love and courage to all who need it

writing a novel that will never be adapted for tv but if it was it would need a soundtrack so i’m working on that right now

not the most important thing right now but these ao3 scams are really annoying: "By the way, I have some thoughts about story can we connect some other platform?"

phew things are rough right now. a perfect storm of difficult conditions at home, at work, beyond, etc. crying actually helps

I’ve stepped away from fic but the year or so I spent on ficwip was pure joy

if/when I return to fic it will be for an event like this 🌹

when my inbox is full of AI generated phishing scams disguised as messages of love for my work but the ao3 bots taught me well 💪

one for the mlm fanfic / heated rivalry fans

i’m back 👋

another deadline approaches so I’m unplugging until it’s done. till soon 🔌

finding out that some of my favorite fic writers are still supporting twitter/x 😥 it makes me question so many things

as is often the case these days, i need to 🤐 but please know that i’m being a busy bee and trying to do you all proud

thinking of fanfic and fandom it really interests me that two of the biggest shows right now - Pluribus and Heated Rivalry - are very engaged with fan cultures 🤔

i get why people like this article but personally i think it offers a very narrow perspective on what fanfic is and does 🤷

fyi i’m gonna switch all my fics to “anonymous” in a few days. in case you want to bookmark something

new year’s resolution #1: i will spend less time online new year’s resolution #2: what if i start a blog? 🤦

some media i loved in 2025 📺: Pluribus, Dept Q, Murderbot, English Teacher, Peaky Blinders 🎥: Frankenstein (I didn’t watch many films) 📚: Jacqueline Hartman, "I Who Have Never Known Men," R.F. Huang, "Yellowface," Rebecca Reilly, "Greta & Valdin," Maggie Nelson, “Bluets" (reread)

happy new year friends! 2025 was a rough one but loaded with fantastic moments of friendship, community, and creativity. here’s to building many more opportunities for good - for all of us - next year and beyond 💕

if you’ve read Alison Bechdel’s earlier books - especially Dykes to Watch Out For or Fun Home - check out her 2025 comic book Spent. Such a clever and hilarious account of queer aging, creativity, politics, ethics, community, and change

another year of writing a lot but publishing (almost) nothing 😶 next year, though!! 🧨📚😉

on monday it’s back to business as usual but in the meantime i have theories my god i have observations

i forgot about the frantic pace of an active fandom! 🚅 PluB writing: a flurry of reads within 24 hours then buried under new fic avalanche 🐢 KE writing: hi, hi, is anyone out there, is this thing on? not complaining, just observing

mixed feelings about that finale but having the most diabolical ideas about things that could happen in s2. hmm have i been here before?

i think plurbus is one of those rare shows where a lesbian character drives the narrative and is allowed to be sexual and conflicted and desiring, but her central sexual/romantic relationships are not the story’s overarching purpose or point

i sometimes forget this account isn’t private 🙊

hivemind pov i thought, as if it were easy

sometimes you have to stare down work and say fuck it I have a ficlet to write

I have spent much of the past year being Serious about tv so it’s really nice to end it screaming internally about hive minds and romantasy and whether or not the opening scenes predicted it all. also I don’t want carol but I do want her whiteboard

splitting my pluribus commentary across accounts to dilute the reality of my obsession 🧠

such a fantastic and cheeky line!

I love this so much 🎬💕

grief, identity, psychosis, philosophy, colonialism, the writer’s conceit, “unlikeable” lesbians. ugh if i ever write about tv again…

I understand addiction and nostalgia very well - but it still blows my mind that any progressive would stay or consider returning 💔

trying to my irl friends to discuss it on here and they just look at me like dude why would I ever do such a thing 😭

today i got brutal dental work done and i’m in a post-surgery haze. what better time to indulge in the habit i’m trying to quit?

there is so much to discuss about the new Pluribus episode (which i absolutely loved) yet i’m somehow very glad to be completely removed from whatever online fandom discussions must be taking place

but I miss you, want to send postcards

currently in a “social media makes everything worse” mood so I’m taking a little break

my pluribus theory didn’t hold and i’m losing interest 😔

getting back in my “will you publish my short story" submission groove. even now it gives me a tummy ache

I listened to the Killing Eve soundtrack over and over again. I don’t need the app to know that

oops! see my user name. totally agree that fucking indulge your darlings is the better way to go ✨

i think i just leveled up 💪

time to deepen my understanding

working on a (very) short story and once I figure out how to sync surreal vibe with meaningful arc, I shall be happy

me foolishly posting abt a risk im trying to minimize. look away, look away 

gonna post about pluribus on my irl to “establish a social media presence” 😂 please engage if you want!

i have caught up! totally love it. but i don’t get why people enjoyed ep 4 so much. is it because she said the fuckable part out loud?

today i spent 12 hours doing a job that should be someone else’s job but that position doesn’t exist anymore. i know i have it better than many but it’s stunning to see how quickly things are being dismantled ❤️‍🩹

If I’m understanding this correctly, X is owned by a white nationalist who pays poor people of color in developing countries to pretend to be working class white Americans to scare other white Americans into being afraid poor people of color from developing countries are going to ruin America?