"millennials entering middle age" COULDNT BE ME

i definitely don't feel dislike for cis men and i think of myself as a guy mostly but there is something about like fully real cis gay romance that i feel alienated from where i feel like their experiences of manhood are still very different from mine and i feel frustration while watching/reading

what i crave above anything else, i guess, unfortunately, is "men who seem like they may have experienced misogyny" and this is not something u find. often.

i need to find obscure bl

i didn't give my cat his treat at 10 and now he's like running around crying like his entire life is ruined

i can't ever die who the hell else is gonna make these awful fucking posts

people are like "i'm objectifying men" and they're just putting him in an ugly vest and button down shirt

you say you want to objectify men but they're not slipping and falling and landing in eachothers boobs and then they blush and try to get up and then fall again and one of them pulls the others pants off and they fall down the stairs and one of them gets a boner and his dick lands in the other guys

when will a man trip and fall into another man's boobs

i know sports anime's almost do this and i know there's a couple of anime where it's like cute guys hanging out, like the many cute girls hanging out anime, but the guys are so bland. they're just not weird enough. come on.

for all the mlm-ship centeredness of fandom i feel so bored by most of it lately like i feel like it's way rarer lately that there is a guy who is interesting or a freak or whatever. like i guess there's lestat??

i want to experiment with colors i have avoided for years i want to indulge in pale blue and purple. i want to enter my cinnamoroll ara

i think i'd look good with pale blue hair im trying to make sure there aren't any downsides to this

i should go back on T and dye my hair blue

i can't eat spicy food anymore and the people are just going to have to tolerate me

dreamed i went back on testosterone oh to be true

rly hard to make observations about masculinity and homophobia without people assuming it is an indictment of men as a concept. and this includes people who hate men as well.

every time i go on tumblr there is like a long long long long long long long ass post with the most inane opinion i've ever heard and i can only hope and pray it does not breach containment

ok i am feeling better from having slept for 12 hrs and then eaten and then napped for 5 more hours i think tomorrow after i sleep 12 more hours i will be good to go. and by good to go i mean i will be able to shower

no more sex

babygirl there's disabilities out there you never even dreamed of

things should be nice food and water should be safe people should have shelter and healthcare

anime where it's stupid

people get rly fucking mad when u limit comments like every post i make that gets over 100 likes there's someone who's like so mad at me that they can't comment on the post like sorry you can't speak to me!! i don't wanna hear it sorry!! guess you'll have to suffer

i have 1 panel left to draw for the next update but i feel like i am dying and cant do it not fair

all the commercials for AI assistants r literally already achievable via normal googling like theyre all like "gemini what should i have for dinner based on the ingredients i have in my fridge" like theres already stuff for that

impossible to talk to people about animation if they don't know about animation like genuinely

don't give up fat tanuki

grown adults in charge of people's lives frequently sounding like when ur in 2nd grade and a classmate w diabetes has to go to the nurse to get a snack and another one of ur classmates is like "um. how come *I* don't get to go to the nurse to get a snack 🤨" except it's like. 50 yr old men.

you can just put a leftover ramen packet in a cup and drink it and then youll have more sodium in your body and thatll fix you

i feel like a lot of influential android artificial intelligence robot stories were written before people rly knew about computers and shit and its actually kind of fun to write about this stuff as a person who does sort of know what is in a computer

xenon fuck day draws ever closer. i was hoping to get it done before january but i am apparently just living in the mandatory nap vortex

tired

what's something cheerful to watch or read or play

i need something

it's rly weird that they've completely stopped making anime

we've had to replace 'literally' with 'genuinely' bc literally has lost all meaning and genuinely is on its way there as well were gonna die

i want to play twilight princess more but im at this part where u have to escort a cart and theres goblins on pigs and you have to shoot a bomb from horseback and put the fire out on the cart and i just dont fucking have the energy for all that

been drawing xenon blushing a lot and it occurs to me that he doesnt have any blood so im assuming he has like red LEDs under his skin or something like he blushes like a rankin bass

paper towel commercials r always trying to convince me that all i need to clean up a sticky mess is one of their paper towels but it's just not true. there needs to be some sort of water or soap. i'm sorry you're just not doing it that way

i'm literally ridiculously sleepy today i keep trying to do anything besides sleep but i am unable to

streamers and youtubers r always like omgg im sorry if i look bad i have like a 103 degree fever but i have to finish this bc i have to go visit my large family for christmas in an hour!! and its like you actually dont have to

like. okay. literally. i know im delusional and i know xenon wears sexy clothes and everything but im genuinely like he doesn't need to be censored just for standing there like he's not doing anything

rly rly tired today for no reason that's good

it's pretty much never necessary to wear a disguise. like i feel like in fiction people are always disguising themselves and sneaking around but in real life i cannot think of a single situation where that would be necessary or even possible

you can't even post a man's nipples without getting censored anymore

talking about a fictional guy: he's stupid. i hate him. but i feel bad for him. what i rly mean: i feel intense sexual love for this man and i need to inhabit his body like a spiritual parasite, take over his corporeal form and live his life for him. i need my flesh to become his

i'm taking vitamins im reducing inflammation and histamine response i'm resting when i need to im eating more fiber in smaller portions im not pushing myself beyond my limits im masking when i go out

VERONICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! open the open the door please

youtu.be/sLsbad-xElU?... someone emailed me this it is the heathers animatic i did 4 years ago and then posted and then lost