Apologies for the lack of streams lately, unfortunately that will continue this week. I will be pet sitting and one of the cats gets lonely easy so I'll be spending time around them. The hope is to stream on Friday, but I'm taking each day one at a time right now.

My line of work is thankless. The only time I am noticed is when something goes wrong. The standard is perfection and anything less is not tolerated. Yet I was seen and appreciated by a regular outside of my field of work. They recognized the quality increase since I took over.

This is truly a first world problem, but I'm finding it harder and harder to press "Go Live". This is the busiest I have ever been with work and life. I am exhausted by the end of the day. I look forward to the times I have energy to stream, but they are becoming infrequent. . .

💜A very important lesson! The Difference in DBD. I love playing with my besties @sam2theslaughter.bsky.social and @spookycatkevin.bsky.social. But lawd, I wish I was better at this game! #vtuberclips #envtuber #deadbydaylight

I can choose to complain, I can dwell on the things I am troubled by, but I'm choosing to stay positive today. My day/week/month/year may not get better, but I know it can't unless I try. So today I'll appreciate the good things. I hope you can do the same.

We are having a Spilling the Tea episode with @spookycatkevin.bsky.social July 9th, 8:00 PM CT, hope to see you there!

Deleted the post from yesterday as I believe I did not explain what I wanted clearly, so I will be blunt: I am anti Gen AI and do not support the stealing of artist's work to create something soulless or the environmental impact due to AI data centers. I apologize.

I don't like evaluation forms when I'm the subject. . . "What are your personal development goals?" Brother I just want to do my job well. Tell me what needs to get done and I will work on it tirelessly until its complete. I don't have goals, I just want everything to work.

The itch to do something incredibly stupid is strong with this one. . . Holding him back is an option, but why would you want to do that? Let him run wild. Do all the stupid things. Just be sure to bail him out of jail when the consequences catch up. Thank you and have a day.

Stream is cancelled for now. . . I WILL DO A STREAM LIKE THIS IN THE FUTURE. . . Just didn't realize Windows was telling the truth for once when it said it could take hours. Sorry y'all.

I may of underestimated how long the process would take. I'll keep y'all posted. . .

Ever wonder how streamers set up programs like OBS as well as plug-ins? 🤔 Well you're in luck, because I'm going to be reinstalling Windows on my PC tonight and rebuilding my OBS from essentially scratch live for anyone to check out. Planning on a start time of 5PM PDT/8PM EDT.

A little out of left field, but a thought I had: I hope no one turns me into their god. Let me explain. I love inspiring others to create, be good people, do something worth value. I do not want to be idolized. I will do wrong. I could never, and have no desire to be your god.

About to pass out at work. I think everything has finally caught up to me. Imma just lie on the floor for a minute to see if I can stand without shaking.

So...this sucks. TL;DR roof needs fixed, donothon likely inbound because i need help. i think most people in my community know by now that our roof has several holes in it, and the living room and garage leak every time it rains. We had it tarped a few months ago,

I was recognized on DBD solely by a 3 letter word I use in end game chat. . . My name didn't tip them off, my play style, or my survivor build. Just "Mow". If you would've told me that people would recognize me by my word choice before my voice, I wouldn't of believed you. . .

I guess you could call me an influencer or something. I will not be using this power for good.

I had an opportunity to play the Cajon last night, and I took it. I'm rusty and made plenty of mistakes, but a great experience and reminded me of something I once enjoyed: playing music with community. That was the first time I played in 7 years. . . I will remember this fondly.

Last night, I did something I should've done forever ago: I turned my viewer count off. And people noticed. They may not be able to tell what was different, but they could sense a change and the stream was better for it. Curiosity was getting to me, but it was a healthy choice.

I went to work on a day off to fix a program issue that started Monday. Zero progress has been made and the stress is building. Does not help that we're running everything off a Mac and its not my strong suit. Might be a long night because I need it working by this weekend. 🙂

Impromptu Hunt games with SpookyCatKevin tonight! 7:00pm Eastern

I was the reason someone cried today. . .

One small thing that makes my day is when I'm the reason someone laughs. Not a giggle or quick exhale, but a deep, hearty laugh. Where saying "I can't breathe" is impossible. If I can do that, the rest of my day was worth it. It doesn't happen often, but its a joy when it does.

I might have to reconsider my time as a streamer. It could just be this season, but I'm genuinely exhausted. I wish to do more, but with every responsibility I have. . . I'll rest tonight as best as I can, reassess how I feel tomorrow. I don't want it to end, not like this.

Gonna be transparent with y'all: I have an evaluation at work this next week and I'm anxious about it. I have never heard anything negative about what I do, but that does not stop my mind going from 0 to 100. I've been stressing for weeks and its really getting to me tonight.

Y'all. . . She's been glaring at me for a few minutes. . .

I think its time to reinstall Windows. . . Things are slowly breaking program-wise and it'll only get worse with time. I have to keep this PC running until I can afford upgrades or a decent pre-built. Wish me luck cause I'm just going to overhaul and start from a clean slate.

One day I'll believe that I am enough, that I am allowed to live without having to earn that right. Until then, I shall continue to work on what I can and be a better person.

A good friend, @jamesesjams.bsky.social passed away yesterday. He was an incredible person, and leaves behind a legacy of love and friendship that reached so many people. A gofundme has been set up on his family's behalf, if anyone wishes to help cover expenses. gofund.me/0c348dd69

I am but a simple worker. I thrive on menial, routine tasks and can get my work done quick with little error. So can someone explain to me why I find myself in positions of leadership where I do complicated engineering well above my capacity? I promise you I'm not all that.

I want to try something for future streams. Every swear I say would be $1. End of stream, I would donate the final amount to the person I'm raiding or a charity of my choice. The exception: swears I read from chat or game I'm playing. I'd need chat to keep me honest. Y'all in?

Started a musical journey in January of 2024 where I went through my followed artists (because I don't "like" songs), and today marks the end. I went from following ~2000 to 856. Listened to at least 3 songs per artist. Just might restart because my music taste is ever changing.

It is not a happy day. It is Memorial Day here in the US. Regardless of political beliefs, today is a day we honor those that have served our country and paid the ultimate price. Remember them, their acts, and the reason you can celebrate this day.

Since everyone has been asking but no one has tested the theory and shown results before: I can definitively say that eating two and a half pounds of potato salad on an empty stomach is not a good idea. Now if you'll excuse me, I will be on the floor, regretting my life choices.

To all the new folks: Hi, Howdy, Hello! My name is SpookyCatKevin and I'm a simple cat PNGtuber that is in no way a lovecraftian monster. 😉 I'm a Twitch Partner and I stream horror, puzzle, cozy, . . . Variety games! Its a pleasure to meet you all.

Popped into chat in a friend's collab stream: Friend: HI KEVIN Person they're collabing with: Hi Kevin 👋 Also Collaber: Is that "insert famous person"? Friend: No, but Kevin's cool 😁 Collaber, dripping in disappointment: oh Fastest unfollow I've ever hit on the collaber.

I need a healthier relationship with my phone, so I turned off most notifications from social media apps. Less notifications, the less I'll be switching between apps and time spent on this device. That's the hope at least, now let's see if I have the will to maintain it.

Here's hoping that tomorrow is a better day, cause I would not like to relive today.

I've uninstalled TikTok from my phone. I spend literal hours, daily to the app and something has to change. I look forward to posting new content soon, I just need to limit my consumption.

Today I realized I am truly a duct tape and spite kind of engineer that no force of man or nature can stop if I'm determined enough. It's a good thing I'm also hella lazy and won't use this power for evil. . .

An old friend visited me last night, and in my excitement I picked her up and carried her to my friends and family. I couldn't find them fast enough. The warmth left my arms. I was alone again. And then I woke up. Grief may soften with time, but it will never leave you.

It took 7 years, but I really miss making and playing music. Being in a band, producing, the camaraderie, I'll probably never return to that past, but I may be dipping my toes back into something new. It'll take time and a lot of education, but I wish to create once more.

I'm tired of having to read people's minds and doing what they expect. Can we just say what we mean and do what needs to get done? Work, friends, life. . . Is it to much to ask? Is being blunt a sin now?

The videos I see on my For You Feed are amazing: cat video, tech video, funny meme, cursed abomination that I want to send to all of my friends but don't cause I know it will be the end of our very shaky relationship, cat video. I've cultivated my algorithms well.

If I ain't working, I'm streaming. If I ain't streaming, I'm working. If I ain't doing either, I'm dealing with the crushing, existential dread that I'm a speck of dust floating through the stars while not getting more work done. But most of the time I'm working or streaming.

Playing some Hunt: Showdown with @spookycatkevin.bsky.social tonight! Come say meowdy🖤 7:00pm Eastern

Cheeks Island is growing now that @spookycatkevin.bsky.social has joined the fray 💚

Vtubers: "I got banned for showing to much skin 'cause Twitch is evil and won't let me do what I want with my design." Me: Shows up naked to stream because I'm a cat. Learn to game the system.

I hate social media, but it's the train wreck that keeps on giving so I keep reading.

Truth. #Caturday