Went for a run last night and my heart stopped because a few people have died recently on this canal. But look 🐣🐣🐣🐣 !!!

🥹 got myself a ticket to @emfcamp.bsky.social after having the best time ever there last time. Now I just have to write this talk… ☺️

I gather there are two (?) main ways to watch Star Wars for the first time. Today I’m dipping my toes in with The Mandalorian and Grogu (in 3D!), which I imagine is nobody’s pick for first film to watch. Wish me luck! 🙈

Got a little too close to a mental breakdown, gunna stave it off for another 22 weeks 😅 Joking but also not - because I spent the last eight weeks telling myself ‘when the 10k is over I’ll rest my knees properly’ and now it’s ’meh no need to rest them, I have nothing for them to be fit for’ 🙃

Out of office ✅ Same hill six hours (and 15 min/km) apart 💀 Start of a week off with the kids 👌

Children in the hospital do not need to be heroes. They need to be allowed to be children who are scared, upset, resilient, and human. My latest blog for Psychology Today - Rethinking “Bravery” in Paediatric Healthcare: The Hidden Burden More: www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/psyc...

‘For a cultivated layman […] affairs of the heart are of a different order of magnitude from everything else; they are, so to speak, inscribed on a special parchment unsuitable for any other form of inscription’ Freud

Whenever I think ‘aww babies are cute I want another one’ I should have to host a party at soft play an it’ll knock it out of me for another year 🌳

Crying! Shaking! Overwhelmed.

Took daughter on a short run (mum is here for childcare 🙌) and she was struggling - a group of teenagers, noticing I was encouraging her, started hyping her up and cheering her on. ‘Aww’ I think, what lovely young men. ‘I hate people’, she said, speeding up to ignore them 💀

This cat has developed the habit of diving into the sink as soon as I want to brush my teeth? 😅 Off work today as toddler is in the middle of his tenth (?) episode of croup 😭

Final ‘taper’ run before Sunday ✅ Now time for the panic about Sunday ✅

Perfect end to a lovely day. I’m still ambivalent about running as a concept but I am in love with watching her fall in love with it. 🌅

When you offer to make a Pokemon themed meal for a Pokopia play date and then actually have to follow through #pokopia

Post race coffee with a cheese and yoghurt vending machine and milk dispenser 🐮🥛 Too cute.

Had to run through a river up to my thighs. My feet are still soaked through. But my neighbour carried me through the first 5k before splitting off to do an extra five miles 🤷‍♀️

I have my first actual race next Sunday but I also have a 5 mile run tomorrow that I’ve been telling myself my knees are going to be in too bad shape for, but maybe they’re kinda okay now? And maybe I could push myself and do the 10 mile one? Might need the advice of actual runners here 😅🏃‍♀️🫣

When life gives you lemons, add sugar. CMV.

Whenever I drive on roads like this I always imagine Americans would be horrified. Especially when the speed limit is 60 and you drive a stick shift 😅

‘Sex also involves demands and risks, because the needs of the other person may not align with yours; intimacy means intimacy with that otherness, the possibility that things will go wrong, that there will be pain and rejection..

RIP freud. you would’ve loved whatever this is.

Weird moment meeting a new person at the pub. She’s a developer and we were both knitting. She told me her nightmare last night about her entire jumper coming off the needles, I told her about mine where my website had a PHP injection vulnerability 😅 … The collective unconscious and all that.

Endings are heavy on my mind today. I wrote this when my son was an infant. Parenting and endings are similar - trying to bear in mind that what you have/had was always meant to be temporary. Watching someone move on (to good things!) after years of work together is both beautiful and hard.

Tucked myself up into bed straight after work but was meant to be social and meet friends at a pub. Bizarrely decided to run the 8km here to somehow make it more palatable?! #TheEconomicProblemsOfMasochism

In a moment of madness I signed up for a race next weekend which requires trail running shoes. Putting them to great use 👌

‘The things you care about are the things that break your heart, are the things that give rise to excellence, are the things that fill your life with meaning and joy’ - Brad Stulberg

Friday 🥳🥂

The weather here is so glorious - this weekend is my first long weekend without the kids 🥺 and so of course the weather is due to turn miserable. So I’ll probably spend three days curled up reading Freud or playing a video game about a descent into psychosis (h/t @drkwildschut1984.bsky.social )

Before -> during-> after. I did the big talk to 60 psychiatrists 🤯 They liked it! 🥳

I thought this was a general view but after telling the preschool staff I was going to run into town but via another town (the opposite way), I fear people may indeed think I am mad too 😭

On the shadow in relationship.

Never watched a marathon on TV before but man I’m glad I chose this year’s London as my first one! Nail biting stuff in the last few km - a new world record? 🏃😀

Presentation trial to my psychiatrist friend done with excellent feedback 🙌 just got to get through the grand rounds on Monday… (Buying the 32” super fancy gaming monitor and the pro controller were 100% the right choice so I actually feel like a professional 🤭)

The days are long but the years are too short 💕

To quote Panic! At The Disco, we have "High Hopes" about the weather this week High pressure is sticking around into the weekend and will keep many areas dry with plenty of sunshine Although increasingly warm by day, the nights will still be chilly with potential for fog

I often think about the day I first noticed my youngest’s attempt at reparation, when he ripped a piece of his sister’s art off the wall. I wrote this straight after, and it seems appropriate to share today as much as any day. 🥺

My graphic design skills know no bounds. So, so, nervous about presenting to so many actual doctors and pdychologists 😬

Belatedly celebrating the Hungarian election result with lángos (Hungarian deep fried bread with sour cream, garlic and cheese) and pezsgő (Hungarian sparkling wine) 🥂 🇭🇺

Orbán's electoral crushing is a far greater achievement than most people outside Hungary realise. He systemically consolidated power for 16 years, fixed the electoral map, abused govt power for political purposes & censored media. The hurdles that Hungarians overcame for this moment were immense.

‘Talpra magyar, hí a haza!’ Orbán out 🥰 After sixteen long years of learning and speaking it, finally I can tell people I speak Hungarian again without worrying people think I’m alt right 🇭🇺

Having infants x working with infantile states Drudgery, a sense of ‘will this ever end?’, relentless emotional toll. But also - the sense of wonderment of the beauty of it all. The absolute privilege that you get to bear witness to their development.

Toddler birthday requests: Party location in order of preference: in CEX, at his best friends house, on the M5, in the car. Guest list: ‘the kid who wouldn’t share at the park yesterday’. Cake ideas: a Dorset apple cake in the shape of Team Rocket in a hot air balloon with Ash Ketchum…

If you had to retake your degree now, do you think you’d get a better grade than the first time round? For me - absolutely not )but this is the sort of stuff I could do in my sleep in fourth year and that looks like gobbledygook now 😬)

My daughter wanted to backcomb my hair this morning to play cave girls. Unexpected outcome was the floofiest ponytail ever. I must investigate this further over the Easter Holiday for maximal floofiness 👱🏼‍♀️ #offworkuntilfriday

Crying my eyes out watching Harry Clark Goes To Rome - when he sees the tomb of Carlo Acutis 😭 Definitely worth a watch. www.theguardian.com/tv-and-radio...

Parenting 😅 (Gave her my old smartwatch)

Seven hours of work starting now … Happy bank holiday to me 🥳

Great crested grebe or human teenagers? Just #wwt Slimbridge things

I’m not going to say my new watch is gaslighting me but these were taken like two hours apart 🤔

Husband put red food dye in the porridge this morning, then said that he’d cut himself when he was cooking. Eldest came down, sniffed all three bowls and choose the one that he thought smelled least of blood and ate it all. Not quite the way April Fools was meant to go 🙃