i need to carve eyes on myself

i lost 1kg today :D

stupid brownie

i want to actually ⭐ve again. fasting for 48h starting now.

shit. fiancee made a brownie and i couldnt say no because she used less sugar for me and even calculated the cals guess i'm maintaining today (1 546cals)

when counting do u guys use total cals or net cals??

I might go back on twt because it's so much more triggering and I need that... or I need to find more triggering accts here

i think im gonna stop all my meds it's so annoying having to fill out my pill box and remember to take them 3 times a day i have already stopped sertraline and my other meds are (in french) cyamemazine x2, aripiprazole, omeprazole and some iron supplement i wont stop omaprazole tho it burns

also i stopped sertraline cold turkey without telling my doctors lol it's been like 2 weeks and i feel so much better than with it, it's not all foggy and blurry anymore and i can have proper thoughts and emotions now

i think the control of my cals helps me not cut like the dopamine i get from the number on the scale is enough to keep me from cutting

I have a "somewhat crush" that's coming to see me on Thursday!! now I have to ⭐ve until then to look the least fat possible tw nsfw: . . may his dick be good

I'm boycotting the American economy. All purchases will be necessary and local from now on as much as I can #generalstrikeus needed to start yesterday, if u dont live here . Dont support american companies. We need help , they need to know we will not be complicit #minneapolis Opensecrets.org

evening weight 96.8

i wanted to say "i wanna be scared of eating" but then realized i already am

i need to lose 50kg before the end of the year please someone help me give me any advice possible

btw since I was in recov for a bit I probably didn't see everyone that followed me, if u follow me and I don't follow u back just like this post and I'll give u a follow!

i wanna cut again i want to relapse on everything i want ppl to look at me with disgust

nothing's worth it is it?

i ate 100g of spaghettis and i feel sick from the fullness

96.3kg

i missed u guys I think my best friend was right about me being still disordered

what if I ⭐ved myself

btw sorry if i'm "not disordered enough" or "too far in recovery", i hope it's okay that i'm still here even if i'm eating a bit more...

the emojis looked better before saving the file :c

there we go! low restriction (is that the right one since i'm not restricting a lot??) because it's working for me!

i wanna do a cute calendar with my intake again

1300 today

by eating healthier my belly went down in sizes so fast just 3kg difference but visibly it's so different already

I did not cvt c: proud of myself

I wanna cvt again I have so many scars but I forgot what it felt like and I have a second arm that's barely touched

made it today with 1 289 cals, of which 108g of protein not catastrophic

nvm i ate

guess im back guys sh recov is going okay (1.5 months clean) but ed's coming back and it's not leaving until i'm at least 60kg (i'm 97.45 rn)

water diet here I come

I think I'll shrink my limit from 1.5k to 1k to 500. I'm not losing and it's frustrating. still gonna try to get my protein tho I don't wanna lose muscle

me: I'm gonna lose weight healthily this time also me: I gained I'm gonna kms and not eat today

today i learnt that i am apparently conventionally attractive to a lot of people even tho i'm fat how tf

why is everything good so many cals