if the last thing i hear from someone before they finish me off is "i just chummed here" i'll crumble and die before they have the chance to end me

sir..... #ArknightsEndfield

y - y i want borger....

thank you for stopping by and sticking around for as long as you could! i appreciate the raid as well (ilu @sakurodk.bsky.social MWAH) and the new follow! you might see me do random Endfield streams this week, but i'll be focusing on the comms i have left, so i can't make any promises!

Endfield day before work day www.twitch.tv/tarosin666

Got scared because I thought my lights flickered, but it turns out it was just me unconsciously blinking rapidly

i am feeling things rn

I GOT MY LORE BOOK (it's heavy)

i'm sorry, i know i said i was gonna do the MSQ on stream but.... 😔 (progressing through the MSQ right now so i can actually get started on my factory-)

tfw i stop stream and my ping is no longer even hitting above 50 ✊😔

stream END! thank you to everyone who stopped by and stuck around :3c i am gonna go solve all the puzzles and go ham on the factory off-stream o/ but we're covering the MSQ on stream! idk when i'll stream again tho-

nau www.twitch.tv/tarosin666

what if i stream endfield now

I sit down on the steps to our kitchen and all three of my dogs came running towards me for kisses (՞ •̥㉦•̥՞) I love them...

turns out i have miscalculated things and i will be only drinking coffee and eating whatever we have left in the pantry until next month/my next twitch payout (´-`) also for some reason making this post is giving me a sense of deja vu

i forgot to update here, but internet is back \(' - ')/ but i'll be staying offline for a bit still, focus on getting comms done i haven't played endfield yet because i want my experience to be on stream- i'll play it on monday 🙇‍♂️

the free data my service provider gave me as comp for the issue already expired, i only have 4GB left, been getting mixed updates having a hard time focusing on comms bc i've just been crying all day and night and i'm gonna miss the one thing i've been so excited for for months

Am I not allowed to be happy? It seems like every time I'm starting to feel good or if I'm excited for something, something terrible always happens Please, I'm so tired. I just want to have something nice without feeling like I had to sacrifice so many things just for a sliver

Still no internet 😔

I stand corrected, I woke up to electricity but our internet is Dead 🙃 I will never know peace in my life ever

I wanna cry, I had so many things planned this week- I have so many commissions to finish..... orz

Yeah, so... We're not gonna get power anytime soon 💀

:((((( our power went out I think it's our whole street too because all the neighbour's dogs are reacting- Hopefully it'll be resolved soon! For now, let's hope CSP's recovery feature pulls through and I can continue my comm from where I got cut off orz

art stream nau www.twitch.tv/tarosin666

i need the power bill to come soon so i can finally confirm how much i'll have left hhhhhhhh raHHHHHHHHH

the audacity of this mosquito to stay on my arm after i shoo'd it away, man-

budgeting so mendo just make me a buff ceo's mc-chan please universe-

My little brother used the kettle to boil eggs instead of the perfectly good pot we have and now there's slime inside the kettle 😭 I wanna beat him with a rolled up newspaper so bad

power tripped for a moment there ruh-roh

hnghigoignghngh this part in the trailer... the shieldguards.... o(-(

i am still missing Fjall though... i saw some posts saying he might've gotten canned and i 🥺 i want my former-soldier-turned-doctor back

can you believe it, guys? we're only 3 days away 🥺 i've waited so long www.youtube.com/watch?v=oJ00...

replaying this vid for the nth time because pog looks so good- buT ALSO... EVERYONE LOOKS SO GOOD... www.youtube.com/watch?v=UPpe...

good morning!!!! it's Endfield week!!! The Factory Lives On This Week!!!!

Art and Endfield, that's on the agenda next week (the time on the 22nd is tentative as i am not completely sure if Endfield does launch at 9 AM, but we're doing that On The Dot 🫡) ⇢ art by meeee ⇢ stream tag: #haishintaro ⇢ art tag: #onikaku (gen) / #onikakuR (18/G)

i was scrubbing through my last art stream VOD for a thing and i was terribly reminded of the discussion about whether eating a centaur would count as cannibalism or not

Great™ things are happening in my brain rn and I'm pretty sure I already have enough to cover bills this month- -and as much as I want to be greedy and get more extra moolahs for treats, being tag-teamed by insecurities, news about death, and other stresses makes me wanna fly

Closing comms for now so I can focus on current confirmed and pending requests- For pending requests, please expect a response from me within 48 hours! m_ _)m Thank you for your patience and understanding

i hate that this is doing something to me

cancelling my stream tonight, don't really feel right after some devastating news and then even more negativity coming up will post next schedule on sunday, in the meantime i work on comms offline

well, that's the mood crusher just found out an old classmate from high school passed away

actually, nevermind

( ´・ω・`) sigh...

asked my big brother for help with reinforcing my front door because i did not trust myself with power tools only to watch him hammer and drive the screws with just a screwdriver and brute force if i'd realized that that was an option i would've done that myself-

to make matters worse, i was reminded of my niconicodouga weeb days

not my little brother telling me that he noticed all the doors in the house becoming misaligned and he thinks our house is sinking this whole house is cursed i swear to god

i'll get at least one phase done for all comms i have on queue rn before i take more- (i have 6 on queue rn) i gotta take more ;; 7 ;;

that sad moment when i know i can never recreate that style that i did for charon-

"yes you do, you should order one" Mm-hmm, you're right, voice who is not me and is definitely another entity. I DO deserve a chickenjoy 😤 i'm gonna order now-

do u guys think i deserve a chickenjoy today 🥺