In 8 hours we're doing a Meat Rack tournament in the gym and I tried to make a new gym before the weekend. I did it in 3 days after finishing portraits and everything. Substance painter has been nice.

The small things I grew up thinking were natural phases of life seem so out of reach now. The world expects that of you too so it drags you down mentally. But I did a lot this month.. made an RV from scratch, streamed some RP, painted a bunch of portraits, working on more models for others.

I feel like the world calls for us all to be a bit more unhinged nowadays. Tell people with shitty political opinions that you think they're fucking garbage human beings. Insult the homophobes and transphobes. Tell the AI artist to go suck a fucking fart.

Two more paintings for this month. I have another two I think to go.

I was on pinterest looking at art and found an artist with a bunch of awesome character designs... About 10 minutes later I realized it was ALL AI. I had a moment of weakness and PMed the creator like.. AI slop?? They responded with this. I just can't. I stress making 10 paintings in a month.

A couple months of BSB2 with no accessories. FOV makes me feel like i need to stare directly at people.. almost no peripheral vision. Quality is good. The MIC CANT BE TURNED OFF AND IT SCREECHES RANDOMLY IN DISCORD IF I DONT UNPLUG THE BSB2. The headset is loose on my head no matter how tight.

When I started painting portraits for a living i thought it would be exponential growth. Ive made a massive portfolio for myself but it never really went up past the first year.

Two more portraits done for the day. I posted my art on twitter and it got no interaction. I think Twitter is dead.. or I failed as a person.

I'm painting patreon portraits and trying to wrap them up in the next couple days. These usually pay my internet and food bills. If you support me, you also end up helping me make updates to the Meat Rack map, a new gym upgrade, maid cafe, mission stuff.

Still having fun making these emotes. Only a few more to go this month.

Been working on Twitch emotes for myself.

I made a streamer discord for myself. Feel free to join if you want to chat, talk about roleplay, or share art or something. discord.gg/cNZmyktB76

I slammed my head/headset into a chair today. I thought it would make sense for Hamski to pass out after using his chi wrong for too long. I had full confidence my futon was there.. but i forgot i put the chair on the futon. I'm okay. I really need to make a compilation...

I'M GONNA RIDE THE SPACE WHIP AND ROLL FOR SPACE BITCHES. In honkai star rail. www.twitch.tv/Meathamski

With Bhaal Cult on the border, and Dead Shift threats in the bubble... people try to live their normal lives in Zaphira's Waterfront slums. twitch.tv/meathamski in 20 minutes.

Ive been enjoying RP again. DMing some stories, seeing people enjoy map updates, and getting to be involved in some peoples things. Its just a really time consuming hobby. Also hoping my cable tomorrow fixes my issues.

Gonna be painting portraits on stream. Might do FFXIV RP later tonight if I can get my headset working. MIGHT go gamble in Honkai a little later.

I need to buy a new headset. This one is blacking out. I'm looking for ways to fund this absolutely expensive hobby. I'm looking at the Bigscreen Beyond 2 for future proofing cause the Index is apparently not in production anymore. 160 for a cable is insane.

I can't believe I've painted all of this in 4 or 5 years.

Still working on avatars for a Meat Rack storyline.

Working on stuff for Meat Rack related plots. Really want to do things that make people laugh or have fun and tell a story. I don't know how people feel about seeing 'realer' comments. I know a lot of us are here for joy and distraction. My drive for this is very much something deeper.

I dont know how long it will last but I am so happy that I get to do this. Its been the best part of my life so far.

"Oh! That's just Regina George." Alta's little goober pal is now in poster form thanks to @meathamski.bsky.social!!! I couldn't ask for anything better. ❤️

Meat Rack had a drawing session using this site called Magma and @mxskipper.bsky.social and I tried to figure out who would draw a better Chicken Jockey. lol

Art so far on stream: Twitch.tv/Meathamski If you want one of your own, it goes towards trying to get a new place.. savings.. food.. rent. I'm strugglin'. You can go to my patreon.com/Meathamski!

To avoid sleeping I'm gonna stream art, unity work, and maybe watch some videos/listen to music. If anyone has requests at some point i may take them. Got a lot to work on. Twitch.tv/Meathamski

I've been working on some stuff for roleplay while working on portraits. I feel like I should be doing.. more?

I think I'm starting to feel the pain of being broke over the long term. I need to buy a new mattress/futon, new clothes, a new vr headset.. my wacom tablet is scratching the screen. All I can really afford is food and thats a struggle. I'm not even paying rent even though i should be.

My mood feels like it effects my art. Or my art effects my mood? I hope all of these look awesome. I think I'm just in my head. Got like 6 more to do in 3 days. Trying to catch up quickly but this month has been busy.

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This is supposed to be Hamski's new disguise with a mask/hood but I'm liking the outfit so much that I kind of think I should find another outfit for the disguise. I got the quarterstaff working 2 handed and i'm pretty proud of myself.

Taranto's Ultra Instinct kicks in as I try to kick him in the head.

Who's that Pokemon? It's Vice. Also more art from this month.

I copied @torasenpie.bsky.social's idea and did this while he was making his. Time to die, animals. Twitch.tv/meathamski

I'm going to be streaming Monster Hunter Wilds soon. I think I'm going with Charge Blade again. During the beta it came back to me but i may have lost it already. In 1 hour if we're lucky. Twitch.tv/Meathamski

I compiled a bunch of art together to try and show what ive done this year and last year. This is why i can do map stuff and have free time.

Everyone that supports me on patreon or commissions me on ko-fi helps. I can't express the magnitude of gratefulness that i feel towards anyone that commissions me. It allows me to do things like map updates and not have to worry about everything else.

I've spent the day exporting highlights to a second youtube channel. This is a lot of metaverse/black ram RP highlights up to 3/2/22. They should be in somewhat of an order but most of them have dates on them. Going to be adding more/making separate lists as I export. youtube.com/playlist?lis...

I genuinely feel happy being myself when I get to just be creative without interruption. My Wardens stream was going pretty well and I wish I couldve continued. Ipsum was probably going to blow himself up. Still wish I could find a place to move to. Feels impossible to afford at this point.

Going to be streaming ARK and maybe Monster Hunter Wilds beta later. I've added a donation goal for a subathon or something and I'm thinking a 24 hour stream? www.twitch.tv/meathamski

I put together some clips I found in a folder that I dont think was put into a video.. and also wanted to summarize Hamskis chi journey. www.youtube.com/watch?v=I3Z8...

I've never done a subathon. I dont know how successful it would be. My VR controller broke though and im struggling. I'm the type to stay up the entire time i'm streaming though. I need to make emotes, paint portraits. I can play MH Wilds beta, ARK, Shadow X Generations.

Hamski had to escort a shark man that bit someones head off out of the slums and then this happened after they sent him through the teleporter.

I hate when my chicken has bones. Its like theres a rusted nail in the chicken and I don't know where the fuck its gonna be till its already in my mouth.

Some of last months Patreon portraits. These people keep me alive.

I added a pool table to the Meat Rack, cut the download size by 200mb's, and now theres a cage fighting area in the parking garage. Tomorrow, hopefully the map doesn't break. 2pm EST, twitch.tv/Meathamski. Now I sleep.

Going to catch Pokemon as a Skippit again. Twitch.tv/Meathamski

Roleplayed as @redmayden.bsky.social's Fuecoco. i just like screaming.

I have so much self doubt that I have to have people tell me I'm wrong about it. But I genuinely dont feel like im that great at being social. I'm in a position where I am but i just hope i treat everyone properly.