decided that I deserve a nice breakfast

I’m not suicidal! I just want to die.

saw some fucked up shit today and then got mad! but not at the shit I saw but at myself. wanna know why? not because I didn’t do anything or whatever, but because I was totally numb. completely disconnected from myself and how I feel. hope this system protects me and doesn’t do more damage. fuck

ID KILL FOR LOVE

в последнее время желание взаимодействовать с людьми пропало совсем. они то и дело несут какую-нибудь лютую людоедскую хрень и даже не задумываются, а я расстраиваюсь. но сейчас на кофе-брейке захотелось перестать их слышать совсем! просто перестать слышать тоже ниче так опция

Батарейка перенесла первый день iOS 26 не очень. Снял с зарядки перед сном, за ночь ушло 5%, к 6 вечера разрядился до 40%, при условии, что я пользовался им три часа 😵‍💫 Включил Adaptive Power посмотреть, что за зверь такой.

не знаю, как у вас дела, а ко мне вот вместе с хорошей погодой наведался старый добрый когнитивный разрыв реальности между приятностями и персональным адом внутри. всё наощупь

понял, что не разрешаю себе испытывать радость. причины достаточно банальны и понятны, скорее интересно, как этот механизм устроен, потому что это не работает так, что я каждый раз себя останавливаю. подумал, что если удастся разблокировать этот паттерн, то это поможет с другими ограничениями.

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Darkness casted when standing in The Light destiny is a siamese force the impending doom birth of Venus but Born This Way Judas style cause I’m a bad kid forever ✟

I got a tattoo for us 15 years ago 🦄 Thinking of putting the MAYHEM stamp on my body. Any ideas, you guys, have?

Gaga’s acoustic performances this era are rocking me to the bone! #MAYHEM youtu.be/Rv_KOAd7_Rs?...

Glad to be alive another day where I can listen to Mayhem

Holding this in print and reading it brought a tear to my eye 🐾🖤 #MAYHEM #Monster4Life

turn on the music turn off the lights #MAYHEM ladygaga.lnk.to/MAYHEM

This is your daily reminder that Lady Gaga is just genius! Her music is always filled with characters. But the way this intro is an alarm! The yawning, inhales, exhales are the sounds of her clone waking up to give us Hell! 🖤 #MAYHEM

I will forever love this woman! We have to look after each other and keep on going. Giving up is too easy and this is exactly what they want. Love trumps hate! Thank you, Lady Gaga!

I’LL BURN A HOLE RIGHT THROUGH YOUR EYES LOOKIN AT YOU LIKE A ZOMBIE KILLAH #MAYHEM ladygaga.lnk.to/MAYHEM

SHOW ME YOUR PRETTY I’LL SHOW YOU MINE #MAYHEM ladygaga.lnk.to/MAYHEM

LADY GAGA IS A ROCKSTAR! ❤️‍🔥🤯🐾 youtu.be/vjbInjYp2ew?...

WOW!

You guys are not ready to discuss the DEPTH of the dark poetry on #MAYHEM It’s actually the new side of Gaga we have never faced before Make art coming from the place of happiness cool, because she’s living and you can tell! MASTERPIECE!

STREAM #MAYHEM ladygaga.lnk.to/MAYHEM

Also, my heart is so happy seeing all the Little Monsters getting their records, autographs and merch! You guys + Gaga being happy is such a gift to the world we are living in!

My only issue with #MAYHEM is that it’s THAT GREAT OF A RECORD! We have had months to dissect Disease and Abracadabra, to get all of the hidden things here and there. And now it’s ALL OURS. FACE TO FACE. A love letter in a shape of a bullet going straight to your heart 🐾🖤

I need “I’ve become a notorious being, find my clone she’s asleep on the ceiling” tattooed on my brain The way she sings those lyrics — CHILLS

#MAYEHM is CATHARTIC

The Vault is opening TONIGHT #MAYHEM

#MAYHEM in 13 days

Show me a painting that makes you feel something — This paining of the Dog that Francisco de Goya painted on the wall of his house is a visual poem to me.

All that #MAYHEM is so captivating: three stunning singles, the snippets, music videos, the fashion, appearances, live performances, tour, Rio, Coachella anticipation, magazines, interviews, tiktoks. But the thing I enjoy the most is seeing Gaga happy! 🖤

Being back on Music feels so good! Say all you want about the design, I’m here for the music quality! Spotify can’t stand the fight! And let’s appreciate those reversed vocals on the back in the bridge of #DISEASE

Are we a result of the #MAYHEM that surrounds us, or was the chaos inside me all along

#MAYHEM CAME FOR BLOOD

THIS IS HOW POP MUSIC IS DONE DANCE OR DIE #MAYHEM

On Jan 29, Ukraine identified a Russian soldier accused of organizing the forced deportation of a resident from the Kharkiv region to Russia, where she was held captive, assaulted, and abused for over a year. 🧵 1/6

Lady Gaga knows what will be an iconic photo and how to make great broccoli! #MAYHEM

“Your demons are with you in the beginning and they are with you in the end, and I don’t mean it in a bleak way. Maybe we can make friends sooner with this reality instead of running all the time.”

LADY GAGA #MAYHEM 38 DAYS #LG7

What a perfect album title for the Times Square announcement! The album logo looks like bat wings, the A is upside down, the last M incorporates the Chromatica logo (what we know, never ends) WE ARE LIVING! 1 HOUR till miss GodGa speaks! #MAYHEM #LG7

Love my Little Devil GodG∀ 👹

I have a whole damn watchlist to examine, yet I will be watching The Elephant Man — a masterpiece by Lynch tonight. I need a little hope. We all do, I believe. If you haven’t seen the movie or unfamiliar with David Lynch work — it’s a great entry ticket.

JAZZGA! My love! #Harlequin! What an unexpected gift for the true fans and music lovers! So short but so eventful era! Gaga’s versions of Close To You, Smile and World On A String are for life! 🛟 #LG6.5

Seven years ago today, Lady Gaga released the music video to her song ‘Joanne’ 🩷 youtu.be/8ll04Zzw5UM?...

#Chromatica not only carried us through the pandemic, it also taught us how to heal through dance music and once again proved Gaga to be a human in the industry. What a journey! Wallpaper by talented @antonique.bsky.social. Follow and like, you know! Stream #LG6 and dance! ⚔️🖤

BITCH I KNOW

So what if Gaga releases the Harlequin show that was recorded in LA on Sunday? 👀 #Harlequin #LG6.5

I want Perfect Illusion music video to be projected on my gravestone 24/7, because it’s Gaga’s best lead single! It’s 2am and I hope my neighbors love it! #LG5 #Joanne

Love of my life

Me today #LG5