this guy who just joined my Discord server... um... is... could it be him? Damn, if it's actually that dude, don't tell him I was talking about him.

My mental health is finally recovering a bit now, okay good. (It has nothing to do with my recent tweet becoming a hot potato, it's because of my two ^fanboys^, don't worry)

Hey guys, does my English come off as kinda gay or something? It’s not like I’ve had people suggest swapping dick pics twice in a short span or anything—just genuinely curious.

I get super anxious whenever I go from being busy to having free time. I should probably make some plans for what to do for a while…

Happy New Year, y’all

죽여다오

Feels like I’m being punished for all the things I’ve done to my OCs

Why am I busy as hell right now, yet somehow sitting here comparing dick lengths with this guy

Thingy for @chillup-boy.bsky.social

more stuff for another toki AU jade (sealboy) is @chillup-boy.bsky.social 's ___ #KodiOC:Toki #AU:Toki

I keep thinking about this reaction to Seal Jade because it’s just too funny, damn it. Calling it a ‘weird fish thing’ is already hilarious, and the person nitpicking under it kills me too. Please

Man, I’m so tired right now it feels like my judgment’s completely shot lol. Might be better to just get some sleep at this point…

sure i'll do this purely with pics of toki (reupload because i picked a diff one for the last)

It feels like I deepthroated a dagger in my sleep or something. My throat’s been hurting like it’s torn up for days… Should I up the dose on my painkillers?

I was so exhausted dealing with this thing all day that I even made a special video just to archive the motion, for once. The really brutal part is that I still don’t have any time to rest!

youtu.be/OfBd8kxo4mQ?... need a dopamine refill…

Nooo way. One of the coding team members caught the flu, and my sore throat shows no signs of getting better.

I paint the way you’d slap on thick layers of paint, so I really hate having to draw things that need to be clean and perfectly consistent. And animating without even a rough pass just leaves the final result feeling way too lacking…

I guess I must be stressed. I’m having some weird thoughts…

I want to be a brain in a jar, and I want a mad scientist to attach a vibrator to the electric shock button.

Wasn't part of the plan, but after a few beers, one Jack and Coke, and a slice of the cake I got as a gift, I'm feeling a bit dizzy now. Gotta do the dishes to sober up a little.

Mmm Christmas dinner Steak is my work

hh gonna head to bed.

Probably yesterday or something, I got some Jade art from @kjon1.bsky.social Mmm… my own character looking this damn lewd. Of course I draw smut too, but… you know what I mean? It’s on another level. The Jade this artist drew has the kind of body I’d straight-up want to fuck at least once. ㅋㅋ

Honestly, I’ve been insanely busy and exhausted lately, so I’m in full-on “who cares about Christmas, I’m way too swamped for this” mode. (posts a Christmas-themed NSFW piece on Fanbox anyway)

I’m someone who really cares about adjusting intensity based on importance in UI elements, but the person handling UI doesn’t consider that at all, and it’s stressing me out lol. This is already the third round of retouching feedback. I’ve got so much other stuff to do too—damn it.

Mmm… it’s taking way longer than I expected, it’s harder than I thought… and more things just keep getting added… Mmm… I literally feel like all I did today was eat and work. But I really want to make some breathing room before things get too tight...

Tbh, I kinda let that account burn on purpose... I’m decent at reading situations and using them, and I’ve got a feel for what grabs ppl. So I kept posting stuff I knew would hit, and it paid off more than enough. Then it went out like a firework—bright, short-lived, gone. ㅋㅋ

At least this experience taught me one thing: Jade is really good at drawing attention… Jade, you’re a slut! (in a Hagrid impression)

x.com/SucKillPak_2... yup

응 다시만들꺼야

아 씨발 구라치지 마 진짜ㅋㅋ

Reading a few dozen random comments on my art isn’t hard at all. A two-hour nonstop meeting—that’s the real nightmare. Damn, I’m so dizzy I can’t even get up lol. Guess I’ll just grin and read some more weird comments instead.

I’m really not someone who gets angry easily. So how dare you push every last one of my buttons and then tell me not to be curt? How dare you—at me?

In the end, I went there and now I'm quickly heading back home...

Alcohol and cigarettes are way too romanticized. Especially cigarettes—after smoke, my hands smell fucking awful.

Hmm… alright. At this point, there’s no way I’m getting any sleep— even though it’s 8 a.m. right now.

Cove & Ruby

I slept only 4 hours, went out for an appointment, and then sent a birthday cake as a gift to a friend who might've already cut me off... Whether that's actually the case or not will probably depend on if they reply about the gift.

Psst.. magical boy Jade and magical girl fio. They’re a matching set Kitty wants fishy 🎉

I went out and ended up falling asleep… time to pay for my sins.

want to draw some personal otaku stuff… I’m only jotting down ideas in a notepad. And I’m trusting my future self…

Agh screw! I had a dream that my Twitter got suspended!

My specialty: drawing weird comics

But honestly, it feels like my ideas peak the most when my brain is really messed up. Hmm~ guess I’ll just have to keep suffering then.

Hey, I’ve reopened my Twitter account. I probably won’t be very active for now, but at least you’ll be able to check out my doodles and updates. x.com/SucKillPak_2...

I keep trying to self-hypnotize not to obsess over the feeling that I’m stuck at some point, and that I don’t need to be overly anxious… but today, ever since I woke up, the hyperventilating just hasn’t stooopped. man!

Damn, meeting-day fatigue hits different… The second I lost focus I got dizzy as hell. Back in grad project days I crashed like this every night… Overwork death scared me more than any ghost story lol

Honestly, there’s actually something else I really need to finish… But before too much time passes and I end up hating this game completely, I should polish it up and release it. Damn, there are way too many things I need to fix lol.