heyhey hihi, im genuinely so sorry that all i've been posting is venty stuff or such, but i feel like i should atleast post something (on my main account instead of vent account atleast) to show im still alive (atleast as best i can 😭...) (1/2)

I was contemplating just deleting this because im worried of it, im scared of being vulnerable because of how much pain it has caused me before, of course as i type this, im not going to be able to say EVERYTHING as i feel it would go badly if i did this publicly but, ill try and say something (1/?)

Sorry for being absent so much.. I'm unsure if i should make a post thats a thread of venting on my main instead of alt, do you think thats a bad idea? i feel like at best i'd lose followers from it, if this post doesnt do that either way, i just have a lot of things trapped and im unsure what to do

a Pikachu that could hug me back would totally solve all of my problems (or at least a couple) I shouldn't be up, sleep times for me 😭

I'm so glad so many of you "fell" for my little random silly post 😭 i didnt expect so many people to enjoy just sharing favorite animals but its a nice little positive group of people and i loved being able to respond to them all-!! i genuinely needed that because i havent been well much really🥺💛

I forget if i've asked this before but... what is everyone's favorite animal(s)? and why? what features? what silly little features on the creatures make you smile i wonder? 👀 and just by saying this, im sure i made you imagine them, in their cutest forms, mission accomplished hopefully hehehoho

Aand day 2 done-! that was fun!! now im out of streams to distract me for my entire day of existing however LOL i know i dont vocalize it here much of course, as my profile is very pikachu-oriented but of course i love undertale and deltarune-! (i hope this isnt what made someone unfollow 😭)

I have just finished watching day 1 of the undertale anniversary stream and it was a really fun distraction to just sit and watch for those hours, distracted me from all the little bad things there could be LOL hope everyone has been doing well, i promise ill try and be active SOMETIME- 😭

i feel like im the only person here who hasn't done hollow knight and thus wouldnt know anything about silksong also, i am very out of the loop and left out in some way so oopsies 😭 glad everyone seem to be enjoying it and stuff though but dont think i can contribute LOL

I have finished thiiis-! i will just say, its kind of obvious i think but i generally havent been doing good at all recently still, and it does give me a little bit of relief to somehow see random stuff like this get random likes when its the type of post i fear people would unfollow for so ty- 🥺

I have my next little therapy appointment tomorrow Though im unsure if much will happen this time sorry again for being inactive, i have literally no motivation to do anything so ive been quite silent, havent wanted to bother anyone is all-! 😅 hope everyone else is doing well of course!

I genuinely get happy getting any form of replies on things because i love being able to have something to reply to myself i try and reply as best i can to all comments i get even if its the simplest of things to show that i do appreciate them all!! 🥺

I typically find myself not reposting art that has a TON of traction already, weird quirk about me, but maybe contemplating if i should repost some people's artworks that ARE popular but are older (so, more unlikely to see them in recent times!) i think that could be a nice thing to do sometime! 👀

I shall sleep soon enough myself, but i've been very quiet here, so, as compensation, i shall give you THIS creature ( pikachu ), silly little bean, with a silly little face, be sure to appreciate the creature in your hearts thoroughly, as the creature surely appreciates you! 😄

I wonder how many female Pikachu plushies there are... and I mean specifically solo by themself, and not a cosplay Pikachu I have zero female Pikachu and I feel like I need at least ONE y'know? 👀 I also have literally zero pichus, but, priorities!! Maybe one day, hope everyone is well!! 😄

I went to a little fair thing lastnight, i saw LOTS of animals mostly (i didnt go on any rides), and im unsure if people want to see animal pictures, BUT, i will share the BEST animal i've acquired from there, i have obtained a little chunky pikachu! 😄 look at this polite inchuvidual (indivichual?)

I know when i like posts that a lot of the people i like to check my profile, so i try and leave a little bit of positivity if i can, in hopes that it can make someone's day/night just the TEENIEST bit better, and hoping that it motivates them to spread positivity, just a lil' smile is good! 😄

hey, hey everyone, hey, hey everyone, HEY EVERYONE!!! HEY EVERY!!! LOOK AT THIS PIKACHU!!! look at the PRECIOUS LITTLE BEAN!! look at that squishy tiny little precious FACE!!! LOOK!!!!!!! okay anyways, i love them, so i feel everyone else should see them too-! 😭 Hope you all have been well-!! 😄

huh, weird, Bluesky at some random point selected only english as my language preference, instead of having them unselected, so i wasnt getting Japanese posts in my feeds and such for who knows how long be sure to double check, everyone!! just incase, maybe its a me thing who knows LOL

Respect to all the people that label the new mega artwork and try to "spoiler" it, meanwhile its sandwiched between like 3 other non-spoilered ones on my feed LOL admirable effort though! 👀

sorry I've been entirely quiet here, haven't had social energy for public interactions LOL I do appreciate anyone that still maybe stick with me slightly just finished first pseudo therapy appointment thing, first one was many questions, future ones are probably the more involved things!

hmm! interesting, new bluesky feature to wake up to who dare shall get shoved into my notification box with this update? 👀 i should probably not fall into the instincts and enable the notifications for literally EVERYONE but a handful of people should be good LOL hope you've all been well!!

I apologize for not being as active as i could, just been struggling a bit to think of what to say in the best way, but i still care of course!! i dont want to repeat myself saying this like once every month or so, but its in a way truthful i suppose LOL just want to let you know im still here! 😄

Got the results for this now!! i have officially been diagnosed with (level 1) autism! very nice to know myself a bit more and why i may act certain ways! 👀 i dont think ill plaster it around in bios/on profiles and such because i dont want it to come off wrong or anything but ye!! 😄

Uhoh-! it seems im currently at the end of my long backlog of images i snipped from random episodes i watched (i havent watched in forever any so LOL) I bring you... smooth round, yet pointy creature! what a delicate form of pikachu, so majestic and marvelous hope everyones been doing well! 😄

Everyone's gotta stick together!! remember that, its highly important especially for people that may not have many people around them, those people have to stick even closer together, remember to appreciate those around you the same way others appreciate you of course, i appreciate you all! 😄

This specific appointment i did have was one of the few related to potentially getting diagnosed for something autism related (or not), which i should *hopefully* get the results for at the end of the month here!!! we'll see how that goes of course, taking longer than i'd expect honestly-! LOL

many people seem worried to express themself as, well, themself when talking to people for the first time, with me however, i try and be unapologetically myself LOL if im not myself, i am not giving a true impression of "myself" when i feel like its important that i do, so remember to be yourself!!

Very random, but if anyone seeing this would like to get to know eachother more or similar ill gladly and happily try and talk and get to know eachother a bit!! i think it'd be fun to try and connect with more people directly and such, and hopefully make some fun memories or have some fun chats! 😄

as obligatory my name is stamped here and it is of course my current pfp as of writing this so i am here to make sure that it is seen and shared in appreciation! 😄 hope everyone's day is going well, brains been mushy lately so sorry for being quiet! still do love all the art i see of course!! 🥺

something with this account, no matter what, i want to stick to being myself, i see a ton of people just, not be themself and stress themself out trying to get followers, but, i just want to be myself, and i hope thats enough for people to enjoy me as a person 😌 i encourage you be yourself too!

anybody want to see a couple old-ish pictures of my guinea pigs that STILL have no name somehow?? i'm kidding, of COURSE you do, who wouldn't? 😄 i love them, they are adorable little potato shaped creatures, this is obviously my best post in the entire history of this account if you ask me!

vaguely related to this lastnight i was trying to get ready to get into bed and i moved my blanket to make room next to me for my dog, but i guess i moved the blanket the wrong way, so she just jumped off the bed and went somewhere else, no dog snuggles for me 😭 LOL still had my pikachu atleast! 👀

oh boy... ive accidentally became quiet here LOL distracted by other things and such i hope everyones been doing well!!! i still exist! dont forget i exist too please 😭 maybe ill comment on some stuff in the future, even if im REALLY late to doing so, i havent forgotten everyone dont worry-! 😄

...okay, ive done... the literal ENTIRETY of deltarune... in a single sitting, i am so tired, and my head hurts 😭 maybe i should've done the last chapter tomorrow instead of doing this to myself LOL i should definitely sleep, game sufficiently distracted me all day, tomorrow, i have no idea

random pikachu images before i VANISH for the day (probably) for multiple reasons (namely deltarune) who could forget this scene, look at the little guy though! 😭 the poor little face im sure modern pikachu can probably lift it just fine.. maybe... he got more fit atleast? in a way?? 👀💧

when going to sleep lastnight (wasnt tired enough to easily sleep) i unironically put my arm around my sleeping pikachu plush and imagined it was a real being, and told myself if i moved an INCH it would wake them up, thus i had to stay still and fall asleep myself LOL i mean, it worked atleast? 👀💧

i dont have much talked about here other than pokemon/specifically pikachu honestly BUT.. how many people share the other interests even i wonder? of course deltarune is there, i havent talked about it at all but i love it!!! also anything source engine related! and other things too? mayhaps? 👀

little random thing that was done in a rushed fashion LOL first art from me in forever technically, made it as a little self-credit for a gmod map decal, may as well share it here even if its not much! 😄 hope everyones day goes well! unsure of what tags to do but..! #pikachu #art #pokemonart

i do just want to say i really do appreciate hearing from everyone on this post and similar as it makes me smile to see the little updates i can get in little checkups like this! 🥺 not enough people keep in touch with whats going on with eachother so its lovely to do so just a little bit here! 😄

i feel the need to do these little checkups if ive been quiet for awhile but, everyone doing well? life goin' decent enough? existing good? being hydrated and healthy? 👀 i hope all of you have been doing well of course!! remember petting a local pikachu improves your days tenfold, its proven! 😄

i must continue my randomly timed duty of sharing lovable little creatures! look at this lovely little ball of joy and electricity! ears pointing directly up to the sky!! 🥺 who couldn't love such a lovely goober?? again as always, hope everyone's doing well and staying hydrated! 😄

i WILL one day draw the OC I have in mind even if it looks really janky, mark my words! just been feeling really lazy and among other distracting things, I've been failing to be active even HERE LOL hope me being so inactive doesn't make me get forgotten over time pfft hope everyone has been well!

Fluffy + creature + pikachu = free happiness in 100% of cases! its scientifically proven! (dont ask for me to cite sources, ill only cite myself as far as im aware LOL) but this creature has my NAME ON IT so thus i am obligated to have to throw love at it!! 🥺 very good start to the day! 😄

Important appointment today! i am going to be trapped for 4 hours doing random tests and stuff LOL we'll see how it goes! had to get up early to be able to do it but i honestly woke up way too early and couldnt get back to sleep, hopefully that doesnt mess with me 😭 Hope everyone's day goes well!

Time for your (non daily but still) dose of random PIKACHU! i dont know if ive ever seen this frame before but extracting it myself i loved this little face it looks extremely judgemental but at the same time completely unserious 😭 JUST LOOK AT THOSE eyes! hope everyones doing good!! 😄

this is a HIGHLY important video that everyone must go and watch immediately you must simply dance along with the crowd of yellow creatures NOW!!! i do love little videos like this, its very rare you see them i feel like now, especially with pikachu LOL gives all the bonus points! 😄

heyhey, just wanted to say, im sorry for not being as active as usual, mushy brain mode is killing me 😭 sorry for not responding to things i usually would etc, i still see things and wish i could put more but i am just a bit mushy LOL have to sleep earlier for an appointment tomorrow also (1/2) v

I have this habit to where if one of my dogs DARES to lay on one of my pikachu's or something i will immediately get protective of my pikachu and as safely as i can extract them from under the dog 😭 i be sure to gently grab the pikachu's in ways that wouldnt bother them of course, no ear grabs!! 😄

Pictured here: a very respectful round potato shaped yellow creature, of the lovable variety! look how SMOOTH and ROUNDED this specimen is! be sure to pay the tax of looking at them, the cost is: minimum of 1x headpats. The price increases the longer you are in their presence, BEWARE!