june is when ill step the fuck up, Ill get my patreon and kofi properly running again, ill be purely working, i shall do SO much, god I will make this stuff a job i need to LOL I gotta find people to hire me for concept art or game work or smth though, damn either way, next month is my "lock in"

valle verde found footage is so fucking good its so underrated fuckkk FUCKKK

posting these silly little doodles I did a bit ago (forgot if i did before) but considering stuff, no ones ready for the plot of this story LMAO Janitor and Visera are too complicated and no one is gonna like Visera but fuuuuck i need to make this game so bad you have no idea

Happy Birthday, hope you have a good'un!

Happy birthday; ME!!!! YIPPEE!!

A little birthday gift for @rainbowcutieo3o.bsky.social!

ik I keep rambling about it, but it is GENUINELY turning me away from wanting to be a creator publicly, which absolutely sucks when this was my DREAM. i wanna be makin games and a show and comics and stuff and inspire others but now it feels like the last thing you want

currently alot of thoughts on the stuff going on in indie spaces the past few months and it is the most demotivating and fearful thing going on lately LOL

hooooly hell the response to gameoverse on [the other site] has made me dread even more if i get to release any of my dream projects... daaaamn LOL

how much would a silly webcomic following Willa be loved by people here, because I love willa so much and I think she would be fun to have in probably the only "chill" and laid back things i ever make

A week till my birthday! Ah! Scary... And this months been pretty decent too... Wow!

the difficult part of working on corru observer is knowing a future update will make things better so its basically impossible to suggest the game to people because "itll be better soon and theyll enjoy it even more" etc etc fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

realized that the rainbow work cycle™ is cycling so fast now that I think im currently in all 4 phases at once oh my god

im kinda anxious to make a webcomic cuz I dont have a place to even post it still and ontop of that, I kinda do not have the "time" to make a whole webcomic and have it flop.... god damn i hate how I cant even do stuff for fun anymore cuz if it doesnt make money then i CANT waste time on it

a really out of context artwork because funny

I really need to do smth, maybe just force myself to make a webcomic cuz AINT no one hiring my ass to work as a concept artist for shit, any of my game ideas wont be made fast enough at this point, and I need to!! do more!! something!! i need to get a job somehow and art is my only bet now!! agh!

if I made a game and someone spitefully made a game mocking the protagonists gender and it got more popular I think i would be on the news also recent dramas in general have me terrified of making a game now too, like what if some old thing i dont even remember is used against me and my game dies :C

i so wish i could do dnd, I dont really feel like i got to play alot of it and its been years... I have like multiple dnd characters that have just collected dust for cancelled campaigns or ones I got uninvited from cuz it was full LOL for the heck of it, heres my favorite one I made <3 sikil

a couple corru-related doodles, mainly ocs LOL

a buncha random doodles teehee

nvm the stuff i wanted to avoid seeing on twitter has made its way here in my feed people do not have nuance anymore im so exhausted

a buncha random doodles teehee

genuinely, glancing at twitter is such a mood killer LOL i have only looked at it recently cuz thats where some stuff was happening but then I see all the OTHER stuff going on has me tired and exhausted; never opening it to look at shit again tbh

ohh... how to be motivated to draw when everything bites me...... .. . how to make the monee and not be stressed about life and being jobless for years still

cool people reminded me about patreon and kofi and stuff and I really should return to using those, i kept struggling to post stuff there and it felt like i wasnt doing "enough" so i just kept sinking and drifting away from it.. is there anything advice or things to do that yall find work? or enjoy?

ive looked through everything in my general area for like 2 hours so far and everything wants 2 years of experience or "success in previous jobs" and other things i dont have why the fuck is bowling alleys and literal failing stores and etc etc wanting things i cannot give im so fucked man.

i tend to be quiet about this but as it turns out my family is going to kill me for not having a job and idk what to do about that considering there isnt anywhere hiring near me that actually bullshit or a problem for me lol its beautiful i love it yup. ohhh im doomed soon actually

typed up a big thing about drama on twitter from the past few months but realized i just need to stop voicing my opinions on stuff like that LOL. mostly cuz people are gonna think im saying 1 thing when im saying the other... twitter ruined discussion about problems huh? anyways yeah not posting it

In that PHASE where i feel bad about my art and experiment a bit and i think i hit something here cuz im feeling real yummy about things right now... also i love adline <3

fuckkkk FUCKKK i spent like 2 days collecting and editing brushes and just noticed it apparently didnt save the file in clip studio fuuuuuuuuck i lost those brushes idont remember their names time to repeat the process LOL

moynimu

entirely new dont starve game AND risk of rain dlc has me quivering what the hell man i wasnt ready for both of those

already hated roblox as a whole but i dont think i ever have any reason to go on there anymore considering pressure, so lol such is the way, people suck

I have been slowly picking away at world building and designed and wrote out a couple of diseases/viruses, i wont reveal the details rn cuz Im not too confident in my sloppy lore writing since its just planning but... yippee!!! progress on my grand world... >:)

eg day

its dead but i just have to put this out there because its still funny to me...

Holy banger maybe I should make more shitposts and joke art more often huh.........

something something pokemon mystery dungeon

grip your kimi

you should draw kimi i would be happy

its been long enough for me to vague post about it again; selling a sona/character design that was gifted to you without contacting the person who made it, not even crediting them either, and selling it as the cheapest option, absolutely sucks! I rarely HATE people but that flipped my perspective.

you should draw kimi i would be happy

april fools bit has started in the corru observer server and I once again turn into an inanimate object for it, this says something about me probably

It's trans visibility that means you should give me money I think, that would be really cool..........

well it works sometimes when the delay hasnt kicked in, so its fine until theres a proper fix for it in the future teehee

well it works sometimes when the delay hasnt kicked in, so its fine until theres a proper fix for it in the future teehee

spending so much time to make a pngtuber remix model only to find out the mic gets delayed majorly after a minute and I just have to wait and pray for a fix after 6 months of it being a known problem is the worse thing ever i just spent so long making it guhhhhhhh

no context miltza post from the corru server

maybe vaguepost idc but I need to not look at my feed for the next few days LOL, atleast I feel vindicated and im not the only person with issues and trauma over someone... yay(?) thats all you get from me