I decided I am not gonna let this get to me though and channel the indomitable human spirit Or at least try to

It is so draining to find out something you enjoyed is made by awful people So unbelievably draining

(New character that you already know the vague concept of)’s debut is probably gonna be slightly eh cause I drew em in a simplistic pose mainly to show off the design, but eh that’s what the doodle format is for sorta- It’s a blueprint, I tell myself

I might be cooking

New character is on hold until I figure out a good hairstyle for them (possibly one that isn’t the OctoCaptain special, AKA short side bangs) Will probably do that tomorrow or at the weekend or something

I’m April, and I’m also a fool, so this month is made for me

HAH jokes on me I used the dumbest possible premise to force myself to draw something VAGUELY Shade lore related …I struggled so badly to come up with a mildly functional insignia, but I THINK it might work-💥

I’m sorry in advance but the brainspace must be cleared, and to do so I must unclog something Ergo, see image below

I miss my wife Tails, I miss her a lot, I’ll be back

How do I explain that I love the specific genre of robot design where it’s like Normal-ish humanoid top half somewhat And below the waist they just got like a massive dome shape or parts jutting out on/surrounding their legs or like something like that Ellie-X is an example of this trope

Okay more lighthearted thing today on fish thoughts I noticed I tend to gravitate more towards “I love these characters and want to see them love each other” than the sorta thing of finding a character so pretty and wanting them myself

I felt way too guilty logging back into this account after what I felt and said last night I genuinely love y’all (as friends). I’m sorry if I make you worry or anything.

I so badly wish my brain wasn’t this volatile mess Can’t enjoy interests to the fullest because I get fed people’s misery over the most minor of things about it, or the literal worst news imaginable hits it, or simply too much happens at once and it overwhelms my ability to be productive too

Gut punched, uplifted, overwhelmed, excited, exhausted Roller coaster of a day I suppose

I love dropping teases of lore and then running away before I can elaborate it’s gotta be one of my favourite tricks I probably should elaborate on more things though. That’s a trick I’m bad at

I do not know if I will draw more exposed breasts in future but like drawing Anglerfish boobs specifically made me feel good in a stress filled week so that’s something to bear in mind for myself

Okay so um uh as a caveat to my energy slightly returnig I…got carried away unfortunately. The normal version of the doodles will be up tomorrow but in the meantime I curse thee with observing (mild) angler boobs

… Okay so I can explain myself

Trying not to get overwhelmed by the world. It is not going well. But I will pull through because if no one else will be the Anglerfish Siren fan, I have to do so

I talk about Angela too much but I’m proud of my fish daughter and will hype her up at ever opportunity

It actually does entertain me a little that a few people in the past have been surprised that I have these 18+ alts I think that is sorta funny

Holding my breath hoping I do in fact get this job not only for the sake of money but also because then my brain can feel a justified reason to explain why I haven’t made more art

Okay but this has to exist now because I can have a stupid abbreviation for MAID Maintenance, Armoury and Intelligence Depository You have to stop me before I give her a name then she’s basically canon

I love how I can go from feeling overwhelmed by separation anxiety to waking up the next morning like “okay so what if the robot enemy faction in Shade’s universe had a ragebaiting maid robot android woman who does their maintenance and defence duties” Maybe I shouldn’t be allowed to think anymore

I’m feeling better today now that I’m not forcing things quite as hard (and talking to people online some more) but like man I am truly hopeless

I hate separation anxiety aaaaa I’m literally home alone for 2 days and I already feel so alone-💥

Fish

If I think about it there’s actually nothing stopping me from drawing Anglerfish Siren with massive badonkas Y’know except my credibility to not draw every character with those (mostly). That’s on the line. My reputation would be RUINED, DESTROYED, OBLITERATED

It’s crazy how much I gaslight myself into thinking I’m annoying that holding a conversation with someone that I only usually talk to in replies or occasionally on one server makes me feel that way And then they call me cool or something and I’m like???? No??? YOU’RE cool!!

I was busy (procrastinating) the last few days But I am at least starting writing the ref stuff rn. As such she also has versions with and without glasses for the ease of myself drawing her

I am very happy with this, shading and ref by herself coming soon hell yes

Octo “winging it with colours” Captain strikes again and hits a pretty looking colour palette for clothing I can’t be allowed to keep getting away with this

I need to channel my anti-procrastination energy but I feel like doing that tomorrow

Not exactly sure how to feel that this was my like most normal thought yesterday but oh well

Guys help, I think I like fictional sea creatures that lure people to their death Plural I have a considerable weakness

I should do more self indulgent doodles I think most people I’ve shown the funny maid one to liked it, unfortunately I have no other ideas like that rn so we will be back to normally scheduled “doodling whatever I find the motivation for”

I MISSPELT WEIRD FUCKKKKKKKKKKK

Turns my fem sona into a maid to cope with IRL fears and also because I have free will in the matter and can do that This must be the alt account exclusive content you guys have needed

People into selfcest should go fuck themselves, am I right? (Crickets chirping) (One person in the crowd coughs)

A human An octopus And a fish from the dark Can’t believe my 3 main OCs are just Deltarune prophecy at this point lmao

I realised I didn’t add the fact that I use this account as like my vent half the time in my bio so I went and did that, my apologies

I hate being such an irritable person by the absolute minute sense of negativity about things I care about It’s such a problem with me and any time I have to mute hyper specific phrases or mute someone I don’t talk to anymore makes me feel like an asshole

I love my silly anglerfish daughter sm 🙏

Fish tomorrow

I feel so awkward sometimes being such a notification watcher Like someone will draw something cool once (some of those times being like out of nowhere they drew one of my OCs) and I will now just spawn directly next to every post they make within like a minute-💥💥💥

I miss her

Angela “Angie” Fish, honey, I love you with all my heart but also your tail is TOO LONG I can never fit you in your entirety on a canvas ever I swear, and your lure makes you taller too GRAHHHH-

I don’t think I can truly put into words how happy I am people actually like Angela whdiwbdjsbd It makes my brain happy because she is truly just my brainrot fish daughter and I lowkey don’t have the most plans for her in a story setting, she just vibes She’s so fun though

Something random is that I very much enjoy giving each character I draw a slightly different eyelash/eyemask look (also retroactively gives some to characters that never had them like Zip) and the problem with that is that idk how to do that for male characters quite as well (I’ll learn slowly)