just did the most american thing ever (shit on company time) happy 4th of july

just know, i celebrate what america was meant to be, what it should've been. i'm celebrating the partial freedom i have while mourning for every other human who doesn't have the same freedoms as me. this isn't me celebrating america, this is me grieving it.

a part of me always feels guilty for celebrating the 4th of july

any project hail mary or/and iron lung fans on this app? or really anyone who i share a fandom with those are just wha im obsessed over atm

it's all noah kahan's fault i swear

i hate anxiety cause fym I'm fighting off a panic attack because i started daydreaming about a situation that has never happened before?

everyone who responded to my post yesterday about my struggles as a queer person please know i love you and all the love means so much <3

what doesn't kill you haunts your story views or whatever kelly clarkson said

there's a lotta people here now wtf

Fuck cops

newer life update: still no bitches i am NOT a church goer anymore. sundays are a lot better now we still live with our fuckass brother and have no car rn we start therapy this thursday! we should hopefully get to go no contact soon but that's still tbd :)

and so does every queer person who exists. you deserve sunshine.

i once had someone tell me that i make being gay my entire personality. and honestly? even if i am i have EARNED it. i have lost my entire family and community, had my future fallout from underneath me, and lost my cat, all within 3 days because i got outed.

this has quickly been replaced by project hail mary, iron lung, and bloodymary content (i haven't watched either movies or been involved with anything in either fandom till now)

i hate being too poor to justify being as depressed/mentally ill as i am. like i really don't have the time nor money to be like this why can't i just be okay?

i don't spend enough time on here and tumblr that's why i'm sad

THEN IT WILL BE

i'd like to thank tadc finale for making in were my most recently ended friendship is no longer in sight by this i of course mean that because of how many edits ive sent to people about tadc i no longer see their profile on tiktok when i share stuff. i know peace again.

i envy those privileged enough to not understand the importance of harm reduction.

Hark how I’ll bribe you.

but followed immediately by save a horse ride a cowboy, so we're good again

the music at work has played both high and dry by radiohead and matilda by harry styles by 8am; i think they want me dead

bluesky did you know i have red hair now?

where the hell was this advice this would've been way better than the psych ward

Having strong opinions on things sucks. I really wish I didn’t care lol

i think the hardest pill to swallow regarding my family is that no matter how much they hate me, they will never admit or even realize it. they are fully convinced they love me when they hate people like me to the core.

Cunt is a state of mind

i want soooo much for magic to be real

looking back to when we were still friends, bro it was SO obvious 😭

crashout so bad i came back to bluesky.com :/

change is scary, but staying dormant is horrifying.

also first post of the new year HELLO

i'm tired of being a wreck. i'm tired of being helpless. it's time to finally get shit done.

i really wanna be a "merry christmas, please don't call" kinda person, but deep down, i know i'm more of a "merry christmas, i miss you" type.

i despise the path my life fell down.

i HATE you for what you did; and i miss you like a little kid.

HOW DARE YOU

oh i have to watch a video for work that's almost 2 hours long? awesome im gonna listen to hadestown the whole time

i will forever stand by the fact that friendship breakups are 1000x worse than a relationship breakup.

i'm turning into aaron burr....

you don't actually want to kill yourself you just need to wash your hair and actually eat a meal. throw in a face mask while you're at it you'll be fine i promise.

when you only prioritize yourself, one day you'll wake up and realize you are entirely alone. you stood alone, you will fall alone. you left me to starve this winter, so next winter, when you're back in my doorstep, don't expect a reward for your negligence. i don't feed the mouth that bites me.

don't be a bojack; bo-jork it instead

i am so freaking happy that you've found the people that make your life better and happier, but i am so incredibly upset that i'm not one of them.

love the ones who stay more than you miss the losers that left you. appreciate the love you have, not the love you lost.

"who was the president of the confederacy?" "oh i've got it! ain't that the leprechaun callin the ed sheeran brown"

what the actual FUCK is 2025??!!!

absolutely foaming at the mouth because i was feed yaoi AND yuri ALL IN THE SAME DAMN EPISODE I AM SO WINNING RIGHT NOW.

I NEED TO SCREAM ABOUT THIS STUPID LITTLE GAY HELL SHOW RIGHT NOW ITS SO FREAKING GOOD AHHHHHHHH