i hate myfuckingperiod i eat too much and get in the most rancid mood

binged after my workout last night today i feel stupid AND disgusting 🤡🤡

ig today is a junk omad bc idk how to fucken say no

ignoring the headache i want to get high

actually so done rn i feel nothing for my existence except crippling guilt (pms talking or not i cant escape it)

fuming & feeling bad for myself. i hate that i hav to compare myself to other ppl

i feel so sick rn cant do shit but if i dont i will feel so guilty

Omg I gen cant anymore i want this all to be over

i overate last night after days of restricting & i feel disgusting i hate myself bad i feel so trapped in this nightmare body & its all my fault i cant stay like this yet my lw feels so far off its grating me

i hate these fckn ppl idc idc i want to be alone

no reason to fck up other than to mqke myself feel worse can i just not??

i feel HORRIBLE that i look horrible & disgusting

this whole yr feels dedicated to annoy the shit outta me

my cousin is visiting n styaing over she is lit so skinny i want to be ded bc ik the bugs in my brain r not gonna let me breathe or be normal yeah

got new cIothes. im not even this size anymore i hav to st_rve so bad

my period ruins my life so bad i hate it sm

UGGHHHHHHH I dont know how to snap back into it idk idk i need to more than ever

hate myself

IM SO JEALOUS OF PPL WHO FORGET TO EAT

these past few days ive restricted during the day just to binge at night im on the verge of

bfast was a disaster, i just gave into random cravings ofc i regretted immediately & felt miserable lol lunch is this mango

dont fail me… the oats & i say to each other

if i were just taller this weight wouldnt be so bad but i cant control height only my intake n mouth get ur shit together omfg

if i were just skinny rn i could forgive myself for sm but also in a cycle rn where im eating my feelings bc i hate myself so

i need to STOP GRAZING

omg i cant stand it when someone is talking at me while im trying to eat

so sleepy

ugh why do i have to be the bigger person (character wise)

y is 1ove is1and how im coping rn ;-;

trying saurrrr hard to not sh

i want to ch0ke bc its getting hot & why do i look like this

oats hav lemon extract in them :p

ik im a goner bc anything happens & the bug in my brain is like *relapse hard hopefuIIy*

holding back the stress eating demon in me

Im never forgiving my btchass sister for this

back to weighing myself everyday bc i need to be aware & also why do i own the scale if not to use it

me & overreacting lol

im so sick of this no one is going to listen to me bc in this situation im the bitch i just want my routine i want to be alone like fuck

ugh im actually so mental end me now

why tf did i eat that part 865410827

if my lw self could see me rn…

idk why i did this to myseIf and why i cant undo it and why does it hurt sm just lose the fucking weight again

i feel so disgusting

omnomnomnom

i was supposed to w0rkout this morning i will do it tonite hopefuIIy

dr. pepper zer0… i want to try the new bIackberry fIavor

had omad at 1 now d!nner is tequiIa

l want to throw up i hate this shit i hate this timeIine i hate ppI who cant fcking understand & only see shit from their pIace of priviIege ch0ke ch0ke ch0ke

everything is shit im Iit so stup!d