Great crested grebe or human teenagers? Just #wwt Slimbridge things

I’m not going to say my new watch is gaslighting me but these were taken like two hours apart 🤔

Husband put red food dye in the porridge this morning, then said that he’d cut himself when he was cooking. Eldest came down, sniffed all three bowls and choose the one that he thought smelled least of blood and ate it all. Not quite the way April Fools was meant to go 🙃

First day of the Easter holidays and I’ve had no work and no children 🥳 (normal drunken posting will resume once I’ve ran the 10k next month)

Drifloon’d out at the tattoo studio! Small issue - after getting a new piercing and still being bored, I really want a tattoo from there now 🙃

Taking my daughter to the Pokemon themed tattoo studio to get her ears pierced today. Unfortunately, this has led to my toddler, who can’t say his r sound yet, telling everyone who’ll listen that he wants to get pissed later on 🙈

The mystery of what ‘leek resurrection’ was solved today 😅

Moral dilemma of the day: if a bus almost hit you on zebra crossing, would you email the bus company to let them know? I know people make mistakes and all that but equally I feel it was really bad… Context: I was jogging and had already crossed half the road and it was a 20 zone. He stopped but…

I’ve just been asked to present my work to a grand round of like 60-80 psychiatrists and psychotherapists next month. What an honour. But still - eek! 😱

My two SILs are running a 10k with me in May. I checked Strava this morning… The 36 year old one did a nice flat seaside 4k before the school run yesterday. The 21 year old one posted a 1km run back from the club at 4AM. Oh to be 21 again 😄

I made a suspiciously specific meme. 🎮

I signed up to a 10k and so now have Strava. It’s all good except my watch pushes every activity to it 🙄🥏 Should anyone want a cluttered Strava feed, you can follow me here for more fun high jinxes strava.app.link/QKYgaFxqA1b

Sleepy nine year old, dealing Poker for the first time: Is this the belly or the flop? 😅

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3 hours of sleep, night in A&E, 6.3 km ran, 18 hot cross buns baked (my daughter did the crossing 🥰), next: Freud course and then bed 🥱

‘Look mummy, sweeties! Can I have some?’ - excellent advertising in paediatric A&E 💀

Initially I thought being able to squat with my 93kg husband on my back meant that running had improved my leg strength. In retrospect, after three sets of four reps, I think it’s just increased my ability to tolerate discomfort over long periods 😅

There’s a thing on running instagram where people are taking cream out on a run to make butter. For the gym bros, there’s another way: you can make it very easily in a protein shaker 😅 (Found this out when trying to make whipped cream without my Kenwood Chef and overdoing it 🧈)

Anyone else been waiting all day for Handcuffed: Last Pair Standing? I’m so so hoping the gay porn star and the prude make it through this difficult time 😅

Buying myself a little something to make the first day back to work a little more joyful 😊

Psychoanalysis x running (my two current hyperfixations) Freud, quoting Rückert: ‘whatever we cannot achieve on the wing, we have to achieve at a patient limp … Scripture tells us clear enough, it was never a sin to limp.’ ❤️

TIL the anxiety grounding technique of ‘think of all the [x] objects’ (in this case, Minecraft mobs and biomes) is a great hack to get an 11 year old boy to slow down and gently jog to the finish line when all he wanted to do was start walking.

Chose the best day for our first parkrun 🍰

Surreal moment this morning, sitting in the car, having therapy in a back street outside the day centre when the Bishop of Gloucester walked past.

Parents’ evening discovery - my daughter apparently wrote an algorithm to make friends 😅 I’m not saying she is autistic, but there may be signs…

Finding out the random neon Nails Inc polish I got from Superdrug glows under a black light was the highlight of today 🌟

A snapshot of Friday stress pre and during the crisis team involvement. I’ve never seen so much blue (rest) when I’m awake before - and I plan to continue having a similar amount when I’m back to work again. What’s helped (apart from having no responsibilities) is the headspace app, colouring in..

Couch to 5k is going so well that I’m signing up for a 10k in May. WCGW? 😅

Fact 1. My GP recently prescribed me tranexamic acid for heavy periods. Fact 2. My children wanted to host a ‘70s disco’ for grandma tonight. Consequence: Grandma was surprised when I jumped up, saying I was just going to get my ‘acid tablets’. 😬

Tell me you have an eleven year old boy without telling me you have an eleven year old boy…

Maybe the cure all along was a ridiculously expensive jacket for the running outdoors that I don’t actually do 🙃

Took my first ADHD meds in a week. Spent the car ride translating three new Hungarian songs (🤷‍♀️) and booked an advanced Hungarian lesson for 9AM tomorrow morning. Crisis team aren’t coming out today 🥳 celebrating by going to Bath. Which is probably a mistake - but man those Sally Lunn buns are 🤤

Looking forward to self soothing my way out of *checks paperwork* the current situation with Coronavirus… 🤨

The NHS 💙 GP: take this SSRI GP, the next week: why aren’t you taking this SSRI? Nurse, the week after: yes take the SSRI. … Wait. It’s been prescribed weirdly, maybe don’t take it, let me check, I’ll get back to you by 5PM Nurse at 8PM: yeah don’t take that SSRI. You’ll get a medication review

So turns out the NHS can actually help. Not like, when it happened, and they were all like ‘go to this website’. But now, when they’re like ‘we’ll come to your house every day’ and ‘we’ve got a place for you at this nice place for a little break from life’… Better late than never, I guess 🙃

Safeguarding training question today: You overhear a teacher telling a pupil ‘you’re just like your useless dad’ - is this… A) emotional abuse B) constructive feedback C) a safeguarding misunderstanding Answers on a postcard… 😅

A lot has got worse - but sometimes it’s tolerable. And today I got a new hairdryer ☺️

It’s dark outside.

Offering Compline this night for those who are listening to the hum of the house and feeling everything at once. May God steady what rises, and grant you rest.

My mum: I don’t think your therapy is working, they’re meant to make you happier and focus on the positive things. Also my mum: *tells me that Elon Musk is causing the storms in Spain by Starlink (?) from America because he doesn’t like the government* But jeez, I’m the pessimist here.

It says a lot about the various difficulties of work, parenting, and therapy when my ‘stress score’ according to my watch was at its lowest in an interview I just had (I got through 😅)

Introduced my therapist to the music of Lola Young today. open.spotify.com/track/7ngxyV...

Unexpected perks of being in MIU with a poorly child: getting to watch the Winter Olympics rather than working this morning.

Any tips to deal with PTSD flashbacks? I’m really struggling with this chest infection / the feeling of shortness of breath reminding me of having sepsis. I presume when I get better it’ll go but it’s inconvenient when driving or trying to sleep or doing any normal things right now 😞

I love having children 10/10 recommend.

Seminar reading tonight ‘the economic problems of masochism’ Me: *offers to present the whole paper, because I’ve been ill for the last two weeks* Also me: *runs to the doctors surgery to discover the week I decided to start couch to 5k I have suspected pneumonia*

Current reading.

Cheerfully drinking my morning coffee with a white chocolate finger as a straw, and my husband looks over and for a second thinks that I have a rolled up banknote in my nose. Chocolate fingers make the best straws ever is a hill I will die on.

Just Freud things.

Me: I’m here because a few friends and my therapist have said I should see my GP about my mental health. The unexpected outcome: