I really hope this was the last time physio hurts this much. Feels like I got stuck in a room with a horny ditto.. with out the fun parts

Yesterday it was touch, today its sound. Guess ear plugs are gonna be something I need pretty often

this is how you should treat me

I will say, there have been bad sides to working in yourself too. Touch has been very overstimulating the last couple of days, and it weirdly happened because of the wind today

In the last few months I have changed alot. Eye sight has gotten better My hair has gotten fuller I am somehow taller Sleep has improved Lost 30+lb Quit drinking Fixed my diet Stopped coping Started healing Looks like im on my way to getting better

So I might have consistent low blood sugar, and a b12 deficiency. That might explain some things

Still feeling pretty up and down, but trending upwards at least. I probably need to get out of the house more to get it up further

Aftercare is important for subs, and doms. For friends and partners. I think i just havent gotten that from alot of people, mostly when its been needed. I got some this weekend, and it was the cherry on top of an amazing time, but very unfamiliar.

So, it seems like I will most likely be a part of a study that should help to treat my PTSD, and admittedly terrible social anxiety.

I think I just have to cut out anyone with a drinking problem at this point.

Ive really noticed i have forgotten how to flirt haha

Since my last post, ive been able to express emotions alone which is something ive always struggled with. Even though the person who triggered my need to post it was not coming from a place of kindness, I appreciate the push they gave. To that person, thank you, and go fuck yourself.

I think its the sobriety, but im finally calling out alot of stuff that has been bothering me. Things ive left unsaid, and that need to be discussed. If I reach out, its about clearing the air. The atmosphere at FE just seemed tense, and I dont want to contribute to that anymore.

Been listening to this song almost on repeat lately. youtu.be/Mx6XVBeyED8?...

Ive been working on my chronic muscle tension over the last year or 2, and ive made SIGNIFICANT progress in the last few weeks. Now, ive realized some of this tension was load bearing, and the muscles havent been used. Amazing, and weird feelings all around.

What ever has been going around is fucking terrible. A full day of just not being able to keep anything down, but at least its gone as quick as it comes on.

Getting super close to my body goals, and really proud of myself for where I have gotten. When I hit them, I think ill show off quite a bit ^-^ until then <3

In February going to see Nothing More, FE in March, and in May going to see TX2, Black Veil Brides, and As December Falls. Then here comes the cryptid summer! ;P Shaping up to be a fantastic year~!

Ugh, plateau just before my goals. So frustrating, but going strong!

Starting to get excited for FE!

One thing im realizing alot lately is just how badly ive let people treat me. On more than one occasion people have just groped me and more with out so much as a word to me, or even me knowing them, and in the spirit of peaceful coexistence I never brought it up again, just never liked them.

Hearing sorry lately has been so frustrating. Its not that I dont appreciate the sentiment, its that 90% of people have no actions behind it. Saying sorry with out the intent to change is basically just saying "Sorry, but itll happen again lol"

Hmm. Wondering if I should make a bsky to post pics of my dog or just leave them in my telegram channel

Average workout time for this month is 52 min a day... Shocking when I have skipped at least 5 days

New tattoo!

Decided this is gonna be my SFW account now ^-^

Vent post: So, i feel this needs to be said. I have gone almost 6 months with no alcohol for the first time in my adult life, and this has been because I was an alcoholic.

Sup nerds? ;3

Hope everyone is having a good weekend ;3

ADHD meds for classes Wizards: Abracadderal Warriors: Foquest Rouges: Dexadrine Driuds: Concernta I will not be elaborating.

Fuck, shiny hunting is so easy in the new Pokémon game I have extras.. if anyone wants some hmu!

I dont know if I posted these anywhere before but I might start printing these kinds if things again.. if anyone is interested :3

Uhh, I might have a problem with moderation. This came out yesterday.

Pokemon Z-A comes out tomorrow! I'm excited :3

My boyfriend @blazeburnbitch.bsky.social has a beautiful 🍑

ADHD meds and an energy drink. Breakfast of champions!

Got my sleeve updated a bit over the weekend. Almost there now! Might do a photoshoot to show off~

Thinking I'm on a bit of an upswing finally! Quitting drinking entirely seems to help

So, I have been going through a bit of a tough time lately which is why I'm moving over to this account. I might be a bit distant, but feel free to DM or anything. Group stuff is gonna be tough for a while