I'm drawing what I'm not used to and failing and falling in the phase of "I can't do this, I'm bad at everything, this world has no meaning, leave me alone"🫠 I'll do it anyway though, finding out the plan itself is wrong is always sad. I'm not sure if I can do commission with this instability.

Tired city

A very cozy winter commission for @taggzzz.rocks and @tibsthicktail.bsky.social! ☕❄️

Bit of a painting study based on Rembrandt's "Judith at the Banquet of Holofernes." Though the subject is now a big bear man, and the banquet is thankfully ending with belly rubs!

Sometimes Podcasts are seen as an old guys thingie but, aside from what is talked or what the media is, I feel "Talk focused talk" itself is very good contents on Internet. We don't have opportunity to do that lots, even often don't have skills to develop talks. That can be very inspiring too. 🤔

Even when I have friends to talk to on DM, still I sometimes feel more comfortable to spit out complicated thoughts or feelings on social media. Maybe I'm scared if it's failed when I talk to a certain person. I don't like the moment when I find I can't be understood or, just offend others' mood.

Rise and shine, big guy!

Indecisiveness, stinginess, greediness are bad traits combination to draw for me personally🫠

I really don't want this vacation to end

Mfw the Korean bbq comes to the table #FursuitFriday

I was at my parents house, on the way back home I stopped by Akihabara

I wanna spend Dec 31st and Jan 1st at a cozy party once. Cheerful warm fuzzy time with friends. My Jan 1st is always not cheerful🤔 Btw, My resolution is slapping the face of 2026 with curry and let’em know who’s the boss here

Happy new year from UTC +9🎉

Hi it's a sappy lion again! 2025 was, not much eventful as I expected but I guess I was on the way of slow change. Even just keep thinking and hoping can change my mind. Now I'm feeling good to end this year, and can expect more in 2026 thanks to friends. So wish you guys have a good new year too😌

One more fact, in Japan, there is a custom to rang a bell at temples at 12 A.M. of the first day of the year. So I'll hear the bell sound soon😌 And People eats "Toshikoshi Soba / Cross over the years Soba" at 12 A.M. traditionally. I won't though🙃

There is a greeting Japanese say at the end of the year, "良いお年を / Yoi Otoshi wo" It tends to be said when we part the way so, it's used like "see you". It can have several meanings like "Wish you spend the good rest of the year" or "Wish you are prepared and will have the good next year".

Education Connection Mii animation !!! HEHEHE

Actually the problem of that render style is that kinda looks like AI🤔 I've been told my art looks like AI once. Stylization is my week point, I need experiences more.😑

Doing those half baked art posts are, kinda for self affirmation but, I guess I wanna release those things to proceed my things rather than clinging to pasts. Maybe the mood of the ending of the year made me do this. Deep cleaning.

A clip of one of the old paintings I've never finished, because I found the pose and the composition uncomfortable, but I still love this rendering of his thigh and belly, I wanna get back to painty style more now. ...I feel it's a borderline wholesome painting, but put a filter on it in case...

Okay well, maybe all those cookies *did* have a lasting effect after all.... Thank you @cariboops.bsky.social for the very cute follow-up gift <3

A piece I promised long long ago for @brunobeaw.bsky.social, I actually did this lines long long ago, and finished today. I think I added effects too much 🤔 I haven't thought making this watery until right before the end. Somehow it looks more solid when I look up this from the left-bottom🙂

Oh Merry Christmas everyone 🎅🥳

When I'm feeling worst, music, story, arts work well because I can project myself to those. Even if those didn't intend that use, I can get some answers from them, from myself that they reflect as a mirror. And those things never betray, we even don't need to trust music itself.

Cari could always use some more encouragement from the chat on being a Biggerboops. A gift for @cariboops.bsky.social for gainsgiving :3 Woah....Groah...

oh and this one, high angle practice

I occupied TL a bit so, I'd share old line practices a bit for compensation. Both are the same character. It contains nude for practice purpose, didn't intend sexual exposure though.

I'm curious of where my perfectionism comes from🤔 I know perfection doesn't exist anywhere but still push too much always. But I feel the output is not good enough.

I have delivered the badger.... Hes so cute!

Been playing through Time Strangers with Cariboops and Shaz. Collecting Digidads, Going on adventures, and jumping through the good and bad times over the years. So for my birthday Cari made this for me, and I'm glad to have such a good digicrew beside me! 🎨: @cariboops.bsky.social

🥺 Right before I had to go to sleep I got gifted this amazing art. I love the.. we shall call it the Pawlian Shield hehe. 😁😁 🎨 By the wonderful @cariboops.bsky.social

I got a birthday gift from sweet Cari!!! It's referring to the moments when we played Minecraft! This me looks so chill and big...! Literally more than I think by my own! If current me in people's heads look like this, I'm very happy🥹 It means lots for accepting myself😌 🎨 @cariboops.bsky.social

A bit feeling dizzy but it's ma birthday in ma time zone🫠🍰

Who is the guy getting late for 3 hours at the last day at the current project? It's me🫠

Okay, now it's curry day, I'm waiting for the delivery😌

Thinking current self as "pending" and thinking it'll be kneaded into decent me someday, those are the extreme ways to ignore myself I feel. That makes me feel "it's not me" when people says something good for me. (I'm appreciating and usually I can accept as it is!)

Happy thanksgiving, it's not celebrated here but, I need the cozy chill holiday mood so, I imagine everyone having chill time each. Even if you are watching the internet alone after the late night job and feel like beaten harshly dragging the tired bone and flesh, wish you have some peace there. 😌

I surprisingly haven't slept much this week, like, maybe around 10-15 hours total, it's Thursday morning though🤔 not sure how this functions

I’m very sleepy so not sure I texted right

I wanna live as furry as possible but, in the end not sure what is the happy life as furry🤔 Doing arts? Going to cons? Communication? Horny thingie? If there's the country for furry, what should the king or the government do?🤔

When I try to be positive and proceed finally, always something discouraging happens. I think this happens because I expect nothing bad happens while I'm doing righteous thing. So it's natural, just have to get used to already and deal with them.

Also my parent keeps sending me salty things and what I don't like and things totally expired, I think they hate me🫠

My blood pressure got deadly high again so, I'll pace down curry intake and back to sodium less life🫠 The road to be sentient curry is not easy🫠

I wanna be a curry furry artist but now I only can see the future I'll be just a curry. I should take time to be furry more.

But if that's the power of art, I hope my arts will work like that for them

I tend to mumble those "thought" things irresponsibly, from Twitter era. But as an aspirant furry curry master and hopefully artist, I should be careful of my own whimsical dreamy opinions exposure🧐

I've heard of several closet furry stories. At least for my generation, my age, In Japan furry artists and fursuiter were kinda separated cultures. So, I kinda can understand there are people who loves furry arts secretly but says "I'm not furry". It's totally valid. 😌

Okay, curry time 🤪

btw I thought my curry character was cunningly made for introducing Japan but, nowadays I'm just trying to do reverse engineering of curry🫠

Starting experiments made me aware of that even tasting something should be learned intentionally. Without that I can’t notice slight flavors in dishes. And I found I don’t know how the taste is earned even about things I’ve usually eaten. Like, I can’t imagine how Tonkotsu soup is constructed 🧐