a dress and tights all day and at some point I got cold and added sweatpants, but I've now traded out the dress for a t-shirt and now my legs are cold (despite tights & sweatpants)

i hate food dawg we gotta make a new way to power people

damn I never realize how bad I am with food till I have to eat in front of anyone besides my fiancee. I should probably try to figure this out at some point cause I will just decide to starve instead of eat near multiple people, the other option makes me soooo neurotic

im so bad at talking 😭

the new branded stuff is cool 👀

crazy how loud it is even when you're in the middle of nowhere. birds make a ton of noise

i got a bit too drunk last night. oops. like 3 sips of my drink threw me past "pleasant and relaxed" and into "my body is sending up signal flares that I've been poisoned"

ooh a ycs tomorrow. I havent paid attention to the meta since the emergency banlist so I'm looking forward to seeing the meta. knowing nothing i bet its still 90% yummy mitsurugi with no hand traps & infinite ceiling and then a bunch of going second stuff which gets two clears into top 8

do hypno-dommes listen to hypno files for fun or is it like market research

when saint peter turns me away at the pearly gates I'm definitely gonna get told "yeah honey sorry you really needed that third attempt at therapy though"

I dont think the charmers have anything close to a coherent strategy but the spell card reads kind of obscene and with the fusion it lets you instantly dump every charmer in the grave which I'm sure will let you do something somehow. Really cool cards though and I really like the fusion's art

good night everyone. the week's almost done

i was too sad to do any packing or prep for visiting friends tomorrow so im gonna be a mess when im off work tomorrow

my mental breakdown has mostly abated (as it usually does). I gotta start trying to figure out why I'm like this

im very mentally ill in a bad way

I have infinite solidarity with anyone who retweets cute bunny videos

it hurt a lot but my injection was done and I didnt bleed or leak so thats good. im gonna have a little treat

i do not wanna do my injection today im too sad

i wanna eat a bunch of chocolate i think

a friend wanted someone to draw with on a call so now im practicing sketching for the first time in months

civic duty? more like- no, I shouldnt say it. it would be uncouth

I can see how my trajectory is gonna go today. For those of you who have never dealt with post-nasal drip take a moment to be happy for yourself

this shits incredible, they learned from last year that AI cant generate a full second of functional footage so as it goes on the shots get shorter and the cuts get more jarring. Plus the AI jankyness is still there!

aside from getting inducted in a lesbian polycule and not being depressed a big life goal of mine is to make a comic book at some point

watching guys in my former frat's groupchat talk about no nut november has me feeling like im experiencing psychosis. How are you taking this shit seriously? are you reading what you write? how have you managed to take a kink and sanitize it so much that it makes me wince????

im home with a ziplock filled with ice and its sooo nice

the dichotomy between my following feed (relatively pleasant, a lot of art) and the popular with friends feed (a hellish portal filled with infinite discourse) makes me realize that a life of ignorance is probably significantly preferable to trying to keep up with this

hmm. did I just sprain a muscle near my shoulder? or did I just overexert the hell out of it? hmmm. it is now olive sitting down and resting time

im gonna pass the PE then I'm gonna learn a new language and start a polycule of 3-5 lesbians in what is really more of a convenient method of cohabitating rather than a relationship

i should create a list

i feel very weird. I think I need a break soon

beat the last bosses of calamity mod for terraria tonight. Really really odd mod. It feels like the devs want it to be a bullet-hell game for difficulty, but all the projectiles are functionally invisible cause of how terraria's lighting & color functions. Progression is also scuffed as hell in it

fourth prismriver sister who possesed the midi keyboard with joke noises soundfont

whats it called when your mood violently swings back and forth multiple times a day and you cannot stop it

i think im very annoying

she is having far more fun referring to herself in the third person than she thought she would

idk if i have it in me to survive a 4hr round trip drive to a halloween party

As its halloween heres my spooky rec for the day: if you havent read Something Wicked This Way Comes by Ray Bradbury. Its interesting to see a piece so early into the formation of sci-fi as a genre, especially since the development of SF in the 60yrs since make it almost feel out of place

ohio rocks our lgbtq advocacy orgs are union busting

I fell asleep last night imagining getting a train run on me and I've awoken this morning imagining the same

be careful if you allow your polycule to grow to 5 people you can be targeted by nibiru

I think even if I had a hottie to pound me into a bed right now that I'm sleepy enough that I'd probably have a 30% chance of falling asleep during sex