I've been in a mental loop, god knows how long for.. it's a relief but I need to work. It was the first time in a long time I remembered a dream so vividly; a black city above the sky - some of the stars are lit windows looking down

sometimes, I wish to be small and orbular. bnnuy stasis

The fuck do I do? I turned art into a 9-5, the one thing I wanted to not do with my life... I won't be able to complete the waiting list until sept - I have no time except the weekend for personal stuff, my wrist has exploded, I'm scared that everything is going to shatter

Is that feeling of "missing something" actually grounded in anything? Or is it just looming dread about nothing in particular?

God I know I had a bad experience with Linux Mint before, but that was due to hardware limitations. This on my gaming rig feels so fucking clllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaannnnnnnnnnn

The human experience is a game / play with an infinite number of rules with an infinite number of personas, but the universe abides by none of them

Idk if there is such a thing as an 'artistic post nut clarity' but I might have just thought that fucks with how I've been making things. When I draw I've always wanted to hit a specific feeling, but I've never been able to achieve it [Cont]

Do I worry to much about running games as a DM? Maybe? It feels the same way drawing does, brain is giving me flak for not being efficient / effective enough, even tho all I'm doing is having fun It puts a damper on things

I think imma take up swordplay Yeh, the one with the swords... and the 'swords', what's the worst that could happen? I get stabbed? You fools, you utter fools, I'm br*tish

It's 7:30, idk why I made this account but it's here now... Bleh