Normally around this time of year I disappear. Its a very rough month for me along with November.. so many pets have passed this time of year it makes me ache. I miss Lil'Smokey and I've have people I care about loose cats lately or sadly getting ready to say goodbye. In a blink they can be gone..

Tis freaking 17°f out -8°c and I'm out waiting for roomie to get done helping the adopted daughter with a chore.. (she 3 months with child so no heavy lifting or anything) then I need to try and get gravy mix at the store. I'm on fumes but doing my best..

Winterwonderland... yeah....

So after nearly hitting 12 midnight my household managed to finally eat Thanksgiving dinner.. roomie and me co cooked but frankly roomie managed it all. I just flung the corn and greenbean casseroles together. My mom demands more corn casserole now on so k added to the list. We did have a cat

Happy TurkeyDay everyone please be drama free and kind to one another. May you spend it in peace with love ones and good friends. Much love to everyone!

So this is out my front door... not fun nor am I leaving my house tomorrow! Folks will be in ditches it always happens so yeah..suppose to get 9 inches we shall see...

Out to grab a last min items for Thanksgiving on thrusday dinner. I wanted to make corn casserole so a very dear friend help me out so I can grab what's needed. Waiting on mom and roomie to get back before I go in to deal with shopping.. I honestly hate being out around this time of year.. bleh

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Trying to rest and I keep feeling like Im falling.. upper hip pain at a dull numb after meds but this is weird I cant rest it seems and the falling feeling kinda new.. not sure what to think..

Today I think sadly is a day of rest.. Last bit I've been hurting in my midback hip area feels like the bone is bruised or something crazy like that. I took a muscle relaxer which I hold off on doing so until it cant be helped. This med can and will knock me out so zero gets done. I just want

I got Smokey's ashes back it hurts still and feels like its been forever yet I know it hasn't been.. *sighs*

Woke up from a nap, Roomie asked if I wanted any food for dinner. I figured a sandwich might be safe to eat. I manged to eat 1 1/2 sandwiches for dinner. I pray I dont regret that choice frankly.. trying to get adjusted for night meds and sleep. Friday the 13th playing most of the series so will

The hunt for mechanical pencils continues! Art is my release from stress for many years. Pencils are very dear to me, I've misplaced theses ones. They're from some of my fave animes sailormoon and pokemon.. I'd love to locate them to get again..cause I'm not sure if i can find mine. Silly I know

Trying to keep my mind off things.. I shift to ooh look i managed to find one of my fave drawing pencils.. then also realize several others have been misplaced *sighs* my ocd went into overdrive.. but behold my hello kitty foodie pencil i think the charm alittle octopus sausage.. I adore pencils

I want to say thank you again to the kindness words everyone said over Smokey passing.. it hurts alot I'm doing my best.. Sadly either I caught a cold or something up.. I wasn't able to hold food down. Everyone else is okay so gonna lay low awhile. So if I'm silent is why. Thank you all..

Feeling like hell Im in that question what happened stage and I hate it... everyone been fed but humans no will to move or much of else.. dogs are velcro to me.. gonna force roomie to play resident evil 2 for maybe zoning.. or I dont know.. dont mind me I'm rambling..

"My heart has joined the thousands for my friend has stopped running today.." Today I say goodbye to my beloved Lil'Smokey Joe. His kidneys totally shit down his body was going. My vet who knows I will give up everything for my cats it was for the best. His blood work was off the charts.. I am

We are in need of 180 more to make the 300 price to get Smokey seen tomorrow. Im praying it will be enough and I wont need 500 or so.. if you can donate or spread the word help me get him seen. www.paypal.com/paypalme/big...

Smokey hanging in there still we got him as comfy as we can. We got 50 out of the 300 to at least get him seen. I'm praying to hopefully get the rest. Though depending this could very well go higher..

Let's try again if you can donate to help me get Smokey to the Vet on Monday id be grateful 🙏 www.paypal.com/paypalme/big...

Smokey isn't doing well, he not wanting to eat and acting if he may have a uti again. I'm asking for help to get him to the vet on Monday hopefully. To donate please 🙏 paypal.com/paypalme/bigba… I am unable to get to a ER vet as I cant drive in the cities. Anxiety hits me

So got up did my morning routine (yes its 5:45pm) anyways im worried about one of my boys Jiji. his nose is pale and his eyes do look a bit more sunk in. Slight discharge from his nose aswell and he coughed as I pet him. I am 2-3 weeks out from funds again. I just dont know what I should do. Ideas?

Not q00% sure but may of gotten a tummy bug while at the doctors.. or something my gut hurts and #2 is very watery.. sorry tmi but Im down for this week for sure.. got the chills aswell which is unusual for me.. I dont want to go back to be seen though.. hate hospitals..

So to my surprise and roomies who pointed out I got to see the northern lights tonight.. faint pinks and greens in the sky with stars... it was breathtaking I've never seen them before.. wish I was further north. I could of seen them better! Also doctor was very happy how things are going for me

Well got my driver id reissued 2 to 3 weeks yay... but I can drive with less stress now. Im waiting for my appointment to do blood this afternoon cause last night I had a major panic attack over well everything. 🙃 life just being bleh..

NOOOOOOO I SEE WHITE STUFF FALLING FROM THE SKY!! damnit did a crack plane go boom cause noo nooooo its not the s-word.. I refuse to see it... I dont see it... make it stop...

Anyone else got a velcro kitty? Mine became it seems Spyro Jr.. he will launch himself upon me from feels away demanding i love his furbutt or else.. he such a goofball.. I'm about to fall over due to a long day and pain.. I may take one of the relaxers I have to rest better..

After a very long day of dealing with the hunt for cat food, human food and common sense.. I got pulled over cause I didnt see a cop by mistake.. I got a warning but I also got a shocker my driver id went walkabout.. so I get visit tje dmv Monday *sighs* I had a huge panicattack over this.. 🙃

Okay my fellow artists what is the best white gel pen!? I need something that gonna work over markers, color pencil and so on.. I have had gellyroll but it refuses to even allow ink to flow which when doing art is a bad thing!

So today I broke down crying over the stress of everything.. I am gonna try to take several days off the net to just collect myself.. its overwhelming, scary, depressing and frustrating.. I've had to fight my body from stress vomiting.. scare the nightmares will start again.. just uurrghhh..

Waking up a bit too early.. yet to my dismay to a ad for Xmas gifts.. it just November for god sake... alot of us are not sure we'll have reverse halloween (turkey day/thanksgive/friendsgiving) and now we get showed you can get the perfect gifts at this store.. why do all the women get purses and

After such a long and expensive kitten season, we are a little depleted and looking at a massive bill to get these kittens home to the little girls that love them so much. Times are so hard right now and we know everyone needs additional help, but if you can, please donate at linktr.ee/crits4cats

Well tonight I ate homemade tacos.. I feel good after eating them. Which is good cause dang it there little food I enjoy anymore. Roomie added rice to the beef and seasonings it honestly was way filling and good almost like a hamburger helper. I got a taco for lunch tomorrow so win win.

Hope folks are well or similar well. I'm kinda falling apart back decided let's stay broken. So I'm icing it right now, roomie made a funny over my art demands blood as I gracefully cut my finger on a drawing pad.. I clean the cut and got it fixed up I bleed art for art!! Hmm there a idea...plots..

A movie you've seen more than seven times with a gif.

I went to sleep with a fire place on my tv.. the crackling fire was peaceful.. I wake up to fireplace with Xmas music playing.. must not break tv... its just way to early to think of xmas.. which I just pray to have food for the household and furkids... maybe acrylic markers.. breyer horses..im bad.

I wanted to thank thoses who have help me lately. There food for the household, animals and humans got foods. Bills have been handled for the month.. for now gonna try to relax next week I'll be taking it easy and the following week I see my doctor on my meds. Pray its not raised.. I hardly eat

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Ooh yeah its daylight savings time.. I feel like its later then the time says.. why do we do this.. also good morning I'm awake now.. let's see how long I am til moly body goes f u time to hurt.. that will depend on what im gonna be up to today frankly.. furkids are doing well mom got her TV so 😸

Thanks to help from some wonderful people i got food for us humans and animals.. we hopefully can scoot by til next week or so for litter. If anyone wants to help donate for that it be very helpful. Im gonna take tomorrow off my back was tweaked so moving very painful right now will be using cane.

I am sorry to ask for help still my main goal is just to feed my family and pets.. with my meds I barely eat frankly. Sandwiches are mainly what I live off of. I will be working on art to hopefully sell originals. I have other things im dealing with aswell mainly medical for me. Thank you 🙏

So after paying all the bills for the month.. Im left with nothing to get pet food or even human food. I cant even make things work til I would of gotten ebt cause ha no ebt.. I feel ashamed to ask for help.. We used what I had to cover the household. www.paypal.com/paypalme/big...

The original has found a Lovely home thank you so much everyone. I am in tears from this..

So, awhile back, I posted the sketch of this image. I had no idea if I'd ever finish this. Well with recent events with alot of folks losing food with ebt being taken away (my family is in this group of folks) I took the leap. I just sat looking at this image going what do I do.. at first I

So question if I can manage to make art would folks be willing to buy it? With Ebt being taken away I'll be in need of help feeding my family. I want to do something and not just keep going help my struggling family cause life went nuts.. :/ ideas? Thoughts?

Just a sketch I did.. I am trying my best to draw again.. no reason just doodles for i guess fun..

Trying to sleep body won't let me.. I'll spare the details but me and food are having a bit of a spat again.. the looming feeling of losing said food is high.. Sadly my mom dementia has decided to flare more.. >.< she just open my door to ask if we can go to walfart.. the hell mom its 5am... she

Woke up rather late today managed to just seemily be in and out of the restroom.. im not sure why im feeling bleh.. the cats all came to check in me while my dogs just hang when Im in my bedroom.. gonna try to eat something kinda bland tonight.. or this morning or what night for me.. I dont know..

They released DEMONS!!! OMG WHAT HAVE THEY DONE...

Trying to sleep when my brain plays a trigger for no reason of my stepdad.. anyone else ever get slapped for saying whatever? He threaten my life if I ever said that to him again and how disrespectful of a bitch I was for using it all cause his friend said his daughter say it and it was meaning F U