My anxiety when I have to report to easier doctors: let's just die My anxiety when I have to report to one of the most high strung and stressed out people in the department: no problem HEY BRAIN WHY LMAO

You know, you'd think someone who has to look at feet so much for work would make for someone who could draw them 🫩 apparently not.

Guess who gets to see one of the providers she works for on a day she works for him cause her knees got so bad it interferes with sleep and function 🥴 15 years of chronic knee pain is a bitch lol

Work doodle, cause we don't have another patient til like 4 and I need to keep myself occupied for a little bit 🥲

I am not mentally ready for work today '-_- I need more sleep man

Welp guess any Gushing Over Magical Girls art/any other NSFW fanart I actually post will be exclusive to twt cause yeah fuck the tos changes here lol I don't draw NSFW often anymore but still, but I'm not getting sniped off a site that wants to be on Puritan bullshit.

It is, in fact, absolutely /nowhere near/ done lol in fact, it's at like 20% at best 😅 even the actual drawing portion for one of the halves is still not done due to the complexity of the file work lol

Little preview of a part of that massive project I'm doing 🪶 I guess you could call her an OC or sona? More info will come on here eventually when I get stuff at a postable point for twitter lol

Man things are really looking up for me this year! I got an interview with my top specialty pick this month and potentially more as backups 😭 really huge difference from the frankly really low point I was at, it's crazy

How long you think I can hide that I want to gouge out my organs cause my pain is at a solid 9 and I feel like my worthless reproductive organs are going to explode while working for a doctor🥲

I'm (not really ope) sorry for the lack of fanart from me. I'm in the process of working on a large personal project, as well as working 40 hours a week 🥴 I'm also frankly very burned out from fan works in general right now, having done it almost exclusively for years 😶‍🌫️

I'm officially done with the class portion of my program! Been a long and kind of tiring half a year, but I did it 😭👌 I was so anxious about having to go back to school, especially in an accelerated program but I actually did it while landing a good externship!

Every now and again I discover a new least favorite computer program. Today I found another one 🙃

Life update! I got placed for my work hours with the hospital system I wanted, so that's good! Once all of the pre-employment stuff is done I'll start my hours for that. It'll be nice to have the time I have away from working actually be mine again, even if it isn't as much.

anyone who got on social media after 2014 or so is under the mistaken impression that the primary goal of social media is for it to Accomplish Something while those of us who have been on since the start know the true purpose of social media is to give us a place to Post so we don't go (more) insane

Old art friend: you don't draw as much of your more problematic stuff or even NSFW in general anymore, what even happened? Other than barely having the spoons to draw and fandom circles being ready to put your head on a stick at a moments notice? Lmao

MDZS Warriors AU Chengxian save me 💜❤️

Speaking of Warriors AU, fun fact, it's how I honestly find myself enjoying w*x more. Freak4freak is great, freak4freak but add the type of political bullshit you can have in Warrior Cats stuff and it makes it more fun to me.

//wip I wasn't lying when I said it would be nothing but cats for a bit here lol have Warriors AU Chengxian

I'm (not) sorry to anyone who follows me who was never a Warrior Cats girlie, but I am probably going to be drawing nothing but fanart of the battle cats and my AU designs for a bit, I miss drawings cat characters lol

I find out next week if I got accepted to the externship I want and I am so nervous lol

I need to keep myself quiet in clinicals while someone tests, so time to draw lol

I want to drawing my Warriors!AU designs again ;.; I think I still have some emotional damage pieces to finish lol

[wip] 🙃 may or may not still be feeling a bit off, what better to draw, maybe this will help get it out of my system

I need it to at least be July. I need to be done with classes. I want to be able to actually work and not have my time outside stated hours not be mine ope ;.;

I'm playing through PLA for the first time in a few years, and I somehow forgot how absolutely cunty Melli is lmao

You know what, fuck it, I'm sharing my cursed ass modern Gusu Trio thought cause if it's in my brain it needs to be in others as well. WWX and NHS would absolutely be the type to send the music equivalent of Goatse to JC in the form of No Cock Like Horse Cock with no title. There I said it lmao

How is everyone? I had a breakdown today in clinicals over a single comment leading to a not so great core moment coming back into my memory, intruding itself and taking over my mind. I hope y'all had a much better day than I had 🥲💜

Me: no big drawing projects til after the class portion of this shit is done Also me: hehe *very big* art project I'm cooking go brr 🥴 It will be done hopefully by the end of summer?

I don't usually bring this stuff up, but man adoring JC but not his most popular (or so it seems) ship is a struggle lol Like I can handle adoring WWX and having w*x as not my fave ship for him, don't dislike it by any means, just had others grab me by the throat there, but man

Have a Jiang Cheng

Only 2 more months and my class portion of the program is done. Only externship after that. I can do this (I am very dead inside help lol)

I want to draw, not work on stuff I need to make up from when I was doing the absolute bare minimum to get my attendance when I was sick 😞

Didn't expect to get fully knocked on my ass for 2 weeks by a nuclear level respiratory bug, but here we are 😒 still have no idea what it was, still have some breathing issues, but we're back I guess ope

The weather may have been absolutely awful lately but at least my cherry blossoms actually survived last night 🌸

I'm halfway done and halfway dead 💀👍

I would definitely say for a first time making something like this, it turned out so well! My phone camera doesn't do it very much justice lol Just need to get the packages labelled and we're good to go,👌

*insert the Steven I thought you were dead audio* 🥴💀 she had me worried for a moment there lol

And with that lovely sketch of the ship my brain is using as it's chew toy atm, I need to sadly put myself on a hiatus from drawing for a bit 🫠 got a lot of work going on for a while so I need to do a better job focusing lol

Find a place and lose it, you can do it, won't you dance with me? #xuanxian

I'm slipping so hard on actually studying more than the bare minimum to pass things for this program, so probably just going to put myself on another art hiatus. Gave myself too much freedom 😞 ope well, hopefully I can be trusted with leisure activity again in a few weeks.

Chibi Jin Zixuan cause I kind of want to make side character stickers or something at some point 👍

Sign up for that cxc reverse bang or nah 😶‍🌫️ I really want to, I feel like it could be really fun. But also art with a deadline, even if it's a very extended one ope

I'm suffering the consequences of my life choices from yesterday evening, why did I decide to do that. Especially when I have to sit through 4.5 hour clinicals today 💀🥲 swear if I throw up I'm straight up leaving the building and going to nap in my car

I am buzzed and may or may not be a little zooted from the combo of alcohol and my meds, but my brain is rotating JZX and WWX together like a Sam's Club rotisserie chicken. I love them as a ship. Fucking rivals to idiots in love. Idk which is dumber, but they're both dummies and I think it's fun.

Hm should I get zooted this weekend or 🤔 I haven't in literally a few years and sort of want to have at least one last hurrah before I can't again.

I feel like I need a vacation. Like an actual trip vacation where I go enjoy myself somewhere other than home. Like Orlando or Socal or something. Just somewhere with fun shit to do away from clinicals and nice enough weather to do it lol

I'm also going to be ordering the charm lanyards soon, I need to wait for my payment for my program for this month to clear first so my bank doesn't freak out over the transactions 😔

It's going to be almost 70 for the high on Tuesday 👀 maybe I'll actually be able to sit outside and read

I'm closing this at 12pm EST on Saturday!