i apologize for this post....a lot happened yesterday causing me to break down and make this post... i'm still mentally broken as all hell....listening to Worst Case Scenarios by Set it off to reflect my pain and all that...i'm sorry for all the venting....i've been through hell.

(⚠️vent, mention of S/H and suicide) please read, thank you....

oh ye btw "you don't know me" and you don't know jack shit about my boyfriend...and yet here you are being a petty lil prick who just decided to be an asshole cause you're that bored. like my boyfriend might have gone through worse and you might not know that,ya fucking dumbbell.

one more example of what i mean (same person behind the comments on the thing i'm qrtin) , imagine being that fucking petty and say shit like this, also putting boyfriend in quotes like Devy ain't my bf or someshit, go fuck yourself-

this is legit what i fuckin mean (i'm censoring their name to prevent harassment, if you found out who they are, PLEASE do not attack them, i don't condone it!) you have no fucking life if you're saying shit like this about a person venting, fuck you.

(image unrelated!) heya!!! important message! if you're one who talks shit about a person venting, saying that them ranting/venting makes them privileged and try to one up a person who has struggled less than you or something like that.... GO FUCK YOURSELF!

according to a friend, my voice gets sadder as i played.... and ngl... i kinda see it... i'm assuming that my voice gets sadder and sadder as I play due to me knowing what was gonna happen in the game...either that or it's cause i know that game was a vent by my own bf, idk.

NEW VIDEO UP ON YT! I play my darling boyfriend @notsodevy.bsky.social 's vent game. I felt my heart shattered at one point.... CHECK IT OUT HERE! youtu.be/TAPzOqXAo28

˚₊‧꒰ა EXECUTABLE HELL (redraw)໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE! i couldn't think of anything related to my ocs, so i redrew my fanart of @toadbup.bsky.social based on Executable hell to celebrate! Old in replies!

i'm on hiatus. but i decided to hop in real quick to say HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!! i hope everyone has a great spooky day!

˚₊‧꒰ა Cybermedicine height difference ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ Height difference between me and @notsodevy.bsky.social 's sonas Onyx and Yuuna!! this is also an excuse to draw Yuuna's magical girl appearance!!!

saw this on my timeline and as a person who have dealt with ex friends and/or partners who just want to be my friend or lover just for my art and not me as a person, those who just wanna be your friend for your art aren't true friends. it's your choice on whether you want to draw for others or (+)

i had a dumb thought while explaining lore of a mlp horror-esque game-

˚₊‧꒰ა Nothing sweet about her. ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ Ref of my sona, Yuuna! this took forever to draw i will admit, but ehh it was worth it QwQ

forgive me for the lack of posts, my sickness and my aching body were kicking my ass, but uhh.... have this what if doodle as an apology.

˚₊‧꒰ა the magic of the Pegasus Device ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ Rainbow Factory!Onyx to go along and match with Strawberry slaughter! Onyx belongs to my boyfriend @notsodevy.bsky.social

˚₊‧꒰ა Strawberry Slaughter ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ so uhh i'm not a pillar chase player, BUT, the moment i discovered that there's gon be a Pinkamena character for Pillar chase named QT-pie, i just HAD to draw me but QT-pie.

˚₊‧꒰ა SUBJECT HAS BREACHED CONTAINMENT ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ A redesign of an old oc of mine named Noxis. I don't have his old look on me... Noxis is a dangerous experiment who has escaped containment from a facility.

˚₊‧꒰ა Male oc Strawpage QnA ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ a thread regarding any QnA stuff i get on my strawpage about my male ocs Yuzuki,Seth, Ashton, and Mason!

i'm bored, so uhh hey!! send me some stuff on my strawpage about my boys shown in this post! i wanna yap about em hhhh xolovesyndromeox.straw.page

˚₊‧꒰ა Let's Redraw the world! ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ out of boredom, i made a Rewrite variant of myself for the lols. Meet Redraw, a rewrite version of Yuuna who can make any drawing she makes come to life!

˚₊‧꒰ა Broken Souls, beautiful bond ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ giftie for my bf @notsodevy.bsky.social of Onyx and Yuuna kissing! i love my bf so muchhh eeee!

˚₊‧꒰ა Memories are blurred in blue.... ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ A Vesselsona for my bf @notsodevy.bsky.social !! Onyx, A Man with the vessel of the blue hero himself, Sonic,who is the boyfriend of Yuuna!

˚₊‧꒰ა Sweet like honey, rotten to the heart ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ Colored my Vessel sona! Yuuna, a woman with the vessel of Honey the Cat. #execommunity #exeoc #sonicexe #sonicexeoc

˚₊‧꒰ა 𝒮𝓉𝓇𝒶𝓌𝓅𝒶𝑔𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝓇𝑒𝒶𝒹 𝓅𝒶𝓇𝓉 3 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ Part 3 of my thread dedicated to the text related gimmicks i get on my strawpage!

behind the phone-

yall remember that one exe vessel trend that happened at one point....? yeah... me too- I'm super late as hell... but here's my vessel sona!! She's a Honey Vessel! i will color this later- #execommunity #exeoc #sonicexe #sonicexeoc

OH HEY THERE ME LOL but ye, it was fun, here's the full version of my drawing where Nasya added flair to it!

˚₊‧꒰ა The Exe game dev ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ A proper ref of my lovely bf @notsodevy.bsky.social 's sona Onyx! i'm pretty proud of how this turned out! QwQ

i wish to be known for what i really am...not some character i played..... (slight vent, also this will be the ever time i decided to draw Mallie again.....i only drew her for the sake of me letting my voice out there about what i want to be known for....)

˚₊‧꒰ა Sweet Lavender Kisses ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ colored version of my doodle i did for my lovely bf @notsodevy.bsky.social !

˚₊‧꒰ა DISGUSTING BODY...໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ (⚠️vent) got a bruise on my arm.... the eyebags under my eye are bad....sometimes my body feels pain and how it feels like my stomach is twisting up...my body is disgusting...

i'm not putting this on my thread.... but ughh.... why do people want to remind me of the character i voiced at one point....? okay... this will be the ONLY time i talk about this.... i did voice this character, yes, but i have quit FNATAS a long time ago after the third(+)

yall should send me stuff to make my day brighter....please? xolovesyndromeox.straw.page

˚₊‧꒰ა Kisses for Onyx ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ just a silly doodle for my lovely bf @notsodevy.bsky.social Onyx is one lucky guy

I feel horrible in my body.....due to the bruise on my arm and the eyebags along with my sickness....i want to vomit just lookin at myself...

I LOVE MY BOYFRRRIEENNDDD!! WAAAHHH! QwQ

˚₊‧꒰ა Behind the mask ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ a drawin of @notsodevy.bsky.social 's Onyx without his electronic mask! QwQ

˚₊‧꒰ა You warm my heart....໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ so uhhh...me and @notsodevy.bsky.social are officially in a relationship!! Devy is the most sweetest person i know...and i'm glad to have him by my side....despite everything we both been through...we got each other❤️‍🩹

god, i'm so mentally drained to hell and back....i don't know how much longer i can take all of this negativity happening to the point of me just wanting to break down and just cry......things are rough and i don't think i'll ever smile again....

somethin about this design is throwin me off..... i'm planning on potentially scrap this concept and design a new concept. i'm keeping the theme of a visual novel character trapped in said visual novel with no escape. I might keep the eye design though, cause too proud of it to remove it.

conflicted love.....is somethin i never thought i would experience..... i said i wouldn't open my heart for anyone.... but.... for some reason.... i love two people..... and..... i don't know what to do....

colored!

˚₊‧꒰ა Funny how you think I'm bothered...໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ been a long while since i've drawn my midnight assassin boi Seth, so i decided to fix that! have a random doodle of Seth in his assassin outfit QwQ

˚₊‧꒰ა Friendships don't last....໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ HAPPY SPOOKY MONTH EVERYONE! I have this idea of sharing my own horror experiences regarding toxic friendships and how much it hurts. i'm calling this series of venting Shattered Soul

˚₊‧꒰ა 𝒮𝓉𝓇𝒶𝓌𝓅𝒶𝑔𝑒 𝒶𝓇𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝓇𝑒𝒶𝒹 𝓅𝒶𝓇𝓉 𝟤໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ ⑅:†· ♡ ·†:⑅ Part 2 of a thread dedicated to drawing gimmicks on my strawpage (xolovesyndromeox.straw.page)

Queen of Thorns and Grief..... holy fuck, that's awesome as hell...!

had to delete my okaasan drawing because i didn't look too deep into the song, and been told it's something to do with an abusive mother, however, i'm currently workin on a replacement drawin to start off spooky month, apologies in advance.

im a bit sick.... so like imma be sleepy so constantly and i will be barely posting art for this reason, so i apologize for lack of art from me... hhh.

💜♱♡𝐿𝑜𝓋𝑒 𝒮𝓎𝓃𝒹𝓇𝑜𝓂𝑒♡♱💜 ⋆⁺₊⋆☾⋆⁺₊⋆♡⋆⁺₊⋆☾⋆⁺₊⋆⋆⁺₊⋆☾⋆⁺₊⋆♡⋆⁺₊⋆☾⋆⁺₊⋆ "𝒫𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓈𝑒 𝒷𝑒 𝑔𝑒𝓃𝓉𝓁𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝓂𝓎 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉..." 𝐻𝒾 𝐻𝑒𝓁𝓁𝑜, 𝑀𝓎 𝒩𝒶𝓂𝑒 𝒾𝓈 𝒴𝓊𝓊𝓃𝒶/𝑀𝓎𝓊 ♱𝒟𝒾𝑔𝒾𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒜𝓇𝓉𝒾𝓈𝓉 ♱𝐻𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉𝓈𝒾𝒸𝓀𝒹𝑒𝓇𝑒 💜♱♡𝒫𝐿𝐸𝒜𝒮𝐸 𝑅𝐸𝒜𝒟 𝒮𝒯𝑅𝒜𝒲𝒫𝒜𝒢𝐸 𝐵𝒴𝐹♡♱💜 xolovesyndromeox.straw.page ⋆⁺₊⋆☾⋆⁺₊⋆♡⋆⁺₊⋆☾⋆⁺₊⋆⋆⁺₊⋆☾⋆⁺₊⋆♡⋆⁺₊⋆☾⋆⁺₊⋆ ♡𝓍𝑜𝓍𝑜♡