it’s 5am and all i’ve been doing is watching reels and artfight stuff and im leaving the house and busy all day by 8am so i should probably sleep now night night everyone

this is happening to everyone, right?

guys mental health has been in the drain [it has been for 8 months now but i keep getting worse] so i might be slow on requests you’ll likely have a better chance with me on artfight i’m tired

i miss my relationship so much it lowk makes me sick like fym i used to have this as my wallpaper and then the two of them as my home screen bruh ::(

this drawing from last year is frying me because i was literally in a happy relationship and a slightly miserable situationship that assimilated into a polycule i had no right to be complaining about love ✌️😭 #art #ventart

oh yeah i got my frickin artfight set up [most of it, anyway] i’ll still work on requests ! artfight.net/~ikarishinji

yo i think i spent a bit more time on art fight than i meant to ✌️😭

tbh i’d go through and explain every single one of these if asked

i wish i didn’t associate a lot of bad memories with adrianne lenker songs because i love her music but i get genuinely sick when i try to listen to it [shout out real house, anything, forwards beckson rebound, not a lot just forever, fool, evol, come, my angel, half return, two reverse, and more]

anyway, i’m naming myself shinjiikari or ikarishinji on artfight idk

I MISS MY BEST FRIEND EVEN THOUGH WE ARENT FRIENDS ANYMORE

request for @drawingcarrot.bsky.social ! their design is so cool sorry it took so long ^^ #art #artrequest

doodled a random cutie yesterday #art #doodle #oc

gyuh… im gonna work on requests today…

happy America

yo i am NEVER making another phas map in bloxburg bruh 😭 [im lying]

some magical girls i dunno if i want them to be yuri or best friends so you guys can decide that [please tell me what you think] #art #ilovechubbywomen

oh my gosh just let me have zero ai on my tl please and thank you i’m so tired of people using gen ai can we kill all gen ai please like i dont want to see a ton of political comics that are all made with ai if i wanted politics id just look at videos on instagram

GUYS I DID NOT FORGET ABOUT ALL OF THE ART REQUESTS I JUST NEVER GET W CHANCE TO DO THEM TRUST ILL GET TO THEM VERY VERY SOON

oh yea also elii was around just barely long enough to do a cute little drawing so i’ll be posting that tomorrow ryu also drew something a few nights ago which i keep forgetting to post but idk if she wants to put it on her own profile or my profile since it had an advantage with interactions idk

i had a dream where i was in the AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS with my ex girlfriend it was quite the fun dream anyway i keep calling her my ex gf even though we’ve been broken up far longer than we were together [4 months vs 10 days] but like i only have one ex gf [i actually had 3 but she’s the main one]

i used to struggle a lot with food and would only have omad and barely eat and i lost like 16 pounds in a month but ive gained all of that back now and although i am still very insecure about my body, i realized that i lowk don’t mind being kinda chubby because it makes me look a lot more masculine

i love shinji closet cosplay so much i love being shinji ikari bruh i had a dream last night that i was in an eva and it was so awesome i feel very connected to my id and it’s so awesome oh my god i love being shinji hi guys im shinji ikari how’s it hanging

this might be the most search page oat

Neon Genesis Evangelion: Girlfriend of Steel 2nd

all my distraction methods are failing !! nothing left to keep me happy !! being happy is the one thing i could do and i can’t even do that !!

i had a fricking jersey mikes sandwich for dinner it was pretty yummy

i forget to mention it because it’s such like a normal overarching thing i’m into but does anyone want to hear me talk about shipwrekcs that im interested in?? shipwreck books are [unfortunately] some of the only books i can ever make myself read which means i read a LOT about shipwrecks

i tried to sign in to twitch or discord [i don’t remember] one time and it gave me a ten step captcha that i didn’t understand so i just gave up

oh my, these colors are REALLY muddy

guys, everyone, this guy WILL be getting a partner before the end of this year. mark my words.

watchin oomfs playthrough of deltarune chapter 5 :::3

it’s so wild that pyotrs gone now. i miss you dude :::(

unprotected sex fetish and his best friend, sex in general fetish /ref [i cannot stress enough that this is just a stupid reference]

Groundwork of Evangelion The Movie 2

The End of Evangelion Episode 26' Sincerely Yours I Need You

im kinda realizing i dont enjoy doing anything. art is frustrating and tiring, beeswarm isn’t feeling fun, im lonely in phas because the only friend who would play it with me is now not my friend, i cant make a fursuit because i dont have money to, and all i can handle watching is flashforce streams

got a little lazy but it was the only way i would finish this #classof09 #fanart #art #emily #emilyclassof09

my drawing skills are failing me, but here’s what i’m trying to work on right now

i don’t know what to do anymore. i don’t want to keep going. i ruined everything.

i feel so frickin fat right now /pos [i hate the most glorious gluttonous food ever]

i hesitated to post this to MY main profile but happy pride month left to right is Elii, Raat, and Ryu #art #pridemonth #plural #prideart #pluralart

the emu war, 1932 [the roblox game, not the actual event] due to lack of a friend now, i only really have bsky to show my art to, which makes me really sad. i miss him so much #art #roblox

hi guys i’m ok again my ex gf is talking to me lol she just wasn’t responding because she was locked on deltarune chapter 5 lol

my ex girlfriend also stopped talking to me so in a way i lost TWO FUCKING FRIENDS IN ONE DAY AND THEY BOTHER MEANT EVERYTHJNG

i’m sorry, i can’t work on art requests for a hot second

i lost my best friend today [hes not dead [yet]] and i don’t really know what to do because it was completely my fault and i was too locked out of myself to say anything to him and i want to die now i hate ryu and i hate myself

a noble gas walks into a bar and is told “yeah get out you can’t be here” it didn’t react yeah i’m funny and make chemistry jokes.

i’m watching some frickin shipwreck videos to learn about some frickin shipwrecks