Once again realizing how aloof I must seem--please I'm just really really shy and have very low social battery

I have been playing raidou 2 A Lot other than the nostalgia it is genuinely just very fun I like not having to deal with social links haHa

I'm on my drawing studies era and wanted to open croquis cafe site for drawing references but nooooo apparently my govt thinks its not good and blocked it. Thanks for making learning just the littlest bit harder smh

pape and pancake (made on a whim)

ooh maybe I should post oc redesigns that I did for art fight right right I will post them... in due time

continued a doodle from January while forcing myself to use textured brushes and stop blending every non-smooth surface I see OTL #quadoc

listen..listen I will doodle ocs i promise.. for myself too

art is a constant battle of feelings of inadequacy vs joy of creation

I said that I'd use bsky for doodles that I don't post on twt but... I really barely draw at all huh OTL

3rd Artfight piece was for @kucingsableng.bsky.social 💕 I love drawing pretty ladies

Complaining time : I still can't sit down in front of my computer without getting really exhausted--I've been sick for nearly a week and I have so much to do 💀

currently stuck in the limbo of being too tired to work but somehow can't sleep.. It's like.. I don't remember when exactly I woke up from proper sleep last time yesterday, but I was sleepy all day and frequently fall asleep in short bits jsjsj

from a while ago, for an art/rp group first colored thing with a background after like.. forever #quadoc

🌈🕒 ⚠️ animal forms I accidentally used an AI ref for the first pic and it gave me so much anguish that I drew the 2nd pic entirely without reference

🌈🕒 tried to draw kpniki & don for the first time

🌈🕒 Tetsu from some comic practices that will ever see the light of day but I like these particular expressions too much so I'm throwing it here

🌈🕒 toganeko (roughly traced off of ref)

(dead eyes) should I do like people do and post my gacha results online

🌈🕒 the pose practice drawing I uploaded to twt yesterday but a different crop version (spent 30 minutes deciding on the crop and still...)

suddenly second guessing my decision to upload stuff on twitter, on tag no less 🤔 cuz technically they're for practice

I have been rather sick but I hope everyone is having a great day, pls get some sunshine and avoid getting sick like I do jsbjsjs

also haha I tried learning blender (the famous donut) like last month and it went swimmingly until I hit the textures part--it doesn't work quite right in my laptop for some reason? I'll start over from scratch next time I try to continue.

ngl I've lost touch with painting because for at least two years I've gone the fastest route without much experimentation or like.. heavy on the personal color preference 🤔

🌈🕒 an attempt of a study (ft. tetsu but u can't really tell) *lines are roughly traced cuz I mostly wanted to practice the shading

still on massive art recovery other than work and adopts (I am still in financial pickle) but I want to return to my 2021-2022 era muddy color palette wish me luck I'll also try harder to attempt doing studies trying my best to fix my relationship with drawing..!

Meds are making me braindead sleepy when I have work to do hhhsdfds

In other news I dug into the deep depths of the boxes in my old room and found the spare nibs at the deepest part Thankfully it was indeed a nib problem and I don't have to replace the pen hoho It's so much nicer not having the nib fall out every minute hsksh

I have to pack to go home for holidays but now I'm like.. huh

よくわからんけどなんか頑張りたい

will to live secured for months ahead but now how do I even live with myself like this🧍‍♂️

🌈🕒 doodle dump from my desperate attempt to get out of art slump drew some dudes for the 1st time

maybe.. I should shut up on social media 💀

✌️🦊 comparison thing that I sketched the other day to get back into drawing. I didn't even follow the OG artstyle fully, but it's still jarring to see the referenced one side by side with the one I drew out of memory. His eyes are huge haha (and my style made him look kind of evil)

Stalling comms haunts me, and yet I do it often some way or another. I'm not proud of that. I feel ashamed for being so 😬 abt drawing when it's literally what I am paid to do but it should hopefully be better, I am working on it every day.

I think even the most basic stuff, when your oshi is the one saying it so sincerely, can be a significant difference when you're in the dumps

I should've perhaps posted on twt instead but the good news is that I can draw again without wanting to throw up so I'm slowly getting back to drawing!

I just realized I missed a really important email (a comm progress inquiry) for nearly 3 weeks I feel so bad 😭

will to live patched up bc of a foxman

massive art block and I don't know what to do 😨 sorry I'm always stressing over art when it's the only thing I can do decently 🫠

dear diary kenapa gw orang indo

How long will it take for me to lose my only pentab nib making me unable to draw until I replace it? We shall find out 😎

My room's lamp gave up today, and I found out at like near midnight when I just woke up.. I found out that I'm capable of living in the dark but at the same time the eye strain is bigger lmao

fsm on a string ✌️🦊

Was trapped in ye olde hyperfixation spiral so I tried to draw something new for once (it's a sketch ofc) ✌🦊

My tablet pen nib keeps falling off and the replacements are in a whole other island.. and that's if I can even find it jshsjs I'm suspecting it's the whole pen that's beginning to go janky out of old age but man.. I don't want to buy new nibs or a new stylus

heeheeheehee sticker sheets I'll take proper photos soon but also hopefully more to come and eventually a local PO (or international if I can figure out international shipping by then)

yes I'm uploading old stuff bc I don't have anything new to post teehee

Arlo from 2023 and a recent dumb doodle of that one pooh meme #quadoc

do I just draw really slowly or is there just not enough time in one day...? 🫠

oh yeah I drew a bust up of my persona for a.. thing and it made me realize I haven't drawn him in ages #quadoc