The world would be a lot quieter if we listened first instead of reacting instantly. There would still be fights and misunderstandings, but there would be fewer of them. Listen first. React less.

Stream hiatus announcement

For the foreseeable future I will be entirely unresponsive on weekends. For those unaware, Saturdays and Sundays are my busiest work days of the week and all my time will be put into my job. You may still message me, but do not expect a response.

I would like to not be treated as a threat when I go somewhere new as a favor. I understand: man that doesn't look friendly, yada yada, but all I was doing was delivering glasses. Security was understanding at least.

I wouldn't consider myself to be a physically strong guy, but today I learned that when frustrated enough I can gather enough strength to tear off the front of a speaker that is still screwed together. Not the grill, the entire front. . . So how's your day been?

This year's music was a little weird, I decided at the beginning of 2025 to curate my following list and well. . . I ended up listening to a lot of artists (I went alphabetically and am currently in the M's). I had no idea how this wrapped would end up.

Y'all be staring at me quite a bit. . . Thanks for spending your non-refundable time with me! I'm just a little guy being goofy on the interwebs and y'all keep on coming back. Thank you all so much.

Its okay to be scared sometimes. Its not okay to live in fear forever.

"Hey Kevin! Why do you tell people you're proud of them?" Well you see, its what I always wanted to hear from someone who meant it. Just because I didn't hear it much doesn't mean I should deprive anyone of that feeling. So go out. Do good. Make me proud.

"To use this subscription we need complete access to the following: 1) Full Legal Name 2) Email Address 3) Phone Number 4) Banking Details 5) SSN Thank you for your details! You can now access this program once a year for 15 minutes! Have a great day!" I'm tired man. . .

I regularly check profiles that follow me, just like many on this platform. If you follow and I see you demanding a follow back or any equivalent, Imma block and move on with my day. Numbers are important, but they aren't everything.

I am blessed to not only be in the positions I am, but to have amazing friends and a wonderful community. I am incredibly thankful for all of you. Have yourselves an amazing Thanksgiving/Thursday.

My calves are screaming at me today. I may of overdone it at work the past couple of days. . .

Today I discovered that my fear of heights does not have the stranglehold it used to have on me. . . That or I got very used to riding a shaky lift all day. Regardless, glad to know its only mildly uncomfortable now instead of "I wish to perish" levels of anxiety.

My days have always run together. Yesterday morning was 3 days ago, the work meetings were 2 days ago, I had dinner with my family last night. Each event is a separate day in my mind, regardless what the clock says. Its always been this way, but its really wearing me down now.

I think its time. I will be disappearing from spaces that are exclusively DBD content. I don't hate the people, but the environment has become a nightmare. I'll still support the homies, but I need significant time away from the game and drama.

I need to work on my anxiety. Been dreading a meeting with HR for the past week. . . And it turns into an appreciation-fest with an actual promotion to full time (for the time being) and a raise. Here I am expecting worst case scenario. . . I need help y'all.

This is sad. . . And no, this isn't about the viewer/lurker thing. Its sad cause I haven't been able to be around as often as I'd like. I've only been live 4 times this month. Life and work are getting in the way right now, but I'm still here trying.

This is back on. Since I had that ER visit, I had to pay for my own medication. I only got an inhaler out of it. No nausea or coughing meds. And I just- got sick again. My appointment is Thursday. Hoping to get Dramamine and peppermint candy. I’ll turn this off on Friday.

Call me old school, but I miss physically going to a meeting space and having face to face conversations instead of using an online equivalent. I understand the appeal and how easy it is, but I also like being able to fully disconnect afterwards. Does this make sense?

I have never been the better person. I want to become a better person. I need to become a better person. I will become a better person. Small steps today. Large leaps tomorrow. Change doesn't happen in a day, but change must happen.

I redownloaded a clock app for the first time since early August today. If I've missed any videos/messages I sincerely apologize, I wasn't intentionally ignoring you. I have been trying to keep the rest of my life together. You know how it is.

I'm tired.

Today is Veteran's Day, a day honoring veterans (and I am including active duty) in the US. Thank you for serving whether you wanted to or had to. Thank you to the families of veterans as well, because you too deal with hardships that come with service.

A dumb sketch!✏️ Got to play Backseat Drivers with @geronimokiddo.bsky.social, @zombiepandemic.bsky.social & @spookycatkevin.bsky.social. I haven't laughed that hard in quite a while. That's a stream I won't forget!😂

I need to go on a caffeine cleanse or something. Energy drinks are doing nothing again and I'm almost more exhausted than if I didnt drink them at all.

Its kind of funny, I have to make sure I don't call my fellow techs at work "chat". I find myself about to slip so much these days.

Hey! Are you tired of Hype Trains starting randomly instead of meeting a certain threshold? Well don't you worry, there's a funny little setting you can turn off for that! All you need to do is go to your Creator Dashboard, then Monetization>Community>Hype Train!

"Oh no, Kevin's here." Something I regularly hear at work. I don't believe its because I'm disliked, its because when I make an appearance something has gone terribly wrong. The statement isn't malicious in intent, but it does feel rough.

I understand the well intentions of "My DMs are open if you ever need to talk", but I will never take you up on your offer. The times I have opened up, I lost everything. So my burdens are my own, I will not bring friends or family into them. I have lost that trust in people.

I have 4 planned collabs that I will honor, but after they are finished I will be saying no more often or be selective due to time and expected workload at my job. I will be streaming less frequently, and I apologize for that. I have to get through this season.

I'd be lying if I said the view count debacle happening wasn't bothering me. I know a lot of people have moved on, but its still something I worry about. It could be that I'm not putting forth the effort needed, but I am trying my best. For now, we'll keep marching forward.

I got a "promotion" at work. . . Since 1. . . 2. . . 5 higher-ups are leaving within a month of each other, right before the holiday season. Pray for me, I am not prepared for this.

"Can we talk?" Sent a response, no answer. I guess I didnt need sleep tonight. Anxiety is through the roof right now.

Is it just me or does everyone wake up unable to speak due to pain? Either that or I have to push twice as hard to vocalize. Usually passes between 10-30 minutes after waking up, but never asked anyone about it. (I'm not talking sore throats, it is from speaking alone.)

Don't mind me, I woke up today and I'm going to make it everyone's problem

As I get older, I realize that I don't burn bridges. I neglect them. Instead of reaching out and cherishing friendships, I tend to let them rot in a sea of uncertainty. So I would like to apologize to both friends new and old. It's something I need to work on.

This is a test. I repeat, this is a test. There is nothing else here, only a test. There is no hidden meaning, there are no secrets. It is simply a test. Even if it wasn't a test, and I did hide something here, you wouldn't be able to figure it out. Because this is a test.

I may not have a massive following or be incredibly popular, but I am blessed to know some of the coolest people. That's a win and no one can change my mind on this.

I'm a well prepared individual. I totally am not buying a game I'm collabing on in a half hour before we go live. You can't prove it.

I would greatly appreciate it if companies I no longer have business with stopped contacting me via phone/text/email/post/door to door/drone. It's getting to stalker levels at this point.

I am a mess. I feel lost. Everything I do is falling apart. But in the end, it all turns out alright. There will always be consequences and bad endings, but good does come out of every experience. Let's be a mess today.

Y'all. . . Do y'all hate me that much?

Saddle up cowboy, I dropped a couple of energy drinks in the parking lot at the store and they punctured. Momma didn't raise me to waste, so Imma be up for a hot minute.

Y'all can have your viewers back, they were stinky and got me sick anyways.

Is it odd that I have zero FOMO from Twitchcon this year? Don't get me wrong, I miss my friends and would love to hang out with the community in person, but I'm kind of content not being there.

I was "singing" Aerials by System of a Down in the shower earlier today and it really made me want to record again. I know the shower made me sound 10 times better, but the desire to try is there. I desperately need vocal lessons.

There are many people traveling for Twitchcon right now, so it is finally time to reveal the real reason I am not attending this year: TO STEAL ALL YOUR VIEWERS! THEY HAVE NOWHERE TO GO FOR A FEW DAYS SO I SHALL BE THEIR ENTERTAINMENT! THE PLAN IS FULL PROOF!

Guess who got sick. . . Still gonna make this week a great one.

I'm going to make this week a good week. I get to play some games with close friends. I got a decent paycheck and I can finally start looking for artists again. I fixed something on my PC that's been bothering me for months now. This week will be great.