Random number texting me with my actual name? Oh fuck no

I think I should write a fic where Buck gets a joint gel injection and then spend the weak between each one complaining to everyone who will listen about it

My knee fucking hurts man wtf

Update: It took an hour after my appointment time to get me see and by that point my Xanax was not nearly as effective. I have to do this entire thing two more times, fuck me

It’s now 20 minutes past when my appointment was supposed to end and they tried to send me home over a mistake on the behalf of the pharmacy. I’m going to flip a table

Two doctors appointments in one day, what the fuck was I thinking

Trying to convince my brain that yogurt isn’t evil is so weird bc like… I like yogurt, I know I like yogurt, but my brain is (apparently) a toddler who has decided yogurt is Bad

Don’t think about the fact that Theo’s parents died like… weeks before his birthday

I have so so many thoughts about the Project Hail Mary movie (it’s beautiful) and the changes from the book but until I can properly put them to words may I just say the way they used silence in the movie was masterful?

I love when I can read a book that a movie is based on b4 watching the movie so I know when the loud parts are

“But George Lucas—“ George Lucas created a magic system that had the two sides be “denial of ones emotions and attachments” and “gain power through negative emotion” so y’all can rip grey Jedi from my cold dead hands

I love Star Wars but the fandom is such a fucking prison sometimes

If Microsoft tries to charge me for another fucking addon that I didn’t buy I’m going to lose it

Actually trying to figure out a design for the tattoo I want is fucking rough

Me discovering a new freckle pre-cell bio: Oh a new freckle Me discovering a new freckle post-cell bio: Oh so I’m going to die

“We are working with radioactive material today so don’t like… put it in your mouth or eat it.” - a real quote from my physics TA

Trying to get my mom to understand that “I know I’m safe around [brother’s friend] bc if he tried anything [brother] would knock his lights out” is not the same thing as my brother’s friend being safe to be around

Every so often I supreme an orange and then think about that one fic where Buck supremes oranges for Chris

Noah Kahan and The Great Divide better save me during my dental appointment

How badly is character ai loosing money for them to be advertising on YouTube? And why am *I* getting the ads?

Every time I see a post of a woman complaining about her husband or boyfriend I am struck by how wild straight ppl are

Conservatives who say shit like “stop transing tomboys” baffle me bc the only people who have ever tried to tell me that I must want to be a man bc of the way I dress and wear my hair have been conservatives

My brothers were completely unfazed by my haircut but my sister almost cried

Did I ever tell y’all about how when my mom and I watched Buck Wild and Bewildered she turned to me and went “You know I always thought he was kind of gay”

Wait Elijah was on the rookie??

Nvm it won’t let me take my quiz lmao

Canvas is back up which means I have to actually do homework now 😔

Don’t think about Theo asking Buck about a picture of Bobby and Buck saying “Well that’s… he’s my dad” and then Theo going “Is he gone like my dad?”

I always forget how dramatic the pilot episode of 911 is

Does anyone have advice for typing with long nails bc I’m gonna have them for at least two days and they’re already pissing me off

So if Theo is a little clone of Buck this means he’s also obsessed with Eddie right?

Actually both s7 and s8 has had the hallucination of dead loved ones haunting characters under duress so I hope Eddie confesses his love for Buck to Shannon’s ghost

Listen as much as I love angsty on the verge of death love confessions I actually don’t want Buddie to do that bc it would feed into Buck’s belief that he’s only loved when he’s hurt or useful (Even if he’s been doing better)

Ok so I finished PHM and I have Thoughts:

I love being able to team up with my sister-in-law against my brother, this shit rocks

I see some of us are still struggling to comprehend the difference between real life & television again 🙂 This is all fake it doesn’t have to follow the rules of reality; otherwise, the show would’ve ended in like. S1 when they all got fired for various shit so like. Take a fucking breath babes 🫶

Ugh I hate having to write professional emails, I never know how to sign off on them

The closeup scenes at the hospital showed tooth marks on Buck’s bottom lip which means Buck canonically bites his lip when stressed which is a big win for me personally bc it means I can incorporate it into fics lmao

I feel like every Maddie arc this season has involved Josh emphatically saying “you’re *Maddie*” and ends with the same message

I chopped it off and changed my pfp lol

I’m six chapters into Project Hail Mary and have Thoughts that I might compile and post after I finish

2 hours before I cut all my hair off 💃

I wish everyone who gives Anirudh shit about how he pronounces his own name a bad night

Wait oh my god 911 tmrw

The bias against food allergies is insane bc wdym within the first three minutes of the Project Hail Mary audiobook, Grace expresses an extreme level of contempt against ppl with gluten allergies and acts as if it’s a trend and not an actual medical issue

There’s nothing quite as funny as watching a friend who knows nothing about Noah Kahan discover that most outdoorsy videos are set to his music

As a sibling left behind, Dashboard hits so hard and the temptation to send it to my brother is strong

If Theo is named after that saint, there’s something so poetic about the traveler coparenting a kid named after the patron saint of travelers, and the soldier coparenting a kid named after the patron saint of soldiers

Yesterday was earth day. When I was younger, earth day was a big deal. Everyone wanted to save the earth, we’d spend the day picking up liter and planting trees before going back to our everyday lives. Yesterday was earth day, and everyone forgot. There were no posts or community service projects.

Not being a teenager anymore is crazy bc wdym I have a better understanding of my brother’s actions and no longer want to fist fight him and am aware of how he probably would’ve reacted if I had tried to reach out at 15 instead of 20