This day is long gone!!!!! Mostly. I still mess up sometimes

No, Brain, the professor won't think you're incompetent because you missed 5 points off a 100 point assignment. Please calm down and stop doing that.

What song sounds like love to you? If I had a partner, there are songs that would make me happily imagine them, or songs that I would sing for them, but it occurs to me everyone's music tastes and definitions of true love are different.

"Scapegoat" came on in the car today when I was going to school. I thought that would make you @killuaz1970.bsky.social happy to hear, lol🎶

I dabble in lots of arts, but I've never been able to sit down and try to animate. Maybe the universe didn't want to give me any more arts. But I wish I had learned by now. I have so many AMV ideas. They are stuck playing only in my head.

It's been a rough week. I want to get back on things. Japanese, exercise, flute, writing, skateboarding. Guitar, maybe. ASL? I want to learn things and do things. But it's hard.

It's not always, but I think, when someone else loves a song, you grow to appreciate it more? I only started loving Raison D'etre after a friend said it was their favorite, and I've also liked Midnight Runway & 落ちる色 more because of @killuaz1970.bsky.social.

Character portrait dump. Only the last one is my character. Otherwise I interpreted my friend's characters. I think they're not my most impressive or thought out pieces, but I do like looking over all these different personalities. #oc #art

I made a journal for thoughts recently, so maybe that's why I haven't felt the need to post? Anyway, I found a jar. So I made some small hearts and stars to put in there. For daily habit tracking. Not sure if it will work...

I've been really lazy these days (lol 🕺), but here's one of my better sketches. I feel like this is a satisfying drawing. He looks like a cartoon character. #oc #art

it's quite a bit nicer, isn't it? Although, the old one on the right was a low-effort drawing, but this comparison still feels nice to look at. #art #oc

Saiki shirt too✨️✨️✨️ #saiki #saikik

It arrived! Yes! Yes! Amazing! Yay!!! I was so excited I nearly forgot the alt text... #trickle

I remember being blown away that Izayoi not only sang the song and composed the music, but created a whole animated MV too. I think at that point I knew I had to see the places he'd go. youtu.be/9c_wuxt32Pk?... #jpop

I couldn't help but color in these ones. They're a bit messy, but I like them. #art #oc

Survival on a whim fascinates me. Sometimes you need buckets of care poured into your heart, but sometimes it's just a drop. A stranger says a kind thing to you and you decide to stay alive. Or maybe you hear a song, or laugh at something dumb, or drink a cup of coffee, and you decide to stay alive.

I was using it on my computer, but if I use mobile, I can sneak in kana practice with the Japanese keyboard. I can also pull up the site any time I'm bored or idle. A powerful strategy...!! Discoveries like this make me so happy...

My measly little chromebook had a lot of trouble with the size of this one. The result is the joint struggle of both myself and my poor laptop. I want to sketch more dynamic poses in the future, so hopefully I work up the motivation. #art #oc

Happy pride month. I'm on the aroace spectrum. I'm lucky to have supportive people around me, I wish the same for everyone else.

Oh no. I've located a problem. When I feel bad, I want to rest. When I feel good, I also want to rest. There's no point where I actually want to work...

I've finally finished my schoolwork for the semester. I need to think a lot about my future now, but my brain has totally logged out. I'm at zero. All used up. Maybe I'll root myself in spot like a plant, and stay there for a day or two.

The past three mornings, when I've had trouble getting out of bed, my big fluffy cat comes to lay down against me. When he finally gets up, I have to get up too. He powered me up, so I need to get his breakfast. I owe it to him.

Recently I feel like all my creativity has dried up. I get excited to make something but then nothing appears in my brain🌧 Anyway, here's some songs that I like lately. This one has a really nice feel: in motion, and kind of dark but not too much. www.youtube.com/watch?v=jmc3... #jpop

I know you're supposed to do exercises at your level, but it never occurred to me that exercises at your level probably shouldn't make you feel like your body is collapsing in on itself. Tired, yes, but maybe not collapsing. Consequently, all my life I was taught to do exercises above my level.

I have all the inspiration and creativity in the world, and I could make something great. The only problem is that my brain and a blank page have the same magnetic poles, so the harder I try to start something, the more I am pushed away.

I have been gently commanded to show them. Miitopia Saiki, Marcille from Dungeon Meshi, and Mafumafu. Making Saiki's glasses was a conundrum😵‍💫 But isn't Mii Mafu's heart outfit cute?!!! #miitopia

I had such a vivid dream this morning... The whole city was flooding, higher than the trees, and the houses bobbled about like rubber duck toys. Also I think a Mii version of Mafumafu was in it, which sounds somewhat less symbolic...

I think lots of things aren't truly meant "for you" unless you're able to take it as such. Because birdsong isn't beautiful if you can't pay attention to it, and a friend's kindness will feel useless if you're unable to listen to it.

My nighttime feelings are dismal again, lately. Hopefully I can keep holding my head above the water

I found a site that gives me random Japanese verbs to conjugate so I'm going to go through the options one by one until I can master each type. But there's so many!! Is it similar for others trying to learn English? We must have so many conjugations too. I speak it natively and I can't even tell.

Confusing how a fast-paced song can be comforting. But sometimes my thoughts seem to be restless and stiff, while outwardly I'm stagnant. Immersing myself in the vibrant world and story of a song like Eve's "Insomnia" is sort of like letting my mind stretch out comfortably, like a cat

Happy songs to show me how to move forward, gentle songs to show it's okay to be sad, sad songs to show me the secret parts of my mind. Music is everything!!!!! Thinking about it. Aren't my favorite songs happy, gentle, and sad all at once?

when I feel really bad, the main problem is I forget how to be kind to myself. If I do just the right thing, like go outside or listen to music, the world is kind enough to compensate for my difficulty. It occurred to me that I'm able to help my sad friends because I become the kindness they lack.

I tried some things. Softer lines, more nuanced shading. As someone very self-taught, my feeling while drawing is often, "I have no idea what I'm doing." Also I don't think I'm great at clothing design, but I try to make it a little bit more interesting each time I draw. #art #oc

Sometimes it's painful that the world turns despite everything, and sometimes it's a great comfort. I like to see other people persist outside of the tragedies in my own head

I don't tend to realize the extent of my stress because, in my mind, there's just the need to keep going. I'm really tired today. Possibly because I can finally allow myself to be tired.

Women love me. Fish love me. I do my best to care for all creatures and even when I fail they see my efforts

The character, and the art idea, came to me on a total whim. So much that, it almost felt like he brought himself to life. He's a near-immortal being who mixes playfulness with apathy, and he has lived long enough not to care about things like others' expectations🦊 #art #oc

The "r" sound as in ら,り,る,れ,ろ is really difficult for me to say😅 So I've already come across a couple tongue twisters... I'll keep doing my best...!!

I have so many strong opinions about love and friendship and how relationships should be healthy. But only for other people. If I'm involved I don't have a clue✌️

For a long time I used "multiply" blending mode in order to put shading, but I tried hand-picking the colors this time? Maybe it provides more control over the effect? I'll try it for a little longer💭 #art

having two cats adds an important activity to my life, which is Group Laying in Bed. Conveniently, a more positive alternative to Laying in Bed Alone.

It's the difference between my Bluesky and my Twitter...

I cleaned my desk to put down my Omori deskmat from Christmas. A rare streak of productivity in a lazy week. It makes everything feel fresh

I like putting marshmallows in my hot chocolate, but not to watch them melt. Just to race to scoop them up and eat them before they're gone. In hindsight, wouldn't it be better just to eat the marshmallows by themselves? But somehow the thought isn't as appealing.

A good day❄️ #tgcf #omori

Merry Christmas☃️

I hope everyone has a nice holiday. 🎉 It's supposed to be jolly this time of year, but I just feel tired. Maybe it's a sign of adulthood?

When I was young, more than writing stories about people, I liked writing about creatures like cats and squirrels. I guess I'm pretty predictable. I found it so late, but this game is really pretty, and I especially like how it balances action with gentle moments. #okami

I'm teaching myself, slowly, with a YouTube playlist. I'm trying my best. Hopefully my handwriting isn't bad. I didn't expect to try it for long, but I keep getting really happy when I get something right, and I don't want to stop. it's nice to learn in a free and independent manner🌱