3. 'Shakti Rasa' riverkenna.substack.com/p/shakti-rasa

Just realized I've now written a kind of trilogy of short poetic pieces that come directly from my inner world and the way my path unfolds if you're curious what my inner life is like, or the flavor of my path, you could probably read all of them in like 10 minutes: 1. 'A Prayer'

Just realized I've now written a kind of trilogy of short poetic pieces that come directly from my inner world and the way my path unfolds if you're curious what my inner life is like, or the flavor of my path, you could probably read all of them in like 10 minutes: 1. 'A Prayer'

I expect to die without knowing what this life was about most big things i've done, i've done in flow, on instinct, and only much later found out why they were important -- i'll be surprised if the larger sweep of my life doesn't continue that pattern

I’m currently wearing a shirt that’s too big on me, which last year was too tight to wear And judging from how things look rn, I’m probably gonna lose at least another ten pounds before panchakarma is done

I have just been given some truly disgusting details about what vomit day will be like, and I am weirdly giddy about it in a “little boy who loves gross stuff” way

If god wanted me to drink cups of ghee, he would have put me in a hospital where they force me to — oh.

I have a podcast with my friend and imaginal practice teacher Rosa Lewis in which we're watching movies as if they are portals to a psychedelic and imaginal realm. In this last episode of Nouveau Shamanic Cinema we talk about her favorite ever movie: Moulin Rouge! open.spotify.com/episode/3M4n...

The impression I’m getting from the doctors faces today and yesterday is that my body is bad at panchakarma

Jesus I’ve lost like 50 pounds this year

Panchakarma is insane, why did I just drink this much ghee?

All these terms (‘ideology, psychofauna, psychoflora, egregore, tilism’) point at the same basic topography; roughly: "a constellation of psycho-cultural habits, reflexes, & complexes." But each term highlights a new dynamic of how the complexes

I never thought I’d be so eager to get to Vomit Day

“We live in the future” — okay I’ll believe you when I see like 9000% more bioluminescent everything

I think I’m in the process of choosing the risky life

You can literally just water the seeds the gods planted in you,, it's free and no one can stop you and it'll transform your life and why is basically no one doing this?

“building god” is the kind of nonsense people babble about when they don’t trust themselves to do what we’re here for — embodying god

an underrated aspect of prayer: if you take seriously the idea that the divine is listening to you, it gets harder to listen to yourself say anything that isn't Truth

It’s worth looking at the trajectory of your life and asking yourself “who does it seem like the gods want me to be?”

I've got a lot of hope in this direction

Apparent excellence is easier than robust excellence, it takes less time and is more visible Apparent excellence is the specialty of the left hemisphere, robust excellence of the right, Revealing and cutting through this knot could fix so much in our culture, more quickly than most other routes

my time here spent surrounded by mountains —never ventured far from the center square

This way of being, this “presence and continuous alertness” where we can be “always aware of the whole without excluding anything” is a hallmark not just of one seafaring tradition, but of most of the crafts that kept our ancestors alive and flourishing.  open.substack.com/pub/innerwil...

My life is a long series of liminal periods stitched together with a handful of peaceful, settled moments

Everyone scrambling for a single moment where they can believe the world can’t go on without them

I keep finding these inner moves that put me in specific and helpful modes of being, But I feel like I’m gonna forget about them if I don’t find a way to anchor each one

I’ve been roaming back through my romantic history, looking for patterns, and it’s turned up a couple yellow flags to pay attention to, - be careful with women who sleep poorly - if she’s very smart, loves art & philosophy, AND is attracted to me… that seems to be a troubling combo for some reason

I am getting some pretty strong suspicions about the sacred roles of hormones at this point especially something around how too much hormonal stability may destroy opportunities for growth and development

This guy has a vibe I didn’t know I aspired to until I saw him

The impossibility of describing what’s going on with you without it landing either as romanticized or cynical — or both

heading out to the store for secure attachment, you guys want anything?

Got sth stuck in my psyche’s craw tonight

I don't have a lot of close friends I can talk to about anything that comes up, but my current situation feels less lonely than some other periods where I HAVE had many close friends, cuz the current roster are 100% The Right People - my soul crew is small but potent af (& hopefully expanding)

Just finished the notebook I've been journaling in since the end of last year! let's make that a wrap on the "river's life falls apart piece by piece and he's forced to confront every dark shadow and grimy corner of his life" era, now starting a GLORIOUS FUCKING PHOENIX FROM THE FUCKING ASHES era

Idk it’s kinda exciting to feel like a bit of a fuck-up again Such a strong sense of how much more is possible, how much untapped

I’m prolly gonna miss Tirana’s plentiful parks

There are days, and there are Days, and there are DAYS

Having an autoimmune condition has got me tryna thread a very fine line between > feel negative feelings to completion, let them be totally felt and processed And > keep the physiological stress low, or it could spark a flare-up Which is a very narrow and not very fun line

do we live in a society?

I put my bio into Midjourney, Which way western man?

Inside of you there are 30-50 wild hogs

‘Tpot’ as a descriptor is basically similar to ‘Romance language’ There’s a common history there, but how often is it useful for Spaniards to identify themselves w the same label as Romanians?